When you kept insisting that you didn't deserve it
When you doubted yourself and felt no sense of direction
I shone upon you all the light I could manage
And I loved you with everything that I was, everything I had.

When you felt like nothing, when you were numb
I gave you warmth, I gave you shelter within my heart
I saved the best parts of me for you, and I dont mean the ***
I meant the all the love I've been putting away for the right person

When you made a point of being afraid of hurting me
When you felt as if you weren't worthy, unsure of what you felt for me
I constantly assured you of my love even when you didn't do the same
You weren't my world, honey, my world revolved around you— my star.

My everything.

Heartbreak after heartbreak,
each one hurts less everytime.
And I don't know if it's because I've forgotten
the very essence of love,
or if I'm simply going numb.

He was the sun, and I was the moon.
Without him, I couldn't illume the night.
I took all the darkness, he had morning and noon,
Without each other, the world wasn't right.
He was the fire, and I was the ice.
He'd bring the chaos without thinking twice.
Whatever flesh he burns, I come to aid.
I touch him without ever being afraid.
He was the ground, and I was the sky.
Aware of each other, but turn a blind eye.
He gave me vapor, I gave him the weather;
It was our only way of being together.
He was the mass, and I was the space.
And without hesitation, in my life, he took place.
I let him consume me, I didn't mind, you see,
I was just happy that somebody needed me.
He was he, and I was me.
What a fool I've been to trust and believe
That we need each other, when the sad truth is,
All there has been for us, was to coexist.

I hope you know that I always cheer you on from afar and always hope you're happy, look out my window saying good morning to you when I wake up, saying good night before I fall asleep, look at the horizon every sunset and pretend I'm talking to you after having a bad day.
As if you're still here, as if you never left. Thinking only our bodies are apart but not our hearts, not our souls.
Wondering if you feel it when you're out there and I'm here loving you with every bit of me that I am able to
Wondering if you see my face in heaven as often as I see your face here on earth everywhere I look
I hope you find joy, happiness, and whatever it is in life that you seek.
Even if that life you'll find is a life without me.

If this is love
I've never known it
Till now