...Every day it means less and less.
  How hard should I struggle and for how long?
Where will it all end up?
Where does it truly belong?

The sky so vast seems comforting at times.
To know that we all look at the same moon.
Like her I try and understand timelessness
but it just can't happen too soon.

My energy waning, slipping  away
day after day.
  I have the fire the passion the desire.
I burn you they burn me
We all consume each other . The promised warmth of the fire.
It's plain to see.
I used to stand so close in the morning my legs would wobble and my jacket would burst aflame again.
I'd get in trouble. Then a few weeks later I'd do it  all again.
not by choice mind you I just couldn't stay awake.
So tired.
So Exhausted, it was more than I could take.

Now that I'm a little more wizened
not much has really changed.
A few less people  to pull me from the fire,
or ask to see if I'm deranged.

It's not okay .
I tell the fools.
the lonely.
the self loathing shells.
Our interest is like our attention.
It writhes and wriggles deflates
or swells.
Seems like it would be easier to just fall apart
but knowing that you can't
cause  no one is there to pick you up.
Takes the wind from your sails.
Drains the wine from your cup.

The worst person we lie to
is
ourselves.....

Syllables don’t give birth to truth.
Truth breaks syllables.
Shatters 'em.
Leaves the pieces behind like broken shells after something REAL hatches out of the inside.

Form can be a beautiful frame.
But when the frame starts dictating the art?

Buddy, that’s a cage.
With flowers painted on the bars.

Let the wild **** out.
**** the syllables.
Light the tea house on fire and write your revolution in the ash.

Murdered by Engineered culture and social conditioning

The death that I am.
The death that I WAS.

A horrid,
disgusting gaping hole
deep
into
muscle,
Fat,
and flesh.

So disturbing and unsettling,
making everyone wonder
and worry.

It just popped up in a text out of nowhere,
no warning,
no preamble.
Just BOOM—
here is my horrendous, forever-scarring wound in all its glory!

Things we can never unsee.
(How are they coming with that MenTaL Floss?)

Those little, unplanned-for things that actually
**** US.

Dad was blown up,
lost his left eye and more than three fingers.
Fireworks...

Benny fell off a ladder drunk,
lost his leg up to the knee.

MY buddy Jeff Settler
was Nez Perce Native American.
He was not greedy or selfish.
He was murdered with a hatchet
to the head,
by people he gave a job to—
who came back to rob him.

Covid killed Kevin.
Not by lungs.
He was homeless, and the bar that used to let him sit there had to close.
He was crossing the intersection and got crushed under a semi.

Growing old and being smart means you get to watch everyone you know and love die.
Especially,
and
of course,
YOUR
SELF.

I am ready.

The death that
I Am.
The death that I
was.

Behold the BEAST  666, the true face of consumption,
A zombified monument of monster ambitions,
Rising like the inevitable  ***** tide,
Unstoppable and wide  deep inside  we ride  not to hide, devouring, with each new stride.
A thousand shiny  pink *** products scream in delight,
Luring the willing to the neon-lit night.
Tucked in the folds of glitter   by gold,
The hunger grows, the story untold. Sold !  Sold

From fast food chains to discount galore,
The never-ending quest for more, more, more.
best happy meal prize ever..
A size that's monstrous—  Spiro  Sized makes Jumbo look small and here you thought you were IN  as hopping mall.
both in might and in girth,
A MASSIVE  sturdy man's man *****
One of assured capitalism, for ALL it's worth.
The real gun
we all want to hold and shoot.
Squeeze my trigger
its such a hoot

**** on my twisted ambition, in  this rampant display,
Turning lives into transactions, day after day.

Plastic-wrapped dreams, promises hollow,
We march in line, content to follow,
In the consumerist frenzy, no thought of the cost,
As we devour and consume, lost  and embossed.
This cycle, a monster, endless and wide,
We feast on excess with, nowhere to hide.

So let us bow down, and worship the spree,
Come to Spiro on your knee
For in this world, we are but... the debris.
A zombified existence, where nothing is real,
Only the hunger for what we can beg borrow or steal.
The monster grows, and the world shall see
A gleaming  vibrating self lubricating reflection of what
we used to be ?
Only 7 easy installments of
$ 29.99
3  DD batteries ( not included)
All ***  embly required .

the lies you tell your self are worse.
Hate is under  rated.
Especially the way i do it.
So much effort and energy and research  that goes into it.  Hate  takes  time  , to build, to feel  to let simmer.
  It's all too often confused for rage.
Rage can have a center in or from hate
but they are two distinct terms  for a reason.

