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Z May 2018
she had a heart
that could light up the sky
she had a smile
that would brighten the gloom
on a winters morning
she had the laugh
that could remove all your worries
she had the will
To stand up for what is right

but she hid her beauty
beneath scarves and long sleeved shirts
covered for everyone not to see
that behind those mask and clothes
is an angel, too fragile for this world

her beauty remained hidden
until i told her what she had
that i appreciated her no matter what
even with flaws that she really never had

on that day she pondered and learned
that not everything is judged by the outside
Z Jul 2020
Maybe it's her grumpy side that I fell in love with
Maybe it's her patience, or her whole existence
that made me want to be with her
or maybe it's her "I miss you" that made me stay
Maybe the only reason I stayed is because I love her
I love her that even though it hurts, I keep saying I'll stay

Maybe it breaks me when she only sees the worst in me
Maybe I apologized way too much
Maybe it's her "I'm used to it"
that made me stop doing anything
Maybe the only reason I stayed is because I'm used to it
I'm used to the pain every time she ignores me

Maybe she don't want me anymore
Maybe I'll reach my breaking point
Maybe we need to set each other free
Maybe we are not meant to be with each other's arms
But until that happens, I'll stay
and I'll keep saying "it's okay"
words i can't tell her part 8
Z Apr 2020
I'm jealous of the way
you care for others
yet you can't even ask how my day was

I'm jealous of the way
you make time for others
yet you ignore me all the time

I'm jealous of the way
you smile at the littlest thing they do
yet you disregard all my efforts

I'm jealous
that you can be happy without me
yet my heart is shattering
at the thought of not being with you

I'm sad
I'm disappointed
I'm jealous
but I still love you
Always have, always will
words i can't tell her part 4
JJ
Z Feb 2018
JJ
When you said hello
Everything seems perfect
A beautiful beginning

But then you said goodbye
Everything crumbled
Death is never ending
Z Aug 2020
We didn't end up together.
I am the sunshine.
You are the storm.
We are the sunshower.
Our memories are rainbow.

We are perfect yet not.
We are equal yet opposite.

But....
You are you,
and I am me.

No matter how we end up
in thousand realities,
I'll keep on dreaming
for there's one thing
I am sure of....

That one day
You and I
will eventually have
our happy ending.
part 4 of Contraire, Sunshower, and Rainbow
Z Apr 2020
My eyes are crying
My lips are quivering
My body is shaking
My heart is shattering
My hands are bleeding
My limbs are giving up
My breathe is running out
And all of you are just staring
Z Oct 2018
Masaya ako

Ulit-ulitin mo hanggang sa maniwala sila

Masaya ako

Ulit-ulitin mo hanggang sa maniwala ka

Masaya ako

Ulit-ulitin mo hanggang sa mapagod ka
Masaya ako. Masaya ako. Masaya ako.
Written in Filipino
Z Jul 2020
You're a fallen
Not an angel from heaven
But a lover from the stars
Given to me
Like a wish come true
Z Sep 2018
I want to be close to you like Mercury
to see your full glow
and brightness of your intimacy

I see you like a Venus
because of your unsurpassed beauty
and your unfathomable, abysmal kind of love

You are like the Earth
where living with you is not a problem
and with you it is always easy to breathe

I see your ardent desires like a red Mars
to fight a war to cover and protect me
even sacrificing your own life

You give a gigantic precious tenderness
and enormously unselfish affections
like a Jupiter

You give me snowball rings like Saturn
that gives remembrance to all the beautiful
things that we had been in the atmosphere
of treasured memories

Your warmhearted axis
that tilts on the rocky core of my life
is like in a deep ocean of Uranus
that clasps me with grasping arms

You are like the depth the Neptune brings
who takes me beyond the known
to what's alive only in my wildest dreams.

On a very far and infinite distance
deep into the darkness like Pluto
you are perfect to get lost with
nothing matters but You and Me
Z Mar 2018
I will write you this song to get back what's ours'
Would that be enough?

