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001
Z Aug 6
001
I found you
And it was enough
It was worth it

But it doesn't mean
You have to see me too
Because I don't deserve
Someone as precious as you
Para kay E
002
Z Aug 6
002
Piliin **** maging masaya

Bumangon ka

Kalimutan ang lungkot

Sa akin ay kumapit

Ililigtas kita mula sa pighati
Para kay E
003
Z Aug 6
003
Pag-ibig mo man ay puno ng pagdududa

Hayaan **** alisin ko ang pangamba

Babalutin kita ng aking pag-ibig

Pananatilihin ka sa aking mga bisig
Para kay E
004
Z Aug 10
004
Araw-araw,

panibagong umaga

Panibagong hamon

sa pagitan nating dalawa

Walang sawa akong babangon

sa bawat umaga

Hanggat alam ko

na ikaw ay kasama
para kay E
005
Z Aug 10
005
Mahal Kita

Dalawang salita na tila hindi sapat

Upang bigyang kahulugan itong nadarama

Pagkat walang katumbas pag-ibig sayo sinta
Para kay E
006
Z Sep 18
006
I love you
as much as I loved myself
You love me
the best way you possibly can

But,

I don't love myself anymore
and you?
You just simply can't find reason
to love me anymore
Para kay E
Z Apr 15
Today
is
the
worst
15th.
I'm sad.
I'm disappointed.
But I still love you
and I feel like a fool.
words i can't tell her part 2
Z Jul 9
my heart aches
literally and figuratively
i want to tell you
but you are too busy
ignoring me
words i can't tell her part 7
Z Feb 2018
It was the 15th day of October
When i first known you
It started as an ordinary day
But ended as a wonderful one

Who would have thought?
That I'll meet my forever through an online game
A very weird game, i don't even know why i started playing
But I'll thank that game over and over again
For it led a **** like me to a goddess like you

You are not as friendly as the others are
Yet you caught my attention, i don't know why
You don't find me funny when i made my jokes
But deep inside, i know i made you laugh

You eventually warmed up
Thanks to my charm
We started as friends
A complicated one

You were broken but still inlove
With a boy named Drake
I hate him so much
For he made you cry and left you behind

I was taken and still inlove
With a girl named Jaja
She's beautiful and kind
She's all that i talked to you about

Our friendship grows as days passed by
Constant communication through online
So when the time i got so broken
Coz the girl i love left me without warning
You were there for me all the time
Made me feel fine even when you're not

I made mistakes and made you fall
For me to have fun all along
But then my guilt is eating me whole
I admitted to you the greatest lie of all

You hated me for being a ****
Yet you still accepted me after all
I knew i have fallen to you as well
I'm just too coward to accept it all

We started a new friendship
On a very clean slate
With renewed limitations
And a little reservation

Twenty-eight months
That's how long we waited
To take a risk on this friendship
And make it an official relationship

Going back to the day of October 15th
When i known the girl of all my dreams
The girl who gave me love and peace
The girl who make me look forward for more 15th
I love you
Z Sep 2018
I always have this feeling

that I'm not doing as much as I can in this world

or I'm not changing the world in any way,

So what's the point of living?

I just wanted to erase my existence,

but then a dreadful moment happened

I lost my mom to cancer

it made me feel like it was selfish of me to choose to die

when some people don't even have a choice.
Z Sep 2
What's the point of existing when you're not needed anymore?
Z Sep 8
Hello,
Can you promise me one thing?
Please don't forget me.
I told you I won't start with hello
for it always end with goodbye
But I think,
the time has come
Goodbye.
For you
Z Sep 13
I just don't want to live in this world anymore.
life is unfair. death is the answer
Z Sep 18
let me tell me you something about colors

silver produces red
red and silver
turns white into black
black brings you yellow
until you end up with blue
suicide
Z Sep 2018
The day i was planning to **** myself
A friend of mine attempted suicide
Mixed emotions rushed through my body
Sadness
Envy
Anger
Relief
Thoughts like "that could've been me"
I could be in that situation
And them in mine

The friend who did it before i do
I saw him as a brother
Someone who protected me
I remembered my father said
"Suicide is so selfish,
I can't lose anyone from it"
And that is why I'm still alive.
Z Feb 2018
The truth in six words....