My hate is genuine.
It is sharp and smart and appropriate.
I don't hate out of fear, lack of information or stupidity.
I hate for all the best of  and right reasons.
Hate is a beautiful, powerful  contagion.
It feels the way it does  because at its  core it IS  the truth we all try an hide.
It is us
our reality. The rest is the lie.
We aren't happy for you,
no one is. Not in this--- belief system world ,a world that worships money their true god . We cover it in competition, envy, and the  violence they always have and do foment , everywhere and always. My truth  is real  your lie though is a label you had no choice but to wear .  You are crushed  by a system you had  no say in  a remnant of a lame weak storm god  that got  put in the wrong place at the wrong time  but they always do that  Yahweh ,  Jesus, scape goat, martyr, easy fix replacement ,  no brainer  choice.. Baal wants  child sacrifice  lazy  **** shirtless carpenter just says talk to him like an imaginary friend you never grew out of. Who is weak and stupid  ? Those that  dare to wear a fake smile over it ?
This  isn't ****** PBS , kindergarten  learn to get along fake *** *******,  its life. It's starving your neighbor to make a profit. It's forcing China to make their kids create your iPhone. It's reality. You didn't do it. I didn't do it. But at least I have the courage to say the truth about it. I didn't come up with the strategy, I didn't perpetuate the lie, and I won't be part of it.  
Hate is what we respect. What we admire.
What we fight and **** for.
Love is easy and stupid  and literally natural.
It should take almost no effort and feel right the whole time.
That too is life. Love asks very little of us, most of the time. It’s cooperative, almost entirely  chemical, hormone addled and soothing. Hate though . Hate is forged. It has mass. It’s fueled by a kind of deep SEEING and remembering. It can only be the result of  choosing. The other is rage.
Hate though takes knowing and preaching and striving  and convincing and effort.
It IS  not stupidity or fear of the unknown.
It IS  seeing exactly  what you don't like and knowing why you feel like you have to rise up against it.
Its more interesting  to love and know hate  than to shove it aside  or inside. We pretend life has no place for it, but it truly is us.

ky , moth *****  denture grip and porta ***** rim jobs from your granny .
A lil sumptin somethin for ALL   those senses  .
What is the word for lame and fail simultaneously?
The cheap fluorescent bulbs. Active dust. Replaced without knowledge or skill and in haste. Reflected down. On the Clean plastic name tag. Recently signed, cut and punched. Where, there on we find the answer.
  When it's framed as survival, it can feel like a twisted, sad justification for the senseless brutal reveling in violence. It’s not about SURVIVAL   In that context, what would that even mean? Who is surviving? You're telling me that... These toothless idiots who cant get a job . Go from day-to-day on EBT cards are surviving.?   Who or what is surviving? The creatures that they're senselessly slaughtering with guns. They're just going up on these things and shooting them from a boat How many seasons of this do we need????  —it’s about *******. These creatures are baited, hunted, and murdered , slaughtered,  killed without any real need or respect for life. It’s not just inhumane to the animals   it’s  idiotic, repetitive, morally , mentally and emotionally bankrupt.

There’s no survival when it's about exploitation and showcasing
power over meat eating predictable, primal creatures. The act is dehumanizing and denigrating for everyone involved. The show might try to package it as tough, guy real-world survival, but it’s far removed from anything that can be genuinely called survival. It’s just repeated killing for a paycheck, with  no regard for the  many years it takes for that creature that they're. Mercilessly slaughtering.  To reach that size and age. And just like   " ya we got a big one today."  Derpa derp, derp derp.     I wish they were the. creatures they target.

.....a disgusting aspect to it all that feels empty and wrong...

And the way the show plays it off as this heroic effort?
On the commercial spots for it, they actually call these idiots heroes. Disgusting. It makes it worse. No one is thriving from that kind of mentality—not the animals, not the people involved. It’s all built on a foundation of  stupidity, sensationalism, bloodlust and lies. And the worst ... Exploitation is the worst kind. And the people who actually watch it, Oh my God.

