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Sep 2015 · 1.1k
when the night arrives
Adam Johnson Sep 2015
when the night arrives

not a whisper or a word
not the wind not a bird
just the turning from light into dark
why is it that light has no sound
yet makes us hear more clearly whats around
for fear it comes and sadness too
emotions play
*when the night arrives
May 2015 · 819
Untitled
Adam Johnson May 2015
I like hamlet of old
Yearn for the joy untold

To be or not to be
The me they need to see

I am trying so hard
But hope seems so far

I am like hamlet of old
Yearning for joy untold
May 2015 · 487
Untitled
Adam Johnson May 2015
I'm not green
I'm not red
I'm not orange
I'm not brown
I'm not yellow
I'm not black
I'm not purple

I am blue
May 2015 · 496
Untitled
Adam Johnson May 2015
as i've grown
on my own
all i've known

through the years
all the tears
so many fears

i am tired
i am scared
i am alone
Mar 2015 · 2.8k
Like a mechanic
Adam Johnson Mar 2015
I was happy before I met you. Content with how my life was. And then you made me happier.. Happier than I had been in years.. I could have feelings for someone again. You taught me to feel and then broke me for my feelings. Then fixed me again. Broke me after. Fixed me. Broke me. Fixed me.. And then dropped me for good.. Like I was some toy in your game. You once accused me of leading you on, of not telling you things.. All along it was you. You blindsided me. I told you how I felt every single time. But you were never honest with me.. Not really.. And now you're okay. But I'm not. And I won't be for a long time.
Nov 2014 · 521
Untitled
Adam Johnson Nov 2014
When the day comes that I settle down.
I don't want it to be in some forgotten town.
I want to be remembered for what I've done..
And I want to be able to tell my son..
That his dad was strong.
That he stood his ground.
That he had no fear. Of a raging crowd.
I want to be proud of my efforts here.. I want him to know that I had no fear.
Oct 2014 · 616
Untitled
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
The pain is worse than ever and I'm starting to doubt that trying is even worth it anymore. So long ago it was all joy but the joy faded to where it is now.

Yet you still bring me happiness.. How..
Loving you is the only escape I have ever had and though it hurts I relish the chance to feel.
Will I be okay..
Will it all be worth it some day..
Oct 2014 · 480
Set For Two
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
I bet you think this is about you.

But I'm not hung up on you anymore.
Nor will I ever be again.

Just don't come sit at my table...
Oct 2014 · 629
Untitled
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
I don't believe in soul mates.
She could be good for him.
Who is to say.

                                                 But I also believe that some are better together
                                                             Like I would like to think you and I are

But sadly.. I don't believe in soul mates.
So maybe we aren't going to happen.
Oct 2014 · 375
Untitled
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
I wish that I wasn't so in love with you.

Maybe the pain would leave.

