All my life people have looked at me as someone they can walk all over. They see me as less than them because I don't fit the social norms. I can't remember a time in my past where I wasn't trying to impress someone because I was always told I needed to do and be better. I've been slapped around for speaking up. I've been put down over stupid **** that no young person should be put down for. I was held to standards that shouldn't have been forced on me. I was a doormat for so many years and I thought one day someone is going to come along and save me from the emotional wreckage that was my life. What I didn't know was that I was capable of saving myself. Instead of lowering my voice I needed to raise it. Instead of walking with my head low I needed to walk with my head high and when someone wanted to project their ******* onto me I needed to stop blaming myself and start telling that person to *******. So I did. I took a hammer and broke down the walls I built up because some ******* couldn't handle someone who was different. I scrubbed off all of the insults that were painted on me until my skin bled. I looked myself in the mirror and stopped feeling sorry for myself and started asserting myself. I ******* people and I still do. I get criticized for standing up for myself but the ones who are bothered by my strength are the ones who tried to take it from me. I am not the person I used to be and I'm grateful for that. I no longer take orders I give them. I'm no longer the punching bag I am the boxer who isn't afraid to get in the ring. I am not the one to ignore an insult. I am the ***** who will kindly knock on your door and ask you to repeat to me to my face what you said behind my back and then watch you look like an idiot trying to come up with some lie we both know is *******. My crown is no longer crooked and damaged. It's been repaired. I've replaced the ruby's with diamonds and instead of setting the crown on a shelf to look at out of fear of making someone feel bad I've decided to wear it and trust me it feels good to not allow anyone to have power over me in any way. There is a new ***** in town and trust me anyone who gets in my way will be walking dog food when I get done with them. To the ones who still need to be knocked off of your pedestals enjoy your rein as ******* because you will be losing your crowns soon.
I will be thirty this year and my only regret is allowing other people to dictate my life for so long and telling me what kind of person they think I should be. I still have time to change my life and become the person I was always meant to be. My only hope for anyone who reads this poem is that they have the same realization and they take back their power before it's too late.