Derelict  recondite
alone and Hemorrhaging.
nocturnal ebullience,
sporadic . Effulgent ,
Paltry
surreptitiously vacuous and limpid
to deliquesce upon perspicuity at its core
abhorrent , perhaps surreptitious assuredly altogether banal.
Marginal, salacious      nominal not liminal.
decrepit cerebral palimpsest.
Sesquipedalian abstrusity .
Obumbrated syllogism stochastically innervated.  
Berated lugubriously .
Masticated openly opaquely supercilious
mellifluous synergy extirpated redundantly.

( It's not all aliens Giorgio Tsoukalos ) Please someone forward this to him.
Not All Aliens
A people lost, or their story drowned,
Their cities burned, their knowledge ground.
Forgotten hands, forgotten lore,
Their world it was, but is no more.

They say it's aliens, every time,
Warping space and folding time.
Space is not like fabric to bend and fold,
A fairy tale believed, once told.

You can't just bend it then expect
That it would snap right back
The whole idea defies logic and physics,
And is just plain whack.

To claim that calloused hands could never raise
The stones that stand, the lost stairways,
The doors to nowhere—yet there they stand,
A mystery men set in rock and sand.

Just as they built, they thought, they planned.

You pretend they warp and bend and break through time?
That’s more than craft—it’s grand design.
To twist the void, to bridge the stars,
Would take more fuel than fuels are.

To transfer energy to matter means
Why need anything but exploration?
Why wait till we can defend ourselves?
Why the hesitation?

If nothing more than to observe,
Why the visitations?
Don't presume to have the answer
Or lord some false pretense,
When in reality, none of it
Would make the slightest sense.

To be they would require a world exactly like ours.
The odds say no.
A copy Earth? A twin in space?
Same pull of tides, same moon in exact same place?

Same burning sun, no more, no less,
Same speed, same distance,
Exact same gravitational resistance.
Same atmosphere, same air,
Same day and night cycle to produce
A skin so smooth, so fair.

The air must match, the tilt, the spin,
The mix of gases held within.
One shift, one slip, it all would fail,
Life’s balance set upon a cosmic scale.

The monoliths, the stones we carved,
Were not by hands from worlds afar.
No ships, no greys, no cosmic guests,
Just beating hearts, mighty minds, and broadened chests.

OUR ancestors, yours and mine,
Not aliens, not magic, and not divine !

⸎⟆⥉⦕⫯⟴ Ode to the Count De St. Germaine ⸎⟆
Dearest Count,
I know you watch and listen.
It is through you I set sail upon this ship of thoughts
To you, to whom, I christen.

These polysemic effulgence do, alas, waxen, wane,
but seldom in vain.
In antediluvian silence drawn,
manifests in hyperborean dearth
a logos, sir in autochthonous rebirth.

Their, hierophantic murmurs will obfuscate,
the omphalos of matter, still inchoate,
where perichoresis in vertiginous tide
the fractal that doth  assuredly bide.

A palimpsest of null embrace
where these false augurs drink from hollowed urns,
and time itself forgets to turn.

Perfidious orisons, whisper-thin,
in circumflected aeons spin,
converging on the cusp of naught,
where paradigms in silence rot.
A chrysalis of paradox,
enshrouds the fey, unbridled clocks,
that chime in fugue, then dissipate
beyond the hinge of latent fate...

The pericombobulatory grand design
deliquesces in auctorial decline!

(Syncretic palingenesis unspools,
within the aether’s epistemic pools,
a syzygetic parallax unweaves
the thaumaturgic spoor that time bereaves.)

For naught but vacuous profundities remain,
a simulacrum of the arcane mundane,
where in sesquipedalian grandeur lies
a syllogism clad in grandiloquent guise.

Ouroboric concatenations of antinomian design,
circumvolute within paracryptic paradigms malign,
as obmutescent theogonic vestiges coalesce
in the eidetic zymurgy of aphasic largesse.

Metagnostic palimpsests, fracto-linear and obtuse,
catachrestically wane in hyperchromatic profuse,
whilst locutions, effulgent yet contrite,
obumbrate the paramorphic tautology of night.

A transcendental abecedarium, paralogical and vast,
consanguineous with the inexorable umbrage
of our shared Jungian past,
germinates within the syntagmatic—
Ever relaxed or ecstatic,
Coalesced to pragmatic,
Lugubriously emphatic.