You cannot make a person happy.

You can make them laugh
You can make them smile
You can make them feel good
But whether they are happy or not
Is out of your control
Because happiness is a choice
A choice you make for your own

Make yourself happy ☺
Z Sep 2018
A
you're Adorable
you don't even have to try
a lot of people adore you
it is Amazing
how easy it is to love you

B
you are Beautiful
no further explanations
that simple word states everything
it will remain true
no matter how many times you deny it

C
you are Charming
i can't resist you
and you're Cuteness
you're my go-to Cuddle-buddy
always and forever
Completing the alphabets
Work in progress
Z Jul 6
my heart
it does not beat
like normal hearts do,
but i know for sure
that this peculiar heart of mine
beats just for you.
Z Sep 2018
Today i begin to write again
Words that i can't say
Actions that i can't express
Begin again.
Z Nov 2019
Sa pagdaan ng araw, nadaragdagan
Mga katanungan sa aking isipan
Ngunit paano ko nga ba sisimulan
Saan matatagpuan ang kasagutan

Tama ba na akin pang abuting pilit
Pangarap na noo'y ninais makamit
Kung katumbas nito ay hirap at sakit
Idagdag pa ang mga pangmamaliit

Minsan naisip ko, ano ba ang saysay?
Bakit patuloy pa tayong nabubuhay?
Nagtitiis sa mundong puno ng lumbay
Kung sa huli tayo rin ay mamamatay

Marahil ay alam ko naman ang sagot
Dito sa tanong ko na paikot-ikot
Ako ay sadya lamang na natatakot
Na lahat ay magiging isang bangungot
Z Jan 2019
Sometimes,
I walk around
Scan the crowd
Randomly sit on a cafe
And wonder if that is the place
Where our paths will cross.

If that day happens,
Would you randomly sit with me
As if we've known each other
For a very long time
Would you start to walk with me
And never leave my side?
Z May 2018
There is something i would like to tell you

I figured out some time ago







This could break something really precious
And might cause so much pain

Things have changed to what they are before
I am not who i used to be
I still love you and care so much for you
But those are not enough

I am lost and couldn't find my way back
I'm struggling everyday
I even question my mere existence
In this wild and crazy world

You are right, i am such a coward
I back out the moment things get hard
I am weak and will not stand to fight
Even for something which my heart desires

So now, I'm saying goodbye
Through this poem I'm sure you will read
I know you deserve better
Than just a poem that is full of nonsense

Thank you for all that you've done for me
Thank you for standing up for me
When others kept mocking and doubting me
Thank you for everything

And just like this poem
The thing between us needs to end
Not because i lost my love for you
I love you and i always will
But it's now time to face the truth
Things are not like what they used to be
So baby, let's end it.
Z Aug 10
She radiates happiness.
Smiles.
Warmth.
Positivity.
A beautiful sunshine.

And me...

I am filled with sorrow.
Chaotic.
Cold.
Gloomy.
A dark storm.

How can we be together?
Z May 2018
It is just the 2nd day
But it already feels like a year

For 3 years,
You've been a constant in my life
We may not talk as often as
we do on the first year
But the thought of you always around
Enables me to endure each day

Today is day 02
of me being single again
It's the decision i made
so we can both move on with our lives
It was not an easy decision
I contemplated about it
and know that I got my heart broken
in the process of fulfilling that decision

Everything is just too painful right now
I keep checking your blogs
So that I can have an update about you
I badly want to message you
But that'll be too selfish
Knowing that you would want
some space for now

I can't eat
I can't sleep
I don't even want to do anything
Because I'm too afraid that
if I entertained myself with something else
I will lose my grip on the memory of you
I miss you
Z May 2018
I have a few questions for you...

