As you have gone..
.. I'm romancing with the rain.
But, every drop on my bare skin..
.. Reminds me of you, your touch and your fingertips on my skin.

I sit with my face to the sun trying to catch it's warmth
But the winds quickly snatches that away
I'm quite content right here
Under the baby blue sky
Sitting in a sea of yellow flowers
They almost glow reflecting the joy of the day
But nothing breaks the chilly winds of change
The flowers scream to the sky
As the Sun's rays reach down
Like a mother for a child
The wind drags in the clouds
To blind each other's view
Mother Nature starts to cry
The flowers bowed thier heads
The sun just hides her face
For everything knew the winds of Chang where neigh

I saw you again
Today
All those memories
Gosh
**** it’s hard
Remembering
All those emotions
I gave to you
My feelings
My thoughts
My dreams
My desires
My pain
My love
And you held them
Like a newborn babe
Close to your heart
You put me through the wringer
One more time
You’re always good for that
But you also show me
How far I’ve come
You’ll never let me forget
How I used to be
A shadow of a man
Emotionally crippled
Filled with rage
And anger
At a world with love
That only hurt me
The boy who saw those in love
Wondered how easily they found it
He wanted it desperately
And ran to the ends of the earth
To hide from it
It hurts to remember how I was
Eternally grateful
I had you
To be there for me
To listen to my thoughts
To capture that pain
And for some measure
Relieve me of it
I don’t know what I would have done
Without you
Overdosed?
Suicide?
Insanity?
All very real possibilities
I’m lucky
Lucky that I found a positive outlet
Lucky I found you
Even when I put you away
I never want to forget you
Always…

Everyday is a new day and that is a fact
But each day is harder to keep myself intact
Reliving each moment within shattered memories
It eats away my insides until there is nothing left of me

I know I have to be patient for all of this to pass
I know that this feeling will not always last
As the time passes the minutes feel like hours
And in all the sunshine my heart is in rain showers

But it is the precious rain that washes everything clean
The rain washes away and makes everything brand new
But in the midst of this it feels like there is no escape
I am trapped in my mind and it is my own life I can take

I hope that you all will keep me in your prayers
As I struggle with what has been and what will be
My mind and my heart keep playing musical chairs
Until the day arrives that I can finally be set free

She was not happy
Her soul slides away
Wandering in the alley
Body, mind and heart at fray

She was lost
in thoughts and words
fingers crossed
silently praying to the lords

She was cursed
emotions wanted to burst
couldn't anymore hide the pain
so she cried a river and didn't strain

Her sobs were a sad song
in the alley wailing for so long
But nobody cares
and nobody dares,
to ask her how is she
to save her from misery

The world is apathetic
and some are sympathetic
but help was never offered
so alone she suffered

The light in her eyes were gone
Her soul slides away
In this awful place she was done
wrapped her neck with a cord and play

The routine is always the same.
The bedroom door closed
Music so loud that
My scream cannot be heard  
One thing leads to the other
Before I know, I have tears down my eyes and a razor in my hand
I don't know how many times I promised myself that it would be the last time
Minutes later I hate myself
Why was I so weak?
I regret it with all my strength
But its the only thing that temporarily eases the emotional pain.
I wish I didn't do this,
But there I am again,
Closing the door and let emotions flow just like the blood down my wrists...