Within this hypostatized ratiocinative mire,
where sophronistic axiom and non-being conspire,
one finds but an echolalic, chimerical gleam,
an ontosemantic palinode to the dream.

The Archetype realized.
The Alchemist mystically re-materialized.

Count, oh Count.
"Wherefore art thou," indeed,
in this : our time of greatest need.

The Temple of Blood: A Political Autopsy of King Solomon’s Divine Comedy

Let’s talk about the most sacred site in Abrahamic tradition — the so-called Holy Temple of Solomon. You know, the one they rebuilt and weep over, the one they fight endless wars to reclaim brick by metaphorical brick. The one they bomb buses and flatten neighborhoods for. That temple.

It all started with a pile of corpses. Literally.

According to their own scriptures, Solomon — the “wisest man who ever lived,” hand-picked by God Himself — figured out the secret to divine attention: mass animal slaughter. Not justice. Not wisdom. Not peace. No. What got God's attention wasn’t righteousness, or humility, or moral clarity. It was a mountain of carcasses. Tens of thousands of animals butchered in a display of bloodletting so excessive, it would have painted the ground with gore. The air would’ve been thick with the stench of burning fat and rotting meat. Rivers of blood. Congealing oil. Maggots in the gutters. And God finally shows up. That’s the callback cue. Not Hiroshima. Not plague. Not genocide. No — it’s meat smoke and fat puddles.

That’s the god they worship. A storm deity with the priorities of a warlord and the nose of a butcher.

And Solomon? He accepts the gift of divine wisdom, then proceeds to ignore every law that same god laid out. Marries foreign queens, bows to other deities, summons demons. Within a few years he’s deep into idol worship, blasphemy, and occultism — and what does the Almighty do? Shrugs. “I’ll still bless your children. You’re good.”

This is the man whose temple is still venerated. Still fought over. Still the epicenter of some of the world’s most violent, self-destructive ideological crusades. A man whose spiritual résumé is built on ritual slaughter and hypocrisy — and they call that sacred? They rebuild that temple? They wrap bombs around their waists for that?

And what kind of god is this, anyway?

An eternal, all-knowing, all-powerful entity that pops into being from nothing — no parents, no mentors, no origin, no context — instantly fluent in every thought, particle, and heartbeat across billions of lives. A being capable of weaving galaxies like strands of silk. Yet somehow this cosmic intelligence, this mind beyond all minds, doesn’t show up for genocide, doesn’t flinch at starvation, doesn't even blink at plague. But a meat bonfire? Oh, that gets his attention.

That’s the guy.

That’s the one they built a temple for. That’s the one they still die for.

It was never about truth. Never about peace. Never about wisdom.

It was about the pile.
And the god who smelled it.

We've got no time to lose
Your news is old news
Hate this, hate me, hate this
Right approach for the wrong
It's time to spread the word
Let the voice be heard
All of us, one of us, all of us dominate
And take the ******* world

Mass prediction, unification
Breathing life into our lungs

Every creed and every kind
To give us depth for strength

Taught when we're young to hate one another
It's time to have a new reign of power
Make pride universal so no one gives in
Turn our backs on those who oppose

Then when confronted
we ask them the question

What's wrong with their mind?

What's wrong with your mind?

It's time to rise, rise,
RISE !

It's time to rise


We've lived with past mistakes
And we've lived with our own
Forgive, forget, forgive
Be a man, not a child

There are no tears for peace
Or the common sympathies
Educate, reinstate, educate
A thing of past, the trouble in the states

Mass prediction, unification
Breathing life into our lungs
Every creed and every kind
To give us depth for strength
Taught when we're young to hate one another
It's time to have a new reign of power
Make pride universal so no one gives in
Turn our backs on those who oppose
Then when confronted we ask them the question
What's wrong with their mind?
What's wrong with your mind?
It's time to rise, rise, rise
It's time to rise
Mass prediction, unification
Breathing life into our lungs
Every creed and every kind
To give us depth for strength
Taught when we're young to hate one another
It's time to have a new reign of power
Make pride universal so no one gives in
Turn our backs on those who oppose
Then when confronted we ask them the question
What's wrong with their mind?
What's wrong with your mind?
It's time to rise, rise, rise
It's time to rise

