The day i was planning to **** myself
A friend of mine attempted suicide
Mixed emotions rushed through my body
Sadness
Envy
Anger
Relief
Thoughts like "that could've been me"
I could be in that situation
And them in mine

The friend who did it before i do
I saw him as a brother
Someone who protected me
I remembered my father said
"Suicide is so selfish,
I can't lose anyone from it"
And that is why I'm still alive.