A story within a poem

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I’m the only one left.
My pack was killed off, one by one.
Death shadowed me
Followed everywhere I went
Soaking my fur black
Killing my sight

I remember the look on her face
Her fur matted in the chase
Teeth stained red
Eyes with a wild dying light
Her muffled breathing slowing
I felt her life stop underneath her chest

Then you came
You saw your trophy on the ground
Next to a live one
You drew a silver stick
The sun glinted off like water with light
You stuck it in my side

You drug it up my already dead fur
Ripping up my flesh
I felt it clack against my ribs
With a sick yelp
I turned my tail and ran
Away from your prize

I wandered the forest alone
With Death on my back
Running from you
The stick was still in my side
Red water ran down my skin
Pooling everywhere I went

I could smell you following me
That is all that kept me on the run
I could feel my life drain away
I was slowing
Enough for you to catch me
Enough to finish the ****


It was at the field of feathers you found me
Just beyond the pines
I was lying, panting from the chase
Death was staring me in the face
And when my vision cleared I saw you instead
Watching me carefully

You had your loud stick at your side
Your face was hard like rocks
You just watched me
I stared back
Prepared for death
I’d die the lonely wolf

Your face softened
You neared closer
I had no strength to protest
You dropped lower
Almost crawling towards me
While I was crawling toward the darkness

You were just a blur now
Your hand closed around the silver stick
While your other hand traced the wound
You looked at that hand
Which was now blurred red
You muffled something softly

I looked up
A growl rose in my throat
I could see it
I couldn’t let it happen
You jumped back
The loud stick raised at me

I dragged myself to my feet
Snarling while red water fell over the feathers
It was so hard to see
But I could smell it
The intention to ****
You edged back

I took off running
Coming right at you
You howled at me
I was at full sprint now
But your stick
It howled loud and quick

That’s when I felt it
The burning in my chest
My eyes widened
I fell and stumbled
Feathers stirring in the sky
I tried to prop myself up
But I couldn’t

You stared at me
I panted out what was left of the red water
I whined at you
Just turn around
I barked; yelped helplessly
It was too late

The bear that was behind you
Struck you down
Tearing your flesh wide open
The red water was everywhere
I couldn’t do anything
I could only watch

The bear finally stopped tearing
It’s black eyes stared at you
A moment longer
A heap of red flesh
Barely breathing
It wandered off into the pines

I whined at you
You cried back
Darkness was on the edge of everything
Closing in on me
Closing in on you
I could hear your pain

I dragged myself closer to you
Whining
I could make out your eyes
Wide with fear
I groveled closer
You gingerly twitched your hand

I was close now
I could feel your life against my fur
Beating slowly
Your were almost gone
I licked an apology on your hand
I’m sorry

You looked at me
Your hand moving up my drenched fur
You grabbed the silver stick
And slowly drew it out
It didn’t hurt
I was already broken

You looked at me
And breathed one last time
I saw myself in your blue eyes
You had a soul too
I filled myself with air
And howled for the last time

A ragged voice in the night
Blood-red feathers in the sky
Floating to the stars
I was singing for me
I was singing for you
I was singing for us

My shoulders slumped
I fell to the ground
My sight was gone
I couldn’t feel you dead-still next to me
But I could still hear
My song echoing

Wolf song
If we should die tonight
We should die together

{~~~}

I wrote how I felt
on a small slip of paper
and I threw it
into the ocean
to never been seen
*again

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE STARS IN THE SKY
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE RAIN IN THE SUMMER
MORE THAN THE SUNLIGHT WHICH TRICKLES THROUGH MY CURTAINS IN MID-WINTER
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE FLOWERS WHICH GROW WILD
AND MORE THAN THE YELLOW BUTTERFLY I ONCE CAUGHT BUT THEN LET GO BECAUSE IT WAS TOO BEAUTIFUL TO HOLD CAPTIVE AND I WANTED TO SHARE THAT BEAUTY WITH THE WORLD
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE RIVER I ONCE JUMPED IN AND THE CLEAR WATER THAT SPLASHED ON MY FACE AND MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS WASHING AWAY THE PAST
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE GREEN OF THE GRASS AND THE RED OF THE ROSES AND THE BROWN OF THE OAK THAT GROWS BEHIND MY HOUSE
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE SOUND OF THE BIRDS IN THE MORNING AND THE CRICKETS WHICH CHIRP LATE AT NIGHT AND THE LITTLE KITTEN WHO COMES TO VISIT ME EVERY NOW AND THEN IN HOPES OF FINDING A SNACK
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE WIND WHICH BLOWS AWAY MY FEARS AND THE RAIN WHICH DROWNS MY TEARS AND THE SUN WHICH WARMS MY HEART AND THE MOON WHICH GIVES ME HOPE AND THE STARS WHICH GUIDE ME HOME
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL THESE THINGS COMBINED AND I MUST SAY THAT COMING FROM ME, THAT IS A VERY VERY VERY BIG STATEMENT BECAUSE MY HEART HAS ALWAYS BELONGED TO THE WILD AND THESE ARE WHAT MAKE UP MY VERY EXISTENCE
THESE ARE WHAT GIVE ME PURPOSE AND PROVE TO ME THAT LIFE IS WORTH LIVING
THESE ARE MY REASON TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND FALL ASLEEP TO AT NIGHT
AND IF YOU’VE MANAGED TO CAPTURE MY SOUL AND FREE MY HEART TO THE POINT WHERE I LOVE YOU MORE THAN NATURE AND ITS MIRACLES THEN I MUST SAY THAT YOU HAVE INDEED CLAIMED EVERY PART OF ME BECAUSE TRULY I NEVER THOUGHT IT WAS POSSIBLE TO LOVE ANYTHING OR ANYONE MORE THAN I DID THE FEELING OF FRESHLY CUT GRASS AGAINST MY BARE FEET BUT YOU’VE PROVEN ME WRONG
*AND I DO, I DO, I SWEAR TO YOU, I DO LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING, ANYTHING IN THE WORLD

Last night, I got kisses.
They weren't sweet kisses,
They weren't soft kisses.

They were sharp kisses,
They were swift kisses.
They were the kind of kisses that leave marks.

They were the kind of kisses that sting.
They were peppering kisses,
They were lightning kisses.

They were biting kisses,
They were a blade's kisses.
They were the kinds of kisses I regret.

They were the kinds of kisses that sting for days.
They were silver kisses,
They turned into red kisses.

They weren't my first kisses,
They weren't my last kisses.
Last night, I got kisses.