But some days it's the pain I crave..
I don't know.. You're just all I want
Oct 2014 · 604
Parasitic
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
I crave making others feel.
Feel sorrow.
Feel longing.
Feel joy.
Feel pain.
The rush they get from emotion makes me come alive.
Because I have a hard time feeling it alone. I need others to enhance it. To make it come alive. I'm like a parasite.
Oct 2014 · 434
Unrequited
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
Loving you is my drug.
I get high off of the thoughts of you
I've learned to enjoy the pain
Love. Lost. Or never gained.
I don't like to hurt.
But without it I couldn't live
Do you see what a little mess I'm in
But I can't. I can't.. I won't.
I don't even know how deeply I love
Loved and lost
Oct 2014 · 338
Untitled
Adam Johnson Oct 2014
Feelings suppressed.
Hearts on hold.
Tears don't fall.
Love gone cold.
Sep 2014 · 1.0k
Streams
Adam Johnson Sep 2014
Words come quickly but softly like a stream in the mountains
Rolling and flowing but occasionally crashing into the rocks below
Each word like a drop of water
Without the rest it doesn't flow
Over time the stream shapes the mountains and once it's there it's there to stay
Sep 2014 · 331
Untitled
Adam Johnson Sep 2014
When the poetry flows it's beautiful.
          Unique. Timeless. Inspiring.
But when it's forced it chokes.
          Dull. Gray. Boring.
The key to your poetry is the love you give your work.
Because with the love you give you get it in return.
The words will flow and hearts will turn.
If you will only your lesson learn.
Sep 2014 · 425
Untitled
Adam Johnson Sep 2014
New life new lines
New rhythm new times
Comfort is gone
Regularity a past song
Daily change
It's really strange..
I miss my childhood..
Sep 2014 · 610
Untitled
Adam Johnson Sep 2014
Maybe I try too hard rhyme..
             But that's my style.
Who are you to judge my flow
             Poetry is how I breathe.
If you don't like it you can leave.
But if you do, then you can stay.
And I will read it to you as you sleep
And pray that God your soul will keep
For staying for me.
You're what I need.
Thank you
Aug 2014 · 310
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I'm losing my flow.
I'm losing my rhyme.
I'm losing my voice.
I'm losing my time.
Aug 2014 · 384
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
There are readers and writers.
There are lovers and fighters.
There are dreamers and hopers.
There are fighters and copers.
What am I?
A bit of each.
Leaves me feeling like a bit of a leach.
I need some saving tonight.
Or I might just be none
Aug 2014 · 341
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Humility they told me.
That's what this shows.
You're much more humble.
Than you'd ever know.
It shows a lot of faith.
I promise you that.
You're getting there kid.
You're on the right path.

Yet I don't feel humble.. I feel lost and afraid..
Aug 2014 · 410
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
You're not ready.
You haven't prepared.
You need to be better.
Stop being so scared.
Don't be lazy.
Don't slip.
Don't fall.
Be careful what you ask for.
Be careful who you call.

I'm trying to be ready..
I'm trying to prepare..
I'm trying to be better..
I can't help being scared..
I'm not being lazy the pain makes it hard to walk..
The ground is slippery..
I can't help but fall..
I don't know what to ask for..
I don't know who to call..
I'm trying
Aug 2014 · 434
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I'm not sure where I'm going.
And I've forgotten where I've been.
It's like just one oar is rowing.
And I'm turning in circles again.
The past and the future are all blended up.
And I can't remember tomorrow from yesterday or seem to keep them apart.
Aug 2014 · 346
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
The words fall out slowly at first.
And you're scared and worried of the absolute worst.
But then you grow stronger than ever
Every word leaves you feeling more and more clever.
That's poetry for you. And once it starts to flow.
You'll be changing lives and they'll let you know
Aug 2014 · 548
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
The pain of goodbye is the hardest of all.
Because the fear makes you weak and dread the great fall.
And who will catch you when they're all gone away?
And the end of the rope is beginning to fray.
Your hope feels undone and the pains hard to bear.
And you feel like you are alone left to care.
Goodbyes are the hardest..
And leave me feeling darkest..
Help me.. My mind cries out.. But there's no one to hear..
My cry goes unnuttered.
And then come the tears..
Aug 2014 · 365
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
If I could fly I would sail to the stars.
And come back with a way that I could win back your heart.
Cause every dream I have comes back to you.
But deep down inside I know they'll never be true.
Hopeless romantic?
Or romantically hopeless.
Which one?
I wish I knew.
But if I'm honest I never even deserved you.
Aug 2014 · 938
Wolves
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I'm stuck inbetween wanting recognition and not caring who sees.
Because part of me just wants fame and the other wants release.
The two halves of my soul fight quite violently.
And it's ripping me apart.
I don't know which to feed
Aug 2014 · 345
Who am I?
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Who am I?
I ask myself as I lay down to sleep.
And beg the thoughts to go away,
And ask my soul to keep.
I'm searching for my path in life.
The stamp to call my own.
And as my eyes drift slowly closed.
I feel more and more alone.
Aug 2014 · 387
What is Pain?
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
To love and lose.
     Is better than drugs or *****.
The pain they cause is temporary.
     And the pain of love is arbitrary.
To each their own.
      But to me. Alone.
Aug 2014 · 435
List to Myself.
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Help me speak my mind.
Teach others and be kind.
When you seek then you will find.
Beware the rhetoric.
Never ask for a sign.
Aug 2014 · 389
I lost You.
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I had you, but I lost you.
I didn't know you, so I lost you.
I got scared, and I lost you.
You're okay, I still lost you..
And all that time.. I was scared to lose you..
Aug 2014 · 396
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Dusty. Cluttered. Used. Abused. Recycled. Reused. But open.