You took a day off away from me
Away from our crazy little world
Which you used to enjoy and love
Because things became complicated
And you felt suffocated

You needed a time to breathe
A space where you will just be free
Because you need to find yourself
Which you've lost along the way
Of searching THAT THING CALLED LOVE

You asked for me to let you go
Because you are not happy anymore
Then i remembered the 6 WORDS OF TRUTH
I made a decision in favor of you
Hoping you will come back to me someday

Everytime that i think of you
Which most likely the only thing i do
Because all the things surrounding me
They all reminds me of you
I MISS YOU

One day, you sent me a text message
With just three words written on it
Reading those was the LONGEST SECOND
And HOW CAN IT BE? that those three words
Shattered everything i built for seven years

HOW FAR can i go to have you back
To what we are before things got out of hand
If i could just turn everything UPSIDE DOWN
For you are what i wanted in my
PAST, PRESENT and even my FUTURE

I will do what i can to get back what's ours
For I AM NOT LIKE YOU who will easily give up
I'll stay by your side and endure the pain
Because you are worth fighting for
But will that be ever enough?

When will be the time that I'll be enough?
To make you feel the happiness i felt
When will I be enough?
To fill the void for you not to ask space
When will I be enough?
To keep you sane in the crazy world

When will my love be enough?
When i already gave you all that i am
It will never be enough
I will never be good enough for you
First part is an excerpt from the song Ever Enough
Z Sep 2018
The day will come
When you'll miss me
As much as i miss you

The moment will come
When you'll love me
As much as i love you

Until that day comes
I'll be missing you silently
Loving you from afar

And when that day comes
I hope that I'm still around
Missing and loving you
Holding on
Z Aug 2021
I still remember
the most painful words
I've ever received
from you

"We all have reasons
(to give up),
and mine
was simply
you."
Z Feb 2018
Yesterday, i am lost
Drowning in the sea of unknown
Aching with every fiber of my being
Screaming for help.

Today, i begin to write
Taking each steps slowly, happily
Risking everything i kept for a long time
Opening myself.

Tomorrow, i discover more
I will uncover the treasure within me
I will look over the past
Knowing that a future awaits for me.
Z Mar 2018
I am lost
Help me
Please
Save me
Before i die
Seek for me
I need you to
Help me
I am lost
Top to bottom
Bottom to top
Same meaning
Help
Z Aug 2020
Gloomy sky
Deafening silence
It started pouring
I am not sure
Are these rain?
or are these my tears?
Like rain that I can't stop from falling
I can't stop my heart from breaking
But at least this time...
I am no longer alone
Because the clouds are crying with me
Z Aug 2020
We tried to be together.
You are the sunshine.
I am the storm.
We are the sunshower.

But....

Everything is temporary
A fleeting moment of bliss
You can't calm the storm,
so you stop trying.
I can't stay in your light,
so I stop coming.

We've come to accept
that sunshines and storms
can never be together.

You lost your brightness
Your happiness.
Your smiles.
I've got to let you go.

But there will be a rainbow
A haunting reminder
that once in our lifetime
our paths crossed.
Part 3 of Contraire and Sunshower
Z Sep 2020
I'm tired
You're urging me
to keep doing it
to keep up
but how can I?
I'm already way too deep
I'm drowning
Save me
words i can't tell her part 10
She
Z Mar 2018
She
I woke up today with tears in my eyes
For i have lost the girl of my dreams
But I will wait for night to come
So, I can go back sleeping and have my girl back
I'm sorry baby
Z Apr 2020
I
love
you
so
much
it's
breaking
me
to
pieces
words i can't tell her part 5
Z Aug 2020
How can we be together?
I am the sunshine.
You are the storm.
But then you chose me,
and I accepted you.

Together,
We are the Sunshower.
Gloomy yet warm.
Pouring yet calm.
Unexpected.
Rare.

Together,
We are imperfectly perfect
and until now,
the idea of us
still amazes me.
part 2. reply to Contraire
Z Feb 2018
The unexplainable emotion
The indefinable feeling
The sudden shift of scenery
That thing called Love

I first felt it with a girl in black
Though wearing thick eyeglasses
And books in both hands
She's the most captivating thing
I have ever seen in my life

My life before is like piano tiles
Plain and simple, just black and white
With her around, everything seems bright
Like rainbow after the rain
So beautiful and nice

She's the taste of my favorite dessert
The sweetness that never once hurt my tooth
Instead, kept me wanting
craving for more of what she can give

Like any other girl, she is not perfect
She got flaws and done mistakes
Caused me pain and brought me tears
But I'll still willingly accept her
Over and over again

They say I'm blinded with what i feel
Warned me not to fall too deep
But what can i do right now
When I'm already drowning
With that thing called Love
Z May 2018
It was a typical Monday afternoon
Nothing extraordinary
Just a boring day
With me opting to stay in my room

I can clearly remember
The smell of pancakes
And delicious hot chocolate
That brings me to my senses

