everyone wants
to slip away
casually -

but you cant
slip through
the cracks
without earning
a few scrapes

if youre caught
between a rock
and a hard place,
something will
end up broken

because the
foundation
you build your
love on
cannot be made
of something like
sand

it could hit at 3 AM
or 3 PM
monday or tuesday
wednesday or thursday
friday or the weekend
on your birthday
at a party
or when you
awaken in the middle
of the night
in a cold sweat

something this unforgiving
strikes fast
strikes first
and strikes hard

something this cold
doesnt care if its summer

something this unsettling
doesnt mind if you *****
all over your friends carpet

youll feel the chill
youll feel the bruise
youll feel the darkness
wherever you go
wherever you are
whenever you least expect it

she looked at me
knowingly
and said,
*"for you to
hate
someone
that much,
you must have
once loved them
just as
equally."