I saw forever in your eyes. . .


                Then you closed them.

Isn’t it hard to believe
Someone would give their life
For you and for me?
Leaving behind a husband or wife

Maybe they had children
A few brothers or sisters
At least a million
Fallen Mrs. and Mr’s

Never again will they see the glow
Of a warm, welcoming light
Feel the chill of powdery snow
For a rare Christmas of white

Not even one last goodbye
To those in their lives who mattered
Just a peaceful sigh
From the soldier who is tattered

These strangers who lay down their lives
Are hidden everywhere
So thank he who survives
Show them that you care

©Meghan Weatherford

I write you letters and i tell you things i cant say face to face
I tell you how my day was and what i learned
I tell you how im feelng and if today was bad or good
i tell you my fears of not being a good enough daughter

I spend hours on these letters and i wish i could tell you on my own
You write me letters too
You tell me how much you love me how your day was
You tell me im stronger then what i use to do and you tell me that nothing can change the love and care you have for me
You tell me im good enough and always will be

Hopefully one day i will stop writing letters and talk to you face to face
Will you wipe the tears that fall just like the paper does?
will you hold me tightly when i am having trouble explaining all that has happened
Will i still be good enough when you see what i really am ?

I hate you for being embarrassed of me
I forgave you for saying I'm beautiful

I hate you for ignoring me
I forgave you for saying I was your number one

I hate you for only looking at the outside of me
I forgave you when you held my hand

I hate you for leaving me
I forgave you for being honest

I hate you for saying you loved her more than you ever loved me
I will never forgive you for that

with a Polaroid camera
I captured you
I captured us
made us tangible
made you mine
face to face
skin to skin
rough hands
bringing me back to life
I've been cold for so long
A touch and a tremble
Ignites new flames
Consumes me
Soft sounds
Perfect chemistry
Unfamiliar devotion
Belonged to no one
Belongs to you now

I can't write...
     I have a stash of twenty drafts, bearing a couple of lines each
I can't crack...
     Every draft seem to have developed a shell I can't breach
I can't gather...
     My thoughts so I could nurture these drafts to fruition
I can't think...
     The clatter in my head meant only to deafen
I can't fathom...
     What went right from what had gone completely awry
I can't find...
     Much needed sanity to let soar and fly
I can't cry...
     The tears I've beckoned for so very badly
I can't scream...
     Only muffled gurgles of notions drowned at sea
I can't see...
     The bigger picture...that consumed us both
I can't hear...
     Except for the dreaded voice of reason that I loathe
I can't piece...
     Together one decent little write

I can't breathe...
     I can't breathe...*I'm losing this fight