Everything just became real
It's me against the world
Many preparing for my downfall

There will be no falls
While I [THE LORD] being besides you and you holding onto me

nothing feels right
I cried
I believe crying is one of the  ingredient of a remedy that cure pain

A choice to be forever or never
A title that suits someone
Someone who is everyone
You may think of a friend as a person
But a friend is a thing
Today is present
Tomorrow is no more

She did not want to be one
She choose to be a sister
To be forever

She is a plant
buried in me
Its seed my brain
Her roots my veins
Her bark my heart
She had life within herself

She was worth seeking for...
She is food when hunger strikes
She is shade on  hot days
She is a rich-fresh morning air which fills a day with good energy
She is CARE
She is a definition of a FRIEND

It is factitious
It fooled you
You saw perfection in it  
The world in an
image was perfect but ain't world is perfect

You misinterpreted perfect
Your perfect was everyone being flawless and all the same...

Perfect is flaws
Perfect is uniqueness
Perfect is every story

My story is you,babe
Real, flawed and emotional
It is way too perfect
It is different

Appreciation rules it
Love and care save it
I strengthen it
A feeling keeps it solid
Together, we an inspiration

They referred to me as trash
I was b             r
                  o             k      
       e                 n                pieces
The world tried to put me back together into one piece
but the cracks were still visible
They meant nothing to life.
I was treasure by then
The environment, ready to accept me

I was one of the dynamite that will enlighten the journey of the BROKEN

They said I've changed
but they failed to explain the change
coz I did not change
I grew
Growth took part

The world turned
I viewed everything at a different angle
That's why they saw change in me

You gave me a nasty word
You gave me "hate",
the word I never had

You brought nothing but pain
You brought separation
You brought tears as you take our belovedz

What kind of a foreigner are you?
You don't belong in our world
We welcome foreigners who bring good not bad

Can you please go into exile?
Maybe you might enjoy it there 'cause here you made our world so small.

An event that breaks the "unbreakable"
It build hate,
Promotes mistrust
And result to separation

Then:
           It spoke
           through colours it came with
           But we...
           We became deaf
           Unfortunately not blind

           We saw the blue,
                                   the green,
                                             the brown
           and then there was the rainbow
           Still, none understood

           Blue resembles the water
           Where life began
           Green resembles plants
           Where the processing of life
           takes place
           Brown resembles the soil
           Where our gifts are rooted

                                                         ­    Now:
We realise that the environment
gave us everything
because it came with nature in
hand
and the rainbow resembles us as
a diverse nation

It is a difficult action to take
Yet a betrayal to peace
Without it
Nothing is ever the same

In the world where everyone is a prisoner
yet they claim to have freedom.
None of them understand "Freedom"

Which freedom are you talking about?

when money determines what you can/can not be

when anger punishes you for someone's mistakes

when fear wraps around you when it becomes dark

when you're jailed with depression and anxiety after  failing yourself

Is that freedom?

There's no such thing as freedom
It's a word used to manipulate you psychologically, emotionally and spiritually.

So do you still believe there's freedom in this world?

It is a heavy word
Especially when my lungs cough it out
or my ears collect its waves

A goodbye doesn't guarantee us that we will meet again
It guarantees us that it will bring a new hello and that's not what I want
A new hello won't be the same as yours

I'd rather say
Until I see you again

A real big time challenge
A solution that many seek for,
A solution with so many procedures,
not generals ones...
A new one every time action needs to be taken .

They make it sound easy
They say time heals
I wanna believe that but...
it's all a lie.

They again said peace will set you free, but it has zero effect
so many times told to accept and forgive
for peace sake
for what sake again ?!

Every time I do that
it feels like a setback
because everything come back my direction driven by pain
and pain doesn't have brakes
so he ends up crashing me
Leaving me broken once again
All feels like building a tower without a foundation
Everything collapses when you about to reach the top

Failed time management
Stack of work piled up
Taller than my height
Ready to collapse on me

It was a heavy load

Was it that heavy?

No,I made it to be so
Responsibility and accountability for my work was hard labour

I made it a heavy load

He left
After he said
He will always be here
He crushed me
I don't know if it was his intentions or a mission to hurt me
If it was a mission
I say "MISSION ACCOMPLISHED"

He left my heart broken
He left my soul restless
He left my mind at war
He left me lost

He did everything so not to be forgotten

He took everything but left the memory of us behind

He left an image of himself all over my body
He left scars

The hurt he caused was on repeat and that  kept him in my story
He never really left
He was always here as he said he will.