Did you know that we weren't strong enough?

Growing up, girls always pictured themselves having a perfect boyfriend.
Someone they can be so proud of and be comfortable with, no matter what the circumstances are.
Did you picture this as well?

Do you believe that we are supposed to be with one person for the rest of our lives?

Let me answer the last question...

Nothing is permanent.

We tried so hard with the illusion of permanence.
We forgot we need to fall inlove with each other everyday.
We end up taking advantage of the comfortable feeling we have.

Those days where we talked to each other almost the whole day
The never ending fun, though somehow nonsense conversation we have
All those stories we have shared to each other
The planned getaways, the corny jokes,
the dramas, the fights, the obstacles
that we have to endure to be together
And all the laughters we have
Remember those?
Because I can't forget those.

If this is really the end,
Here's my advice for you
Live for yourself.
Believe in yourself
You're a very strong woman
I wouldn't regret that you became my girl
I hope you find someone
who can make you as happy as i made you
when we were deep inlove
And maybe or just maybe
We can reconnect in the future
and i can make you just as happy as
the first day you've known me

So, dear my future ex girlfriend
The odds of us breaking up is 50:50 and,
i hope that you will never have to read this.
But if you do, I want you to know that I'll always love you.
I wrote this 3 years ago.
Z Sep 2018
D
you're Dangerous
when you're mad
it is also for long Drives
i know you love those

E
you're an Enigma
very hard to decipher
i wish you can open up a little more
because I'm willing to give you
Everything

F
you're Friendly
you always make sure
that everyone around you is okay
you're Funny
do i really need to elaborate this?
Part 2
You are my A to Z
#d #e #f
Z Mar 2018
I love you
I miss you
I'm sorry
Be happy
Those are the words i often say to you

I love you.
I love you so much.
I feel like dying right now.

I miss you.
I miss you very much
I miss you every second of everyday.

I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
I'm sorry for hurting you up until now.

Be happy.
Always be happy even without me.
Your happiness and smiles are important to me.
I love you
Forgive me for making you cry
I'm drowning with emotions
Z Feb 2018
This is not a confession
But an act of appreciation
For such a wonderful creation
That is full of passion

You shine the brightest
Uplift me when I'm at my lowest
You only want the best
For me, you're already the greatest

You smile at the simplest things
You worry about everything
Your genuine care and constant reminding
Is what makes you so admiring

I have known you for only a few years
But i caused you thousand of tears
You are my biggest fear
All i want is for you to be near

With this love, we start anew
A long journey for me and you
For now, all i want to do
Is to tell you how much i love you
I love you
Z May 2018
Sadness
Happiness
Fear
Love
Doubt
I feel all those crazy emotions for you.
Z May 2018
You remind me of my favorite song.
You remind me of my favorite movie,
my favorite place.
Staring into the perfect view of the beach, along with the perfect view of you
You remind me of comfort,
when you watch videos of dogs and
other simple, silly things.
A fun and crazy person
I always wanted to be.
When i see you dancing your favorite song
Like no one is watching.
You remind me of happiness,
when i see your smiles.
You remind me of how annoying you are,
when you flood my inbox with random messages.
You remind me of my favorite shirt,
when you wear it as if it's your own.
You remind me of the late nights,
when we have long conversations.
Maybe it's the look in your eyes.
Maybe it's your melodious laugh.
Maybe it's everything you do,
that reminds me of how beautiful life can be.
You remind me of everything i love
and everything i love, is you.

But the one i love, doesn't exist,
and i don't know if it ever will.
You're a figment of my imagination.
I created you in my mind
as perfect as you can possibly be,
and i fell inlove with the thought of you.
You dont exist and you may never will.

