When the urges are to high,
take some time to breath..

I know is hard to breath then,
but you will get through this..

This storm won't last forever,
take some time to look back at your life.

It may seem like it was horrible and not worth the memory's,
but your wrong..

God put you here for a reason.

So when you get those thoughts and urges.
Just take 15 minutes and,
breath, and try to relax.
Do something that will get your mind of those things.

God will never put something in your life,
that he knows you can't handle.
You can get through it with his help,
and your strength in him..

I may not the best daughter.
But you will always be the best Father.
Yes, I've been slapped, left and right.
But I know I deserved that.
And I'm thankful you do that,
So I will realize how wrong I was.
I always promise to do good
But I also broke that promise,
Cause every time I swear
Later on I'll do the same mistake again.
I tend to do bad things repeatedly.
Yet you forgive me no matter how worst it is.
I didn't love you truthfully,
But you and your love embraces me.
If it isn't because of your love I maybe in hell now,
Screaming in pain endlessly.
You promise to save me and go everywhere I go.
And you never fail to do that.
I cried becasuse of how happy I am,
To know that there's someone who's willing to die for me.
You gave me everything but I can't give you even a single thing.
I was so self-centered, I was so selfish.
But that was before.
It's true that you can't change yourself,
Unless you ask for God's help and guidance.
It is not only me who make accomplishments,
But it is also the Holy Spirit you sends me.
I admit that I can't keep promises
So I ask for your patience,
To always look for me.
I know you do and will always.
Thank you for making me happy.
I only need you in my life.
Cause for when I'm with you,
It was always beyond perfect.

You told me once,
  " I love you."

At first I believed it.
But when you turned your back on me,
I saw what you've been hiding.

The hurt that washed over me.
The shattering sounds I hear in my heart.

The words you spoke
  I no longer believe.

Your love was a lie
I can not defeat.

When life is getting you down turn to God.
When you are feeling weak or sick turn to God.
When you are Lonely turn to God for comfort.
Anytime and every single time turn to God.
For he is the source of everything that you need.
He is your beginning and your ending as well.
For there is none other that can save us from sin.
For he is our Life, when you accept him as your Savior.
Then your Life falls into place and you belong to him.

I am really getting tired,
of this thing called life,
Everything always happens to me,
Most things I do not like.

First I lose my grandma,
Then my uncle, and two friends,
All in the last three months
All four with god and friends.

I'm really getting tired,
Of this thing call life,
Only filled with pain and sorrow,
And a lot of heartbreak.

I am tired losing everything,
And everyone I love.
I am getting tired of it all,
And the "thoughts" are back again.

I try to hold back it all,
I don't ever cry in public,
No matter how much it hurts,
But I don't like to show emotions.

The only time I cry,
Is when I sit in a room alone,
When I have some time to think.

I keep the thoughts all to my self,
Whether good or bad,
And I will never tell anyone,
Some of the thoughts that are in my head.

Welcome to our society.
Where the teens are depressed,
And the students are stressed..
Where people will hate you,
For what you wear and your weight..
Where there's only *** no hugs,
And there is no candy just drugs..
Where we cut form an escape,
And the parents beat and ****...
Where laws forbid people of  being gay,
And everything is weary and grey...
So I hope you enjoy your visit with society,
Just try not to get depressed and anxiety..........

Magical
                  Dazzling, shining
             Glowing, moving, flying
             Lost, happy, free, amazing
                magnificent, delightful
                         Mysterious

My notebook
Full of words
Letters
Commas and periods

My notebook
Full of smudges
Eraser bits
Crinkles and creases

My Notebook
Full of messages
Hidden Meanings
Energy and life

My notebook
Is the place,
The book
In which
I write

Walk away slowly
      Please don't run
Remember
    I'm still holding the gun
It's cocked
        And loaded....
Aimed at my temple
     Why didn't you listen?
The rules....
    WERE SIMPLE!!!
I handed you my heart
    Expecting you not to
        Break It!
You should've known it...
   I'm a ******* poet!
I can turn anything you say
     Into a **** ****** scene
Make you wish
      It was ALL A DREAM
But it's not
       And you're gone
I'm holding the trigger
          Thank God
I decided to use ink
      Instead of bullets...

I'm drowning in your moans
Every word that melts from your lips
Floods the room about us
Suffocating me into believing
That I would be satisfied
Spending my last moments
Staring into your eyes
Breathless