Such trouble is free will!

Emily Dickinson – Cento

Me from Myself – to banish –
I’m Nobody! Who are you?

There is a pain – so utter
Time never did assuage
The Soul has Bandaged moments
Of Course – I prayed
Because Escape – is done-

The soul has moments of Escape –
To justify the Dream –
I took my Power in my Hand -

Creator – Shall I – bloom?
I thought if I could only Live
Somewhere – in Silence –
I dwell in Possibility –
The Impotence to Tell –
Exhilaration – is within –

Me from Myself – to banish –
I’m Nobody! Who are You?

KRose
July 30, 2015

Hidden behind ,your so called smile
I torture your mind ,all the while
Some say that, i am a coward
And by your fear, i am powered

I take refuge ,in your mind
And steal your happiness , so you cant find
Then make your days , as dark as night
And at night , youll feel my bite

I know your time , that I take
You cant get back , you cant remake
Your such an awesome ,living host
Your isolation, I like the most

Your secrecy , it helps me thrive
With it I breath, and stay alive
Your friends, they have a fear of me
Cause your not, who you should be

Written and copy right by
E.M.Rushton

reading this morn's newspaper was different
said the father to his son
the prints are loud and bold
alphabets glitter as gold
crystal lucid is the page
and from the balcony,
whee, i can see every tree
without the haze.

the next twenty four days
he  was joyously rediscovering a world
in the exuberance of one reborn
only missing the car that ran him down
on the twentyfifth morn.

I beg you
don't leave the sky

when dark clouds billow in the south
the weary winged hurry home

overhead on the dead blue
jupiter and venus are born anew

the wind slows to silence
trees loom night's shadowy ghost

nocturnal birds sing on their new day
you feel your breath as they fall

the clouds spread across the sky
cracked by the lightning

a drop lands on your stretched palm
soothes all the burns in you

you melt in love
by the torrents falling from above.

don't leave for shelter
I beg you
when heaven arrives here.

When the ones you loved leave you alone,
When dreams are shattered and in pieces you are broke
When days are dark and nights never end,
When a foe you find in every other friend;
In worst of times, there's a hope that lasts..
Keep faith in God, this too shall pass!

When critics are pulling you down in the pit,
When your goal is blurred and you feel you should quit;
When you lose the grip of the rope you held,
and success may seem impossible to spell,
Look for the future, what's past is past..
Don't worry for today, this too shall pass!!

I want to go to California
I want to go alone
I want to drive for hours
without having to stop to answer my phone
I want to drive all night and day
I don't want anything to pass me by
I want to see amazing sights
and smile as I cry
I want to walk through waves in the ocean
I want the wind to blow through my hair
I want my past to fall to pieces in the sand
so I can bury it there
I want to run through the streets of Los Angeles
I want to smell the air in Beverly Hills
I want to meet new people and hear their stories
about how they have faced their biggest fears
I want to walk on the beach at sunset
I want to dance in circles at dawn
I want to visit places I have never been to
and do karaoke to my favorite songs
I want to stroll down memory lane in Anderson
I want to jump off of cliffs at the lake
I want to swim from one island to another
and take in the views like a great piece of cake
I want to chill next to the Hollywood sign
buy gifts for the people I love
I want to make my dreams come true in California
and eventually call it home
I know I will never want to leave California
but I can always go back whenever my heart calls for it
California is a place of possibilities for me
and I cannot wait to one day be a part of it

One more day is all that I ask
I just want to see the sun set before I pass
The light as it plays off of the river bend
This is weir I want to be burred in the end
Take my hand now mother pleas don't cry
Tell our family that it ends tonight
Pleas tell them that I am going home
and someday we will meet again
I want to go to the river bend tonight
hear the nightingale sing as I look up at the sky
Mother tell Father that I am ok
I will love you both forever and always
I want to go to the river bend
Lay me down to rest
pleas don't levee me till I've breathed my last
And sing the songs of ages past
I am gone to the place weir angels rest
Mother tell my brothers that it is all rite
I don't fear my death a little tonight
I want to pass at the rivers bend
Because as the sun sets and the colors are bright
maybe the angels will find me all rite

I cry in the shower
so you cant hear how sad I am
I hide behind the door to my room
so you don't see how much of a mess I am
I do all these things so you don't have to worry
I cry all alone because I don't want to bee week
Tired of the hateful words kids speak
I cried out to God or whoever was listening
that they would take my life as I cried awake at nigh
I don't expect you to know this
so it might surprise you
that when I smiled I was rely trying
when I laughed I just tried to bare it
Because even thou I hate the world
I love you
and I could never put you threw that
Even when you left me, and asked me to still be friends
I grinned and bared it
That was the first night that I really cried for something real
Don't worry I've lived this long I can deal