The rainbow after the rain
The serenity after a bad day
That makes me want to wake up
For i am sure tomorrow will be better

On that day, i met you
And you become the pancake and hot chocolate
Who keep me sane
No matter how confusing everything around me is

You become the rainbow after the rain
The serenity i would want to come home to
No matter how bad my day went
For you are the hope that i look forward to

That day, my typical Monday afternoon
Turns upside down
And suddenly became one memorable day
Of my entire existence
Z Feb 2018
They say that there are times in life that are longer than the others

The first time i met you,
I took a bath for 3hrs
Sprayed perfume all over my body
To make sure I'll be perfect for you

The first time we held each other's hands
My heart stopped beating on its own
Coz it began the rhythm same as yours

The first time you kissed me good night
I froze like time never existed
For you've become my whole new world

The first time i notice you have changed
That i am not enough for you anymore
Because...

You don't want to be my world
You value your freedom

You don't want a single rhythm
You want variations
You love to party

You don't want perfect
You want something new and unique

I spent a lot of my time for you
I'm even willing to give you the rest of my life
But...

The first time i saw you with someone else
That's the longest second of my life.
Z Aug 2020
Another Tuesday morning
Woke up from a bad dream
Last night didn't end well
Screams heard from here and there

Got up and checked the clock
Tick tock tick tock
I need to be quick
Don't have time to think

What a way to start my day
Series of unfortunate events
Pile of letters and bills
Unwashed dishes
Broken toaster
Spilled coffee
Disheveled hair
Worn out clothes
Forgotten umbrella
I am running out of time

Road construction ahead
Here I am still stuck in traffic
Tick tock tick tock
I need to start moving
Z Apr 2020
With a gasp I wake
Another day I dread
Must I go? Can’t I stay?
I’ll behave I pray

With a crushing disappointment
I got up
to face the day
I want to give up

A smile on my face, I got ready
With a spring on my steps,
I waved eagerly
The mask I wear feels itchy

With my head held down, I arrived
Heard voices I so despise
When will it end, this torment
Or shall I end myself instead?
words i can't tell her part 1
Z Apr 2020
I don't understand you anymore
or maybe
we never understood each other at all

Sometimes,
You're as warm as a wool sweater
Sometimes,
You're as cold as the morning breeze
When I don't have time for you,
you get mad
When I exert effort to make time for us,
you ignore me
When I give you enough time,
you feel unsatisfied

I know I'm not perfect
I have the same flaws too
But please know that I'm trying
to be the best that I can be for you

Please don't ignore my I miss you
Please reply to my I love you
Please tell me how your day was
Because all I want is to be noticed by you

It's been a week already
I still feel sad
I still feel disappointed
And I still love you
I always will
poem out of frustration. forgive me.
words i can't tell her part 3
Z Sep 2020
He pretend he's strong
and acts like nothing is wrong
but he is not a stone
He cries when he's alone

so when you meet him along the way
greet him and say hey
tell him to have a good day
because everything will be just okay
Z Feb 2018
Why did you say your okay?
When you're actually dying inside

Why did you say you hate me?
When you actually like what i did

Why did you say you're ugly?
When you're the prettiest girl i have ever seen

Why did you say I'm corny?
When you're bursting with laughter to my jokes

Why did you say it's delicious?
When it actually tastes awful

Why did you told me you want roses?
When you really prefer tulips

Why did you told me you'll save me?
When you let me drown with my love for you

Why did you say you like to dive?
When you can't even fall for me

Why did you say you'll always be around?
When in the fact you are never there

Why did you told me you'll stay?
When all you wanted is to runaway

Why did you put back the pieces of me
When you're going to tear it again

Why did you say you'll take care of my heart?
When you plan to break it all along

Why did you say "i love you"?
When you actually don't

Why did you say "together forever"?
When there's never been an US

Why did i even believe in all your lies?
Why do i still love you after all
Why? Maybe I'm living UPSIDE DOWN
Z Apr 2020
51 hours, 6 minutes
It's only you I can think of

