Don't let this self-effacing exterior fool you
I am meglo-maniac in the making
Social media the perfect introvert's mask
Reinventing myself daily
Vanessa Ives, girl-about-town, quirky geek
An attention *****
******* in the digital wind
For a like, a follow, a retweet.

Symbol of joy,
and things that have been.
Searching for wonders,
And things unseen.

Symbol of peace,
And summers long past.
Searching for secrets,
and things that will last.

Symbol of pain,
and wars from afar.
Searching for friendship,
and leaving with scars.

Symbol of change,
and those friends long dead.
Searching for laughter,
and leaving with hearts of lead.

Symbol of unity,
and standing together.
Searching for the end,
and finding it lasts forever.

Hello / goodbye
bent on / goodnight
Can't sleep / just cry
My dreams / I die
Don't live / survive
Im losing / the fight
Demons / unite
Take over / my mind
Can't see / I'm blind.
Get in / and drive
Away / behind
we're out / of time
People / they try
They ask / I lie
They hear / they buy
While I / stand by
And whisper / **"I'm fine"

You are
dreams to me
magical and mystical but fleeting

You are
hope to me
strong and powerful but diminishing

You are
forever to me
continuous and intriguing but pointless

You are
laughter to me
my only thoughts to me
the saviour from my darkest days to me
                                                           twisting changing
Calm down and trust it, they say

You told me you trusted me,
Made me think we were okay.
Stroking my hair and smiling,
Like forever would be this way.

But then things changed,
You said I wouldn't understand...
Treated me like I wouldn't care
If you pushed me away...

I tried talking...
But my words never seem to make sense.
They don't fall into place...
Not like your lies...

The thing is darling,
I actually cared...
But when you push someone away,
Eventually they'll just let go...