A meaningless term
It is misinterpreted to be a building
It is a feeling

I would wonder why I seeked for it for so long and yet haven't found it

It is a feeling of belonging.
The love that raise one
The care that allow one to grow
The support that keep one in hope

It is home

It was introduced to me at very young age
I never thought of it as a bad "someone"
I befriended it

MY MISTAKE !
It broke me as time goes by
It became a grip in my life

BLANK







I did not know depression and anxiety was part of it

It haunted until then...

Written  hate in her eyes
but has a loving heart

i said it's fine
with eyes pouring out tears
and a heart full of pain
they saw everything was not okay but still i said everything it's fine

they didn't understand why i lied
i did not lie
i said what i had to say
no words were better explanation than "it's fine"

coz it was all written her

The one month filled with joy
Everyone is positive
Minds thinking of building not breaking
Hearts pumping love not hate
because we made peace in Dec
Wanting only greatness to come our way this year

She said,"I find it in them"
and  I said I find it in me

Two people who viewed the world differently

My morning was a sunshine with a beautiful start.
That morning,
I remember...
My heart was at peace
My home screamed love and joy
I didn't understand the excitement

Well we said goodbyes to each other
and went our separate ways
Heck! that was my last goodbye
I got hit by a car and died on the spot

The morning ended in tears
then there was a new hello from grief and trauma
introducing themselves to my parents

It treated me with extreme cruelty
I tried to run away from it
but I kept coming back for it
because Death wasn't ready to welcome me

I was not supposed to die like that...
It was all the failed suicide attempts

That's why I'm still here...

Karma brought equality
But failed to keep balance
Everything was on water
Ready to sink and drown
because everyone wanted to be the same
Revenge and avenge became the authority

Life:
I realised I was hell myself
I played a part in every story
Different but all the same in sin

I brought confusion
Happiness was misunderstood
My demons were doing well
Turning the world upside down
'Lost'concluded every thought,feeling and story

Devils were proven right

L
I
_
E

I read between the lines
Trying to discover the pattern
Then I realised F was inversible

I was living a lie all along

Never thought of him being found
He escaped into his world
Where purification ruled,
Everything was free-spirited,
Perfection reigned

Pain and stress didn't existed,
'WANTED!' silent killers
Joygiver  venoms -
***, drugs and alcohol were the past
Flashed down the drains

Without all toxic
Everything was purified
No more ***** minds
No more pained hearts
No more stroke bringers

He felt pure but incomplete
His heart and joy left
They did not belong in his world
Life was no more
He came to my world
and he was found after a long search by she he loved
She had his heart and joy
He felt forever complete once more

Heart destroying me
Trying to please everyone
Mind looking out for me
But it's overworking itself
Wanting to fill all the holes the heart leaves behind
Now am overthinking everything
coz my mind is all over

I was caged with darkness
Anger was my only friend
My enemies were the ones who couldn't tolerate my friend

There was no good me
There was only the impatient, aggressive and troubled me.
I hated many with passion
and expected good things to come my way

I was lost

Careful! Careful!
That's dangerous!
Do you know how it works?
BOOM!
It exploded,
right in my face!
They said it's beautiful
That's half truth
They forgot to mention, it's also destructive

I had a manual
But it was general
Because I built accordingly,
I swear
I followed every step correctly
I read it couple of times,
but missing a POINT.
A point saying, it goes both ways
It either bloom or explode
Love...

A strange word
which bring people together or apart
A feeling which holds a room for other emotions
It goes a long way with everything

Evil of all roots

Are feelings that come with it part of the roots?

I mean the pain it brings when is no where to be found.

I mean the joy it brings when is around.

It came between me and her
It brought conflict
One felt superior and de other felt inferior.

It left hate

Is there love in it?

Broken or not
It can be in the war zone or in paradise
The “moment”
I mean the tears and the laughter we share
when we remember the good and bad times
It revives the feeling of home

My family have a strong bond
No energy breaks it
cos it’s not up to us in the end
Our bloodline have decided that we gonna be a fam
No matter what

I've been waiting for this day
Since day one,the time I was born
Seeing light for the very first time
And heard sweet voices of singing birds

I grew up with loneliness waiting for my one
The one who made me to go out there and look for outside love
The one who made me realise that my beauty is inside and also outside
Who is this one?
I think you should know

It is the gentleman I met
Who held me up when I couldn't stand
Who wiped away the tears I cried
Who gave me power when I felt hopeless
Who sang for me and made me feel like I'm in my dreams

This gentleman was the one and only
who made me to have love forever and always in my heart
He was the one meant for me
My TRUE LOVE

Written by
Maitsholo

A weapon used to destroy many
I saw it as a tool to build me

It fortified me and I was able to fight the battle called "Life"

It became a close friend

Life had to be hard to live the great one

You became cruel
You ran away from me when I needed you most
You vanished into thin air in a wink of an eye
Just after you realised I was with you

You left me clueless
You drained out everything
I was left dry and my world cracked
I didn't know where to look for you

Without you
Arguments became my language
Wars became my hobbies
Battlefield became home
Eventually I engaged to all of that

I swam in an ocean of negativity
Searching high and low for you...and myself                     because then-I
                                  felt lost
After a while I realised you didn't belong there
I felt hopeless
Where could you be?