These are the corners of my mind.
Beware the secrets they keep.
Aug 2014 · 386
What's in a Name?
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I've always struggled with naming my poems.
They live and breathe as nameless things.
Nothing really fits.

Who is he who can name poetry?
Not I.
Aug 2014 · 1.6k
My muse is Gone.
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I've lost my muse.
   My poetry song.
        My words don't flow.
             My thoughts don't glide.
What's in a muse?
I ask myself.
As I claw and scream and ask for help.
Release it comes.
In poetry.
But how can I write without a muse.
Aug 2014 · 517
What do we live For?
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
What do we live for?
Is it for ourselves?
Or is there something more.
That drives us, that compels.
What is the purpose?
Of life here on this earth.
To love and be loved.
And to new love give birth.
That's the purpose.
And I hope it gives you pause.
Because life without love is pointless.
No man would have a cause.
Aug 2014 · 3.9k
I'll change the World.
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I'm planning to change the world.
Not all at once,
But boy by boy and girl by girl.
Touch each heart and move each soul.
One by one.
I'll change the world.
Aug 2014 · 771
Poetry isn't just Words.
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Poetry isn't just words.

It's living breathing souls reaching out to touch eachother with sentences and phrases that invoke feelings and give the reader pause.

Poetry isn't just words.
Aug 2014 · 854
Sing me a Song
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Sing me a song.

     Of how you love me.

Even if it's a lie.

      I don't care at all.
Aug 2014 · 574
You
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
You
Would I be loved if my words touched your heart?
And spoke to your soul like a dart board to a dart.
I want to move you. To change you. To surround you. To bind you. To make you know that someone cares. That's my dream.
Aug 2014 · 334
Silence
Aug 2014 · 572
Carpe Diem
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Coming and going, like a lucid dream. Ebbing and flowing like a rolling stream. The good and the bad. All rolled into one. The happy and the sad. Give this life it's fun. It's hard I admit but its worth it. I swear. So grab your life by the horns and do what you dare.

-AJ
Aug 2014 · 1.1k
Metaphor
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
One to compliment the other. One flowing and graceful, the other carrying on ever downward without a bother. Both beautiful, both powerful in their own way. Under apreciated in this world of money and play. No one takes the time to appreciate what they both can be. Until one comes along and finally sees.

-AJ
Aug 2014 · 504
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
When the lights go down and the crowd goes home when the night rolls out and the demons come. Will you hold me through the storm? ..until the peace at dawn.
Aug 2014 · 304
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
I need a change of scene, I'm tired of everything just being green.
Why not purple why not red why not even orange instead.
The world after a while gets so dull and plain and I can't take the fact that it just stays the same.
Day after day, night after night.
I don't know how I'm gonna win this fight.
The fight called life, that's the one thats tough. And everyday just gets more and more rough.
Aug 2014 · 338
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Everyday I walk around.
With this pain in my heart.
And if you ask me why I'm hurting. Well I wouldn't know where to start.
You see you did something to me that changed me through and through.

And if you asked me why I am who I am today the answer would be you.
So you see it's hard to drive to the places we use to go.
Because inside you're always there.
And no one really knows.
Aug 2014 · 800
Love
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Isn't it important,
That we love and are loved in turn?
When all else fails and turns to naught,
Isn't love what burns?
Aug 2014 · 285
I lived
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
Tell them I lived for a purpose.
That I held my future to the sun.
That I ran across the oceans.
Just to help someone.
Aug 2014 · 313
Untitled
Adam Johnson Aug 2014
All he ever wanted was to be the man he needed to be.
To make everyone happy.
That was his dream.
But the people killed his hope.
His last faith in humanity.
Like the last strand of a rope.
About to break free.
Because they thought
Temporary > eternal.
And that's what they learned in school.
But what they should be taught
Eternal = only a kernel.
Of life on this earth.

— The End —