Balloons

Love is like a balloon
You love it
You love to play with it
Look at it

But when it pops
It's different
It's gone
It startles you

I believe there is a destiny for everyone
I believe there is someone out there for everyone
We spend our lives looking for both

But at night
When everyone sleeps
My mind wanders

And I ask myself
Do these things exist
Or are we spending too much time looking
When we should be waiting

On nights like these I feel so alone..
I miss you and I crave your touch

I stare at my phone, knowing if I message you
You won't care

It's better to be alone and miss you
Then to feel hurt and betrayed.

A mind is like an ocean
So deep and so scary
So easy to get lost
Yet on the outside
It's beautiful and peaceful
But there is so much to discover

Your words haunt me
Like a ghost in the night
As if mocking me
For believing you
I feel as if I'm going
Insane
But I know
I just developed a cruel case
Of missing you

1:00 am
My phone buzzes
Your name appears on the screen
I tell myself
You do not really
Miss me
You've drowned
Your sorrows
Into acohol
An you're drunk  
You say you
Miss me
You want me
Your drunken words
Roll off your tongue
And into my heart
As if It has stopped beating
I cannot help
But to believe this
I have missed you
Ever since that night
With the yelling and screaming
It was over
I cannot help but to
Say I miss you too
And then
Those two words
I've been dawning to hear
Come through the phone
"I'm sorry"

You were my moon
My sunshine
My stars

But now you are my
Tears
Chills
And thoughts.

I wonder
Who taught you how to speak
With such lies
Making it sound like love
Who taught you to
Leave me
Falling apart
Broken
And not even let it cross your mind

11 things you should remind yourself at least once a day in high school ~

1. It doesn't matter if you're a size 0 or size 5. Nobody will notice except you.
2. If he left you, he didn't care about you that much. And he's probably not thinking of you right now.
3. Eat chocolate when you're sad. You may not think it will help, but sometimes it does.
4. It's okay to stay in on a Friday night and watch movies. You'll have a thousand more.
5. Remember to laugh. Don't be afraid to burst out laughing in public with you're best friend.
6. Do good in school, don't skip a big project or do it the night before. It will matter.
7. Don't let a boy use you're beautiful body as an excuse for making you feel special.
8. Don't be scared to go a party. You'll have fun and you've made another memory that you'll remember for years.
9. You can be different, you don't have to like the same singers or do everything all of your friends do. Listen to what you love and do what makes you happy.
10. Go to every football game.
11. Have fun - you either hate high school or you love it. It's your choice.