the love we shared
the  times we had
all gone
the emotion that was with us
the letters we sent each other
if only I knew
I could have helped

I can't help but miss you
one of the people I wasvery close with
did you not trust me enough?
did you think I would think of you any differently?
YOU SHOULD HAVE COME TO ME!!

if you thought that you would have hurt me
I am 100% sure that this is worse
I didn't just lose a friend I lost a part of me
if only you told me that you............................
people ask me how you didn't tell me
and honestly all I can think of is
that you didn't want to
hurt me because I DON'T want to believe that after all we've been through you don't trust me?

now your gone and actually
it made no sense keeping this from me
because I found out didn't I?
you probably were too embarrassed, too ashamed to say
it's quite ok I mean I couldn't force it out because I didn't even know it was there.

I trust that wherever you are
the new friends you make you
don't make this mistake again
this small yet HUGE secret caused
me a lot of sorrow
not only did you keep this from me
you keep it from everyone except yourself
yeah I know you're not the depend type but in all seriousness come on!
you like to be big and independent but you crossed the line
and now you lost your life

all I can say is that I miss you dearly
and again you should have told someone even if its not me
I cry at night thinking about the memories that have turned into
nightmares just reminding me that you're gone
all I can think about when I remember you is 'why didn't tell me?'
its too late anyhow and if you were here you would have told me 'don't moan I've gone a better place. move on with life I've lived mine and now its time for you too continue living yours without me.'
it going to be DIFFICULT but
GOOD BYE FRIEND I'LL MISS U:(:(:(:(:(

I'll be alone for Christmas
  You can count on that
   There is snow and no mistletoe
   No presents and no tree
  
    Christmas eve will find me
    Eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's
    I'll be alone for Christmas
    Yes, even in my dreams

    I'll be Alone for Christmas
    There is snow, no mistletoe

    Christmas eve will find me
    Eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's
    I'll be Alone for Christmas
    Yes, even in my dreams
     Yes, even in my dreams

The embers are slowly burning out, the fire of faith has been growing dim. My mind is wandering toward some foolish whim.
I can hardly recognize, when the seeds of doubt , snuck in.
It is time for a spiritual awakening to begin.
My prayer, Dear Lord, is that you would ignite your fire in me .
Help me, to recognize, the plans you have for me.
Lord, ignite your fire, help me, to be a blessing to those around me.
Let your light shine, in me, may it shine brightly enough , for others to see you at work in me. It only takes but a spark and the fire can start  again.
Lord, ignite your fire.
Lord, I pray that your fire, will be anew in me, each day