Gwen - Hello Poetry

Gwen Jan 2015

WHY

I stand in shower,
rubbing at my skin trying to rid myself of your touch.
If I could,
I'd shed my skin all together.

It's been years and I can still remember the fear in my heart when I woke up
You took my sleeping as silent consent
Even though I was only 9.

I thought for so long that it was my fault.
I fear every man I meet,
I worry that he'll be just like you.

I still have nights where I worry that
You'll wake me up again.

I feel so used
So worthless,
and you ruined by life.

I stopped caring about my body,
I let others use me,
I let others treat me like trash
Because I felt like I was.

I stopped eating
and started to hurt myself in order to feel.

I still hate my body
and I still remember what places you touched
Where the bruises were.

You Ruined My Life

#young #personal #**** #victim #consent

Gwen Jan 2015

short poem

I thought that you cared
and I was convinced you'd stay.
But I was just a phase
and I haven't talked to you in months.

very short. like it??
Do I make too many poems centered?

#heartbreak #lost #i #you #heartbroken #miss #used #months #phase

Gwen Jan 2015

Lust with Love

You traced the curve of my spine
You touched every inch of my body
You held me at night
You kissed my lips
You looked into my eyes
You said you were in love with me
And I was in love with you too

I know this is in past tense oops.

#love #lust #in #relationship #i #you #kissed

Gwen Jan 2015

Another poem about you

Your lips pressed softly to mine,
and I swear to god the world stopped.
My heart beat faster,
and my mind went blank.

Months later,
Your hands traced the curve of my back,
and it caused shivers up my spine.
My heart skipped a beat,
and my mind was flooded with thoughts of you.

You held my hand everywhere we went,
and I knew that I was in love.
My heart swelled with happiness,
and my mind couldn't focus on anything but you.

You held me when we watched films,
and I began to crave your arms around me.
My heart longed for you,
and my mind thought of nothing but being in your arms.

You have my heart in your hands,
and have taken over my mind.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO END THIS HELP?!?!?

#love #boyfriend #in #relationship #i #you #crave

Gwen Jan 2015

Only worth my body

I was taught to believe that your body meant nothing.
So I gave every part of it to people I never cared about.
I let their hands wander
I let them do whatever.

In a way I liked feeling wanted,
Even if it was only for 20 minutes in the back of a car
Or rushed before parents came home.

I was content with being used
I was content with being temporary

But deep down,
All I wanted was to be loved.

I wanted someone to want more for more than my body,
To tell me they loved me,
Rather than they lusted for me.

I gave up on being loved,
Accepting that I was just a toy
That I was only worth my body

Till someone came along
They told me they loved me
They told me they cared about me
They meant every word they said

They kissed me softly
And touched me with the lights on
We held hands
And we fell in love

Sorry if this is horrific and too long

#love #lust #woman #body #loved #women #used #useless #worthless #unloved

Gwen Jan 2015

Too early to be in love

"It's too early to be in love", They said.
But since when did love have a limit,
When was it decided that you had to spend a certain length of time with someone,
Before you could love them?

Why do I have to be with someone for months before I can say I love them?
Why do I have to be with someone for months before I am allowed to stay up late at night thinking about them?

I said I loved you from day one.
I flat out told you I was falling in love with you.
I lost sleep over you before we were even together.

Love has no time limit.
Love is how you feel.
Love is not limited to a number of months.
Love is limitless.

I was in love from day one, and ten months later, I still am.

#love #poem #fallinlove #iloveyou #new #together #limit #newpoet #tooearly #beinginlove