I had this thought,
that you were what kept me alive.
But little did I know,
every
        little
               thing
                    you
                        said
      ­                      was
                                slowly
­                                     killing
                                           **me.

I'm finding it hard to remember what its like to truly be happy,
Today I tried to laugh but it came out sounding cold and fake,
Why is it that I have the ability to feel so much yet so little?
I am depressed, anxious, angry, heartbroken, and alone,
why can't I add another mood to try and lift me up?
All I want is to remember what its like to really smile, to feel like I fit in.

At night I try and remember what joy feels like but finish up feeling empty, I guess being empty is better than being full of sadness.

I shouldn't love you,
But I do.

Because your smile, makes me smile
Because your laugh, makes me laugh
Because I feel butterflies everytime I hear your voice
Because everything you do and say, I completely adore

I shouldn't love you,
Because my smile, doesn't make you smile
Because my laugh, doesn't make you laugh
Because you don't feel anything when you hear my voice
Because you don't care about what I do or say

I shouldn't love you,
Because you don't love me.
I shouldn't love you,
But I do.

– billiondays

watching you walk away
was like a bullet in my chest
you told me you wished me
nothing but the best

but how could that exist?
without the one thing I need
how can I follow
if you aren’t there to lead?

and who’s going to protect
me from everything bad?
who’s going to dry my tears
when I am terribly sad?

I bet you never thought
of that did you?
a bullet in my chest
it shot straight through

shot straight to my
still beating heart
took away my life
so away you start

off to be free of the burden
I was upon you
so you shot me in the heart
& it went right through.