I'm just thinking of the man with his flawless rhymes and carefully calculated poems
And of the most poetic boy I've ever known
Wondering why I associated both of them with the color green

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Green eyes
I've always wanted green eyes
Green is money
Green is growth
Green is spring
Green is life
But I've seen too much death
I've touched too much death
I've caused too much death
I've loved death
I've chased it, begged it, taunted it
Death is around me
I suppose that explains the blackness of my eyes

But your eyes
Oh the eyes that take away the pain
Those warm comforting eyes
That belong to a man I love so much it kills me every time I have to say goodbye
The man who I so desperately want to share everything with
The man who protects me
Who saves me
Saves me from the lies I tell without even speaking
My best friend that I can never keep
He is only on loan for brief moments
The moments I truly need him
The man who gave me love
The man who made me greater than myself

But your eyes
The hypnotizingly icy eyes of the boy I wanted to desire
I desired more than I was allowed
More than he allowed
More than they allowed
More than I could have
I lied lies he didn't believe
I guess that proves it
He was always smarter than me
A boy with eyes that could ****
Held his kindness close to his heart
He showed it to me in fleeting shadows and whispers
The boy who let me take a breath, though perhaps I held it in for too long

I wish the world wasn't so complicated
I wish that we didn't have to move so fast
I wish that we didn't go from having no freedom without responsibilities, to having total freedom but to many responsibilities to enjoy it in the span of three months
I wish I could travel the world when I'm still young enough to enjoy it instead of sitting in a classroom
I wish we didn't have to play so many games to find love,
And I wish we didn't pay so many games once we did
I wish I was rich and famous, but
I wish those things didn't matter
I wish we could all care about each other,
And I wish we didn't hate for stupid reasons
I wish we weren't so mean and greedy and spiteful
I wish we would all act like the family that we are
I wish you were as happy as I am
I wish you weren't scared
And I wish I wasn't scared
And I wish I could find you
And I wish you knew I was here
Because I wish the world wasn't such a scary place to be alone
I wish I wasn't on my own right now
Because I know if be happier with you.

i laugh and my heart feels happy with you
but I'm
           numb
i don't feel it, maybe its the drugs
or maybe its just my heart got tired of feeling like its on a roller coaster
going up
only to come back down

Fingers flick the cold metal,
the butane smell fills the air.
I let the flame settle,
the heavy smoke hits my snare.
I hit the distortion pedal,
gone- the problems I bear.

Frostbite fingertips, chilly they are,
Far more appealing than the faraway stars.
That's why my eyes turn to you during winter night,
Your frostbite fingertips, caressing my cheek are light.

Just as dreams are for dreamers, love is for lovers,
And that passionate feeling around us hovers.
Others doubt, but the stars above know,
When compared to our passion, dim is their glow.

Your fingertips, cold on this snowy night,
Rejuvenate me and emblazon my life with light.
If hypothermia were to claim me now,
I hope others wouldn't long ponder how.

I'll lose myself in you any day of the year,
Even during winter, you resolve my fear.

I should be given the gold medal for creating misconceptions
Cause i always accidentally start misunderstandings
With my poor word structure
A sad excuse for a poet like me

You're supposed to only have water in my school
But soda is water too with a color
So what's the hassle?

There is a pair of sisters,
Serendipity and Tragedy.

I enjoy the company of Serendipity,
but I favor Tragedy above all others;
I will carry her in my heart,
laughing, to the grave.