he wrote about
her and
made her
immortal.


-- Eleanor

i am terrified
to spill my guts
because oceans will pour out
and i am afraid
you won't know what to do with the storm
and i will only drown you

s.s

"I Love You"s melted

Under my tongue 'til you were

Yet bitter nostalgia,

Yet the feeling of emptiness

Yet the absence of memories

Yet the memories of absence.


Let the shadow of those two petals rest

And rim a mirage over my lips.

Let that serve as a reminder of the venom behind every kiss.

Let me accept the reality that you mean me no good.

That I should’ve stopped when I still could.


Take heed that I want more.

Take to heart I’m too vulnerable to make these kinds of decisions.

Take pity that I’m too submissive to threaten your position.

Take this kiss as a final blow.

As a signature of defeat.

This coup d’etat

The last draw in heat.

This is me now
a candle in the wind that won't blow out.
This is me now
a glass window that won't shatter into pieces.
a friend to all
a demon slowly becoming mortal
This is me now a six year old girl
coming out of the dark.
You can't scare me anymore...
I'm alive...I am brave
I won't shatter under your control
I am strong I am brave.