***** you.

You ungrateful
*******.

You tear me apart
then build me back
up.

Like a child's
building blocks.

Like some
stupid toy.

***** you.

I'm like an
orange.  
Peel my shell and
tear me open
   to find my
soft
sweet
insides.

I walk away
so I know that I wont see you
but I know that you're still there
waiting

I am

the drunken epitome of my mother.

I am

the anger that resides in my father.

I am

the fear in my sisters eyes.

I am

tearing us apart.

Sitting on this
Porch again
So I don´t face whats
Going on inside

You found my
alcohol and
you seemed mad but
now you want some

You drank
You got drunk
only for the sake of
having an excuse
not to make love to
me

At this point
I dont care
all I want is the rest of that bottle
and it better be waiting for me
tomorrow.

Her face was a
disarray  
of smudged makeup and
dried tears.

Dear Emily,

I understand.

Dear Emily,

I'm sorry for ever
leaving you  at the
worst of times.

I'm sorry for ever
lying to you.
That's not what sisters do, well
did.

Dear Emily,

Take me back and
fix this broken mess of
a woman I call myself
today.

Take me back and
hold me close and
forget everything i've done.

Dear Emily,

I didn't mean to
abandon you,
I meant to save you from
me.

I didn't mean to
leave forever,
but I was long gone before either of us knew.

Dear Emily,

I wonder if you
miss me as much as I
do you

I wonder if I
ever cross your mind while
you're with your
new friends.

Dear Emily,

Forget that I wrote this and
move on with your
life.

Forget all the tears we shed in
each others arms and
the laughs we had at 2 in the morning.

Dear Emily,

Forget me.

It's as if neither of us existed in
each others lives

Dear Emily,

I still love you more than anyone else in the whole world.

My memory of you
stayed, but you
faded.

You faded away darling,
you became a
blur.

I had forgotten the
good times and
bad.

I had even forgotten
about
her.

The hole you
put in my heart
closed

And the anger you
gave me
subsided.

I'll forgive and
forget all of our
memories

Because I'll admit,
I was
blinded.

Remember me forever
or forget me
yesterday

I could give
a ****.

I just want
to be
okay.

It's hard to die in springtime,
you know,
But I'm leaving for the flowers
with my eyes closed.

Whirligig birdies, oh you're so cute
you put up a good fight against the wind
blowing at you

Of course he’s
A ******* musician

Let you tune into my soul
With melodies you
Have practiced over
And over again

They don’t sound like anything
You shake when you
Play
The strings
Don’t obey your
Weak complexities

You couldn’t serenade
A cow.

Tall figures in black
guide me through the past

I remember now why i'm here
there's no need to ask

Satan sits there,
crossed legged,  staring right at me

I stare right back
waiting for his approval of entry