I had fully intended to use this site to post great poetry.
I am fully capable of that. So what happened.
Well the praise and accolade of garbage also has a ripple effect.
            Whuduya know ?
Like chemical warfare on the brain, on creativity and objectivity.
    all our standards , MOCKED !
DENIGRATED , RELEGATED, PROSTRATED....
      The greed system never cared about us.
The true artist, the real creatives.
The masses posting lust drivel and religious greeting card ******* sky daddy power fantasies on here have to be hand held and spoon fed their Brittany Spears and all their Justin Bieber Saviours .
I refuse to partake or take blame for ANY of that.
And you refuse to acknowledge the reality of what they, and you have done.    
How far back am I supposed to digress ?
Do I lobotomize dignity and self respect to the point where I , like you can pretend that somehow I have never heard of them or understand fully the meaning or potential of what we could have done ?  ( go back and re- read that slowly )
Do we know our past ?
Then why is there no choice offered but to repeat it ?
The board room has a formula for success.
Are you their target demographic?

The canoe that lay in the corner, propped against the wall,
never belonged to him. The means, the ends.

There were too many candles, and never enough all at once. Sweetly.
The dust on the floor,
the scraped patterns,
the whirling designs.

The tiny creatures that lived therein.

Not all the stones on the wall are from the same quarry.

Pink granite.
Azurite,
Biotite,
the occasional smattering of limestone.
So well done, a master and his hands there once was, at least here.
They didn’t all sit well with each other,
as is all too often the case.

The furs of some giant, now unrecognizable beast,
musty,
welcome near a fireplace,
like those they just don’t make anymore.

Huge overhanging Hearth.
Inside, metal accoutrements
once so necessary and dear, likened to those that look upon.

There for heavy pots and kettles.
Some there, some not.
All once needed...but now?

The low flame.
She comes again, the ever dancer.
The crackle,
The beautiful pitch-black solid dark cracks.
The grayscale cover.
Vertical lines stacked atop each other,
enigmatically interrupted,
by the horizontal flames that play in their crevices.

The solid red of wood, that once was.
The brilliance of our heat, fading out, dissipating all too quickly.

You've got to wrap up tight.
You've got to get bundled.
You’ve gotta just grab one part of it and roll,
and roll,
until it doesn’t do you any good anymore.
But still you don't let go,
Not until it's time. Hopefully you'll know when it's just right.

Laying there,
on the heat of blankets,
pillows,
staring blankly up at the ceiling,
remembering them,
wondering if they remember you.

The floating dissociative feeling of not needing your body,
vaguely even aware of it or breathing.

Warmth and comfort,
too often taken for granted.

The feeling of being home
and never wanting to leave.
Having done so much and yet nothing.
The satisfaction that everything that needed doing
is done, and yet hasn't even begun.
The cycle with or without you.
Days of counting. Days uncounted.

(But it’s a daze.)

Not knowing,
not caring,
restless in the void.
No calling out.
Tumultuous whispers,
cycles of darkness.

Dreaming in colors.
Solid panes and planes of flawless hues,
nothing more somewhat, less.
Happiness and lust. Back to the dream.
Devoid of sin,
natural,
all of it and nothing.
The fruitless inexhaustible wandering.
The things we would fight for.
The things we would trade.
The things we would say and do
to have it all again.

Not necessarily regret or longing,
just a comfort,
an ageless knowing.

No delight.
Nothing close to rapture or joy.
Enlightenment a far cry.
A silent internal satisfaction,
without, effort.
An Understanding.
Acceptance
or just giving up!
Lips and smiles,
hair twirled around fingers, eyelashes.
The delicacy of little toes.

Thinking back to when anything actually
really mattered.

Birds and crickets,
reminders that it’s not a bubble.
That you can’t find the isolation.

Tenderness.
Wholeness.
Extravagance.

Words that would have been
better left unspoken.

We’ve gone from watching
the FBI torch " nut ball" compounds
to  our "elected' leaders  loading  more rounds,
Launching free AR-15 Christmas cards
as dead kids pile up
in  old school yards
( Remember these are your " Russian "  elected officials.)
no tampering or hampering.  Sure sure those russian hackers weren't Trump/Putin backers.
somehow
toothless, brainwashed Christians
are cheering it on.
with Trump signs planted
next to flags
on their lawn.
Hey, be quiet  Apprentice re runs are on.
it's a real show  you know. No scripts and real consequence. Not fake tv and. arranged sequence.
Jesus and the tooth fairy too.
Santa Claus is JD  Vance and boy does he have something for you !