51 hours, 6 minutes
I'm waiting for you to notice me

51 hours, 6 minutes
I want to keep waiting
but it is just so tiring

51 hours, 6 minutes
I'm sad
I'm disappointed
I'm jealous
I'm tired
but I still love you
and I'll keep on waiting
words i can't tell her part 6
Z Aug 2020
Cold.
Rain.
Soup.
Sweaters.
Hot chocolate.
You.
I'm yearning for your warmth.
Z Apr 2020
I write...
...because I have no one to play along with when I was young
...because I'm too skinny to play sports when I was on grade school
...because my grandmother gave me a pen and a paper as a birthday gift
...because I want to impress the girl next door
...because I got very ill I need to stay indoors for a whole month
...because I don't want to forget
...because I got my heart broken
...because I miss her a lot
...because there's a lot of things running on my mind
...because my mom loves my poems
...because I'm happy
...because I failed my major subject
...because I'm too bored
...because I got accepted for a job
...to explore all the things I'm afraid of.
...to convey the words I ******* say.
...to help others understand me, to help me understand me.

And I will keep on writing
Z May 2018
Let's be real.
There's probably a million reasons as to why she doesn't like you.
Which is probably something you don't wanna hear but let me tell you the some reasons, stupid reasons, as to why she doesn't like you...

It's because she doesn't like the way you cut your pinky toenail.
The 4,126 hair on your head is just too long for her.
Your breathing pattern is off by a millisecond.
Your left eye doesn't pop as much as the right one does.
She doesn't like it when you ***.
When you don't reply within a minute and twenty seconds of her sending the original text.
You didn't have her favorite cologne sprayed in your shirt when she hugs you.
You turn down her netflix and chill to hang out with your friends.
She doesn't like the way that you chew your food.
She doesn't like your haircut.
You don't wear the type of pants that she like to look at when she's walking behind you.
You didn't give her the night of her life after she went out on a date with you.
You don't do this.
You don't look like this.
You don't do that.
You don't do this.

Why the heck are you still reading this?
You need to stop listening and thinking about this nonsense.

No matter what they do or what they say,
you don't owe them anything.
Remember that.
With all this crazy things that you overthink about when it comes to someone that you like,
I know you're maybe thinking,
I need to reply faster,
I gotta go cut the 4,126 hair which is too long.
You don't need to do anything for someone else.
Just think about it,
you're almost torturing yourself
to make somebody else happy, but are you happy?
I don't think so.
What goes on in your head
isn't always necessarily true or right.
If she doesn't like the things that you do,
If she doesn't like the way that you look,
If she doesn't like the friends that you hang out with,
If she doesn't like the person that you are,
then you get over her, right now, get over her.

There's no specific person that you should go out and that you should fall in love with.
That specific person is what you find
in your heart and in your mind,
and as crazy as that sounds,
you have to treat yourself with respect.
You have to treat yourself with the love
that you're gonna be giving out to every girl that you see.
You have to love yourself before you love somebody else.

You should stop thinking
that you have to live up to somebody's standards, just in order to make them happy.
If she doesn't like you, then let it be.
You don't need her.
You don't need anybody.
You have you.

Never change who you are
while falling inlove with somebody,
because in the long run, you just won't be happy.
You are good enough.
You shouldn't let being "perfect",
be the enemy of being good enough.
You're never going to be the perfect person for somebody else, because you are already the perfect you for you.
Some people are going to love you.
Some people are just going to like you,
and some people are just not going to be able to handle you.
You just need to know that the only special person you need to be good enough for is yourself.
Z Jul 2020
I'm tired.
I'm sad.
I'm disappointed.
I feel like a fool.
I'll keep on trying.
I'm jealous.
I'm breaking in silence.
I'll be waiting.
Even though my heart aches,
It's okay.
I still love you.
I always have.
I always will.
I hope you still love me too.
words i can't tell her series
part 9
You
Z Mar 2020
You
The smell of your hair
when you first get out of the shower
The way you rub your eyes in the morning
when you first wake up
All those little things about you
are the reasons the world desrves you

You're made of so much beauty
But it seems that you forgot
when you decided you were defined
by all the things that you're not.

You are not the movies you see
You are not the food you eat
You are not the people you talk to
You are not the clothes you wear
You are not the words you swear
You are neither stupid nor ugly
You are neither too skinny nor too chubby
You are neither too perfect nor a defect
You are not who others want you to be
and you are not going to let anyone label you

Forget about the past
Forget about who you're not
Remember who you love
And feel beauty in your reflection
You are you
You are something much beyond
Z Jul 2020
I'm still alive
I am still breathing
But... Every day
It gets even harder

I used to feel tired
to feel accomplished
But.... Now
I'm just numb

I don't feel anymore
Like a zombie
Wandering the Earth
with a meaningless life
there's nothing that can cure me

— The End —