i can write your name into my skin over and over
but it doesn't matter how many times i translate these feelings into verses
and convert my longing into lines

i can never write myself into your story

i love the smell
of rain before downpour
and the sound of the first few raindrops
falling angry on the roof
i like to pretend its the sound of
you knocking at the door,
eager to come home

i fell for you
when you weren't looking,
but
i loved you
when it was too late

The me that only looked at you
The me that only thinks of you
The me that want only you
The me that loves no one but you
You’ve left

And when you left

The eyes that only looked at you
Could no longer see
The mind that could only think of you
Had gone mad
The person that wanted only you
Has no one to live for
And the heart that loved no one but you
Is broken
Bruised, crushed, shattered in pieces
It is broken

Yes, that heart is broken
But still,
How?
How can it still beat for you?

The times you made me laugh
The many times we spent so happy together
And the countless times
I thought how important you were to me
But it was too late when I realized that I love you

On every moment I spent with you
The world seemed happier
No pretensions, no worries when I’m with you
‘coz in front  of you, just a simple ‘me’ is enough
You accept everything about me
No stain of judgement in your eyes
That is why you mean so much to me
But it was too late when I realized that I love you

One day I woke up
And realized that you were more than a friend
More than just important to me
But I shook that thought away thinking it was just temporary
Afraid how our friendship will change if I let those feeling take over
I chose to keep those feelings hidden, to avoid my secrets to spill,
I distanced myself from you
Hoping for the feelings to cease

But I did not see that the distance was already too far
Too far that you could not see me any longer
You forgot about me
My existence

Now you are with someone else
Another person have replaced my position
My position, my place beside you

All is lost,
Now everything is over
The times I spent laughing, happy with you is all gone
It was only then that I realized
That I love you

I LOVE YOU.
*And it’s too late to say it.

When you put on a smile and laugh
No one can see the misery inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
The hurt you  feel remains trapped inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
You mask the bitterness you feel inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
No one can see the emptiness inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
Your shattered heart seems whole inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
The pain you endure remains trapped inside

When you put on a smile and laugh
You make sure no one sees you
                                                             ­      ...........Dying a little inside.

I loved you once
But no longer it is now
For I hate you more than ever

I loved you once
Did a lot of things
Just to get your love in return

I loved you once
And gave you my heart
You accepted it
But you never gave yours in return

I loved you once
But I no longer have a heart to love
For you never gave it back
Now I am left with a mind that can only hate

I loved you once,
But I’ll hate you forever

I loved you once,
But I hate you
For not giving the love back
For not returning my heart

I loved you once,
But I’ll hate you forever
I’ll hate you more than ever
until the day when you’ll return my heart
and then on that day

I can love you once more.

The words fly
And return ever,
Their place of birth,
The silence...

So let you share her,
All your secret messages,
From your heart to her soul,
Will die with you...

The words fly,
Without leaving any trace,
A light beam, a little air,
Lost in the middle of nowhere...

You know


*I'm that person
everyone replaces after a while.