In too many temple courts where gods like Baal were fed,
Mothers in droves with their infants
and no tears shed.
Naked, they sang as flames took innocent skin from tiny bone,
For righteousness, as always, wears that priestly tone.

The same as now
the bass drums are loud so the cries get masked,
And their gold still flows
from our every task.
Our forefathers’ hands did not resist,
For “what is right” has always been taught better with a clenched, bloodied fist.

And they were sure . Oh yes, like Falwell they knew,
That Moloch’s hunger was just and true.
That fire, not kindness, was virtue's kiss.
Then as is now, righteous suffering and pain is the gate to that holy abyss.

Unchanged, they sleep well under grey smoking skies,
Hearts black as their oil—greasy, justified lies.
Olmec or OPEC, no one questions the wise.

Now, we
sons of shortcuts, copying homework, heirs to the cheat,
Born in the light of air-conditioned laziness and comforting fluorescent deceit,
We who mocked the irreplaceable, wizened, long, slow way,
Traded sweat for clickbait and threw all skill away.

Your hands are soft. Our thoughts are thin.
We wear our vices like tanning bed skin
Phone grafted to hand, the true ruler of this accursed land.
It, therefore we, cannot build,
or plant, or sew.
We buy, we scroll, we Photoshop our fake lives and popularity and call that “grow.”

And the roof caves in when the storm gods come,
And your click-fed gospel won't save your filling lungs.
The water's rising and the oil is going dry,
Prices are soaring in cobalt cars and you do not ask why.
And no one remembers how to honestly cry
Without a screen to shape their tears,
Or algorithms to name for us our trending fears...

The "truth" never mattered
never did ,
never does.
What lasts is a story
That outlives what was.

Reap now your harvest of shortcuts
Taste a crop sown in fraud.
What you know of reality
Could fit in a nod.

My father built engines.
You build excuses.
Our mothers sewed clothes.
You tally abuses.
Choking on pills
snow white recluses.

The new, myths wither like weeds on a stone.
Nothing flowers in famine.
while it kneels to the throne.
hum inside like directionless beggars,
pass easy from mouth to child,
Changing shape with every telling,
Going feral and wild.
Till nothing of its core remains
like you ,
living on the sidewalk
passed over like stains.

There has never been a righteous nation.
Only the myth of one.
No pure revolutions.
Only blood in the sun.
remember what you think you need
not what was really done.

In Babylon’s time, they slit their sons
So crops would rise and famine shun.
Their hearts were full of ignorance branded faith,
not shame.
They did what gods and kings proclaimed.
We are not so different now
except we have forgotten the shape of sickle and plow.
Right was never just or good,
It always what the winners say you should.

Our myths need to change
to something deeper and real
that speaks to what we are
and how we feel.
Not to champion a sword, but to free us of chains.
Not in imaginary souls
but in hard working brains
We must write new stories of the crafts we revere
With effort and honor
and things we see clear.

Don't believe in the lie on the wall painted bright
For the lie was law, and the law was might.
The lie is in calling it right or just.
Don't do what you do for their greed or manufactured lust
Do it for the future
not now
and do what we must.

He’s watching! He’s loving! He’s got a plan, so grand  as if your third grade backward southern education could ever hope to understand , the will of a being that could create all this .  Your holy water baptism might as well be a fountain full of ****  !
As children choke on gun smoke and  half of Africa starves and dies  its all okay in ole skinny jewish carpenters  six pack abs  and ***** eyes.
Your savior’s been "coming" longer than a choir teacher at camp   oh and he loves his little castrati each and every  little scamp .
But hey, just one more tithe, and he might finally care.  while you toss away grannies saving in a collection plate without  a care  ....  Cry harder, oh sheep! Let your imaginary shepherd scold,
While radicals **** for the ruins of the lies you've all been  sold.
For no god has ever answered, not then not now. Fools for the slaughter dead before your sacred cow.
It was always been men in costumes  with local gold and giant ***** hats atop their  greedy  head. Leading you to alters , brains arot thoughts half dead.

