March air hits me hard
But snow fall sits upon
A fresh start lays here
But I'm still seeing the past
Existing at the same time

its 1 am on a school night and i find myself walking-scratch- that sobbing while walking back from campus
usually i would be so anxious walking  home but honestly i was to distraught this day i wished something happened so for a split second i could forget about everything

but unfortunately for me i made it back
still sobbing i may add as I'm sitting on the toilet with my dollar store razor to my wrist

being the ***** that i am i didn't do it but i wonder if the blood dripping out of my body would hurt more than the words that were

said to me that made me hate every single thing about me
almost a year later i come to find out that pinching is a form of self harm

and the marks on my arm eventually fade but the memories i hold will last forever

stranger things used electroconluvsion therapy
but i find it even stranger that i would use that on myself

now it's almost December
and the hands i used against myself
i now turn into beauty on pen and paper
and the blood is still running through my veins
reminding me why i get up every morning
and the voice that was too afraid to stand up for her self
is now used to help others

So *******, and you, and you, and yes even you too
for giving me the worst day of my life
but thank you for showing me
that I deserve better

In math class we're learning about circles
But the only circles I'm thinking about are the ones your tongue Makes on my *******
Draw me a circle

They haven't met each other yet,
But they've already fell in love,
I can bet

Spent days talking to each other,
Without physically hearing the words,
straight from their lover

Attachment became inevitable,
When it goes on everyday like this,
Its impending, unescapable

Promises were made without a doubt
They needed to reassure each other, that the feelings won't fade out

They've already invested in the idea,
How they want a future together,
Even to naming their daughter Sofia

It all seemed so perfect,
But they were never aware, that their relationship was the imagination's effect

They still haven't met each other yet,
It's a concept that millennials get,
By filling their lives with regret