Poet X

Poet X Sep 2019

let me drown in the
vastness of my own consciousness .

let me sleep,
sleep once without waking up tired .

tired from the same feelings
that left me tired the night before .

a plead from an insomniac

#insomnia #sleep #tired #rest #bed #thoughts

Sep 2019

Sanaa

Drinking

Just put the bottle down
Before your liver turns black
Stop drowning in your sorrows.
Face them instead

Staying sober won’t **** you
It’ll do the opposite
Cause your drinking
It’s not just hurting your insides

It’s also hurting mine

Poet X Sep 2019

stop looking at yourself like that

but dear,
if we humans were only ever meant to be beautiful

we wouldn't have been born in
the dirt .

you don't need to change .

#beauty #earh #***** #clean #mirror #self #love

Poet X Sep 2019

i swear i’m usually not a love poet

I swear I’m not a love poet but

loving you
makes me scared of dying .

I know what it’s all about now,
I get why the sun rises
and the moon sets.
I understand why the stars shine
and the birds chirp.
I get why the heart beats
and the lungs breathe.

I get it now,
why I’m alive.

loving you is the only thing I feel good at .

#love #living #alive #breathing #heart #moon #sun #stars #scared

Poet X Aug 2019

truth, i guess .

i just don't think there is any metaphor,
i don't think i can censor or hide this

i don't want to die,
i just wish i never existed in the first place.

that's all .

#truth #down #out #existence #dying #metaphors #censor

Poet X Aug 2019

what wakes you up ?

its always been a wonder to me,
what keeps everyone waking up every morning ?

what gets you out of bed?

what can be so strong
that overcomes the want to not exist .

or is it just me ?

Poet X Aug 2019

bleeding, but not broken .

a heart is not a bone,
i suppose it can not be broken .

it's a muscle,
strained far beyond its proper use .

it does not work the same anymore,

honestly
i'd be surprised
if it wanted to work at all .

#heart #heartbroken #strain #tired #working #muscle #broken