You now reminds me of the nights
I struggle against sleep
You now reminds me of everything
I can't and will never have
You remind me of the pain that love brings.
You remind me of everything i love,
and everything i love will never be me
if i don't have you.
Z Sep 2018
Don't think...
Don't worry...
But also don't stop...







Just have faith that it will work out for the best.
Z Sep 2018
I stood there
in front of everyone
staring at me
mocking me
waiting for me
to commit a mistake

I trembled
I came unprepared
lost in the situation
with judging eyes
piercing through my core
ready to eat me whole

I opened my mouth
uttered my piece
broke the silence
that covered us all
fighting for my existence
and proving them wrong
Challenge accepted.
Never back down
Z Mar 2018
I offered you a hand
to help you up
But you've insulted it
because it's full of scars
You just don't know
that those scars
Are the results
of me
protecting you from harm
Z Sep 2018
G
You're the most Generous person
that I've ever known
I wish more people knew
how Gorgeous your heart is

H
You're the epitome of Hard Work
you work hard in everything you do
I admire your Humility
I want to be just like you

I
Incredible
No other words
for this word alone
describes the kind of person you are
Part 3
You are my A-Z
Work in progress
GO!
Z Feb 2018
GO!
It started as a dare
A dare to conquer the world
The world that is overflowing with words
Words reflecting oneself.

It turned out to be a good reality
Reality which is so overwhelming
Overwhelming yet so fulfilling
Fulfilling my secret dream.
Z Sep 2018
Hello!
How are you?
Yes, you.
I'm acknowledging your presence

Hello!
How's your day?
Is it as good as mine?
Yes, you.
I'm acknowledging your existence

Hello!
What are you doing?
Yes, you.
I'm acknowledging your actions

Hello!
Yes, you
I'm really talking to you
I want you to know
that even though we don't know each other
I appreciate you
and everything you do.
So, keep up the gopd work
'till we see each other
Z Aug 22
Haven't heard from you for so long
Feels like I don't know you anymore
I wonder where did it all go wrong
Let's go back to how it was before
words i can't tell her part 10
Z Mar 2018
I visited your blog today
Hoping to get an update about you
The first thing that caught my attention
"Help"
I felt sad after i read it
For i am screaming for the same thing
I was supposed to be there for you
To make you happy
But i know i failed after i read
"I tried killing my sadness by killing myself"
I so much wanted to be saved
And forgot that you needed saving as well
I texted you but never got any reply
I worry about you
Please be strong
Please be safe
Help yourself
And I'll do the same
Sorry
Z Aug 12
We played a game
and i am "it"
I started counting
1, 2
Go and run fast
3, 4
Hide where I can't see
5, 6
Walls, shadows and words
They help you disappear
7, 8
I keep on searching
9
I'm starting to get tired
10
Peakaboo!!
I see you.
You're finally found.
You are meant to be found.
Anohana.
Menma, found you!
Z Feb 2018
Your eyes
Full of sadness
Mirrors the cruel world
How can it still be so beautiful?

Your hands
Full of scars
Reminder of struggles and pain
How can it still be so soothing?

Isn't it unfair?
How can you be so you?
How do you do it?
How can it be?
Z Feb 2018
How far can it go?
My undying love for you
Will it reach you?
I hope it does

How far can it go?
Your patience for me
Will you choose to stay?
I hope you do

How far can it go?
This relationship of us
Will it be forever?
I hope it is

How far can it go?
This whisper of confession  
Are you listening?
I hope you are

Distance between you and me
A challenge for us to conquer
But no matter how far it is
My loyalty will forever be yours
Z Feb 2018
Let me clear it to you
I am not lazy
I am not full of excuses
I am not a procrastinator