Truth I ran and can't be found
I could not handle you
Your heart was full of pain
Tons of emotions overpowered me
Anger stood high
That's not where I belong
I need you to contain your emotions and remain humble
I will be found and help you to discover yourself

i said i am okay
but my heart was crying river of tears

i lied
and forgot my eyes already told the truth

I thought of it as a place of books and pens only
A place of learning and teaching
But it was something else

It was a place of creating memories
Capturing moments
Making a movie out of it
With all the teenage drama and fantasy

It was a camp site for some
Always ready to go on an adventure
It was a place of retreat for others
Because it had a feeling of home

It is a place to forever be remembered

Pain became the silencer
those who understood my silence
knew words that spoke volume were said in silent

Pain said I will find strength in him.
It was a lie!
I searched...
             and SEARCHED...
                          AND SEARCHED.
All I found was tears
I thought they were of joy
but NAH...
They were of pain himself,
together with heartbreak

He made me go through the worst,
and he then said again, I don't have to search for strength but I have to earn it.
That's when I became strong and decided to face him

Alone in a room
No sort of distraction
I can feel my emotions vigorously fighting each other
I can't stand the fight
My mind, BLANK

I feel some peace
No longer in this world
In the que to enter the heaven's gate
Don't know how my welcome is gonna be.

The que seem not to be moving anymore
They say it's not yet my time
And I am not willing to go back
Been waiting so long for this

The department seem too slow
Trying to help
I consumed poison
My heart fueled with love and joy
My mind at rest
My soul at peace
The pain was no more
Feeling unconscious

After a while
I woke
And I was sent back to hell (to the world)

Flowing on my cheeks
Converging on my chin
They came with pain
Instaed of joy
Their plans were to sink me in them

I rose and flew before I drown
I knew if I drowned
I would sink in them and
that will be my last seen.

Winter melody
The melody that fuel me with energy
The energy that fills empty holes within

It is the melody composed by nature

The Melody of the whistling wind
Making trees to shake off their butts
moving left and right
following the rhythm
Leaves whipping as they hit the ground
Birds chirping
rejoicing for a beautiful day

It is an enchanting melody composed by nature

I was a child who was everything
but she became nothing
She was adopted by the world full of sorrrow
The world that made her broken
The world which she worn its scars,
That made life H
                                   E
                                           L
                                                 L
She was a dead walking man

Until one day, I met him
I looked into his eyes,
Eyes with sparkles of change.
He made life H
                            E
                                A­
                                    V
                          ­              E
                                           N
He smiled at me and,
his smile repaired my broken parts.
His lips uttered the words "I love you"
and they made me a complete angel because...
Now my scars are seen as stars.

It was destroying some
It brought failure to others
Soon it was discovered not a problem but a habit

The problem with you :
'WHY?' was not in your vocab
You were quick to point fingers
You never ask
You always had your own thoughts  -
           answers        to              any
      thing                          so
                            you
            concluded            every  
                             thing

That's the problem with you.

Love.
It introduced itself
Its personality was charming
Its character was fun and great
Overall it was sweet

They fell for it

It was fake
It was an imposter
The real one went everywhere with
its brother Commitment
and its sister Loyalty

In the end
They fell with it
It only needed a partner in crime

I talked
and told them about what bothered me
They did not listen

I shouted
to let the anger out
because I was angry that
They did not listen

I cried
to show them the hurt
They did not care
None of them understood my language because
They never listened

I realised that they never listen
I decided to be silent
My silence bothers them
so now they want to listen
and now ain't the right time to talk

I no longer need them

they thought i needed fixing
only to discover i am not broken
but i am tired
and i need a lifetime rest

they felt helpless
coz it was not in their power to help

We said we gonna take it slow...
Until our first date,
We realized that we were driving at 180km/h,
Imitating Micheal Schumacher.
Forgetting at the end of the road there's a sharp turn
We crashed.

I know love kills, but a slow death
So, I thought...I'd find cure for this love
Not realizing, this love is not poisonous but corrosive
It is very toxic as a Sulfuric acid
Once it gets hold of you
It shreds you into nothing
Same time we forget about your existence
That's what this love does

mine hurt
coz they come with expectations

and nothing has ever happened the way I've expected it