Today

I am reminded that I am hated
That I am never good enough
That my past mistakes will forever haunt me
That repenting is a waste of time
That I will forever be judged by my sins

Tomorrow

I shall remind myself that I am loved more
That I am good enough
That I learned from my past mistakes
That repenting brings me closer to God
That I will instead be judged by how much I learned from my sins

I feel it raining,
On a cloudless sunny day,
Flooding only me.

I don’t want to be here

...and as you fall in love with yourself,
You might lose your love for him
Do not apologize,
You deserved your own love more than he did.

I cant believe you
I gave you my all and all you did was put it in a cup
Drink it all night
Let it get your head
And call the person who loved you most
And tell him he didnt.
What a sick twisted world....

Tell me why you like him they say
I get it everyday.
Well let’s not delay,
The way he makes me smile
It last a while.
The safeness of his embrace,
It feels like the right place.
The look in his eyes,
Says no lies.
Holding his hand,
I feel like I understand.
My depression walks away when I’m with him,
He’s like a hymn.
Tell me it’s wrong:
But he’s my song.
The lyrics are his words,
The melody is his heartbeat,
He keeps me alive
And together we thrive.

This ring,
He gave it to me, you know.
It came as a surprise,
On a day so right,
On a morning so white,
With Clouds so blue,
Just at the right time.
I, a flower, opening up its petals,
To the golden morning sun.
There it was,
There, in its greatness,
A delicately cut metal,
With a beautifully designed pink symmetrical stone,
A literal piece of art, oozing radiation.
It’s luminosity never seizes,
To synthesize my flowery heart.
Let me hold on to you,
Dear Source of light,
For you are,
A constant reminder of the moment, I said
“YES, I WILL FOREVER BE YOURS” to infinity,
As the Heavens and Nature rallied around You and Me.
Around Us, to witness, our two-become-one.