I am an optimist
Who believe that tomorrow exist

I am a fast worker
Who prefer to work with time pressure

I am a self-believer
I never regret a thing i do

I am appreciative
Who took time to observe things around me

I do work slowly
To avoid stress and to guarantee success

I am not a procrastinator
I am just being me
Yet I am judged by social norms
Asked to be someone i am not
I never want to be like you
I don't want to be a pretender
I won't waste my time thinking about nonsense thing which is you
Z Mar 2018
You are my always and forever
You are my sunrise and sunset
The beginning and ending
My ups and my downs
In case you didn't know
I Love You so much
#15
Z Apr 24
If ever we leave this moment
Please remember all the good times
Days filled with laughters
With two hearts beating the same rhythm

If ever we look back
Please forget about the bad times
The petty fights and silent treatments
Where everything is taken for granted

If ever we change
Please promise not to forget us
The “us”, who faced life’s twists
The “us”, who overcame the same

If ever our fate cross again
Please let's reminisce together
Those days made all seemed better
Even when we ignore each other

If ever there’s another chance
Please let’s make new memories
No hesitation, no guilt
This time, no goodbye
Z Feb 2018
He is mom's little treasure
Her golden boy with the warmest smile
Kept away from everyone to see
Forever a wonder for them to seek

He is dad's little prince
His successor to the empire
Trained to be generous and kind
Hidden behind huge walls like a prisoner

He is my sister's little soldier
Her defender at all cost
Protector in plain white shirt
Will sacrifice everything in her behalf

He is my little brother
My all-time favorite buddy
The Robin to my Batman
The shadow who pushes me at my best

He is our little sunshine
Our piece of hope and light
Source of all the happiness
Caressing us with his comforting embrace

But where is he now?
In a place where all is well and beautiful
A place where he truly belongs
He is our little angel
Z May 2018
she had a heart
that could light up the sky
she had a smile
that would brighten the gloom
on a winters morning
she had the laugh
that could remove all your worries
she had the will
To stand up for what is right

but she hid her beauty
beneath scarves and long sleeved shirts
covered for everyone not to see
that behind those mask and clothes
is an angel, too fragile for this world

her beauty remained hidden
until i told her what she had
that i appreciated her no matter what
even with flaws that she really never had

on that day she pondered and learned
that not everything is judged by the outside
Z Jul 13
Maybe it's her grumpy side that I fell in love with
Maybe it's her patience, or her whole existence
that made me want to be with her
or maybe it's her "I miss you" that made me stay
Maybe the only reason I stayed is because I love her
I love her that even though it hurts, I keep saying I'll stay

Maybe it breaks me when she only sees the worst in me
Maybe I apologized way too much
Maybe it's her "I'm used to it"
that made me stop doing anything
Maybe the only reason I stayed is because I'm used to it
I'm used to the pain every time she ignores me

Maybe she don't want me anymore
Maybe I'll reach my breaking point
Maybe we need to set each other free
Maybe we are not meant to be with each other's arms
But until that happens, I'll stay
and I'll keep saying "it's okay"
words i can't tell her part 8
Z Apr 25
I'm jealous of the way
you care for others
yet you can't even ask how my day was

I'm jealous of the way
you make time for others
yet you ignore me all the time

I'm jealous of the way
you smile at the littlest thing they do
yet you disregard all my efforts

I'm jealous
that you can be happy without me
yet my heart is shattering
at the thought of not being with you

I'm sad
I'm disappointed
I'm jealous
but I still love you
Always have, always will
words i can't tell her part 4
JJ
Z Feb 2018
JJ
When you said hello
Everything seems perfect
A beautiful beginning

But then you said goodbye
Everything crumbled
Death is never ending
Z Aug 12
We didn't end up together.
I am the sunshine.
You are the storm.
We are the sunshower.
Our memories are rainbow.

We are perfect yet not.
We are equal yet opposite.

But....
You are you,
and I am me.

No matter how we end up
in thousand realities,
I'll keep on dreaming
for there's one thing
I am sure of....

That one day
You and I
will eventually have
our happy ending.
part 4 of Contraire, Sunshower, and Rainbow
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