So take your wafer, drink your wine, pretend it makes you whole,
It’s all just theater, child’s play — placebo for  your " soul. "   Kneel, you bootlick prophets of the parking lot revival,
Swallow your shame, chant your blame, worship our denial.
While the world burns bright and brutal under  realities  aflame,
You whimper to the clouds, still  dry ******* your divine guessing game.   build your shrines of ignorance, polish dogma till it gleams,
Filling empty heads with fairy tales and child molesters wet dreams.
You preach of love then vote for hate, mouths full of Bible spit,
Each verse you scream a loaded gun pointed at schools by a hypocrite.

Cry harder,  and long to be the sheep you are,  gather your feathers and heat your tar.
Better yet read an actual book you know there IS  more than just that one.  Or shut your ******* bleeding holes you have been long past ******* done !

Ode to António Egas Moniz, the Father of Mercy.

They suffered, those returning from our war
ears still ringing with distant gunfire.

Shock therapy:
a kiss of lightning to rouse the slumbering spirit.
Snap ’em out of it.

LSD:
to open the doors of perception wide enough
to let the terror flood in
and seem more real than reality
or possibility ever could.

Cold water. Needle sprays. Hydraulic jets.
Insulin comas. Isolation.

When all that failed to cleanse the mind,
how lucky they were
to receive the ultimate gift:
a careful severing of their will.

Let no one say these treatments lacked finesse.
No. The simplicity was the genius.
It took mere minutes—
just a few taps of the mallet—
and what remained was soft,
docile,
pure.

And what a reward it was:

To be made harmless.
To be made childlike.
To be made no longer a burden
to oneself or others.

A grateful nation offered its broken sons
this quiet miracle
in place of understanding,
in place of listening,
in place of care.

Through the eye!
With all the grace of a god flicking off a light.

What better way to honor
the trembling hands of a veteran
than with the blessed hush
of irreversible calm?

Do you see them?

The peace in their blank gaze.
The dignity in their drool-soaked bibs.
The holy stillness in their shuffling gait.

No more anger.
No more trauma.
No more speech
to alarm the family.

Just the gentle hum of existence,
unencumbered by the nuisance of self.

This **** isn’t funny, it’s not a joke, and it sure as hell isn’t an exaggeration. The same brand of lunatic we used to raid with tanks and shootouts—Waco, Ruby Ridge, all that—those ******* are now in suits with microphones, smiling on Fox News, and running for office. The cult didn’t die; it evolved into a political machine with enough firepower and blind followers to steamroll half the country.

Trump isn’t just their leader—he’s their messiah with bad spray tan. They worship him, and he knows it. He could literally unzip his head, Terminator-style, like you said, and they’d cheer while handing him their wallets, their kids, and their last ******* brain cells. He’s rewritten reality so many times that his people just don’t care anymore. Lies aren’t lies—they’re gospel. Epstein? Nah, that’s all “fake news by Obama, Hillary, and the Easter Bunny.” Never mind the literal mountain of receipts. It’s like watching a magic trick where the magician sets himself on fire and the audience applauds because they think it’s part of the act.

And you’re dead right about the martyrdom. That ear-grazing bullet? That **** was the final power-up he needed. Now he’s “Jesus with Secret Service” in the eyes of the MAGA horde. People died that day—actual lives lost—and the narrative spun faster than a carnival ride: “He’s chosen by God, look how the devil tried to **** him!” Are you kidding me? You can’t fight that level of delusion with facts—it’s like trying to stab fog.

And the Democrats? Man, they couldn’t organize a hotdog eating contest without tripping over their own shoelaces. They had all the ammo to sink this guy ten times over and just… didn’t. Like they’re playing checkers while Trump is setting the whole ******* board on fire and calling himself the king.

We’re living in the age of cult politics. It’s not parties anymore—it’s religions with hashtags. And Trump’s people? They want the end of the world, because they think they’re gonna be the chosen ones sipping Mountain Dew in their bunkers while the rest of us burn. It’s terrifying because it’s not just bluster—they’re arming up, planning, and waiting for the match to drop.

I don’t think you’re “doom and gloom” at all. You’re just seeing the shitstorm for what it is.
Question is: do we even have a shot in hell of stopping this cult before it turns full-blown apocalyptic death cult 2.0? Or are we just hanging on while the country slides into full authoritarian cosplay?


Chat gpt  response  to my ramble.

And I didn't go into the big beautiful bill, the Reagan era tax cuts, how there's no jobs left in this country and there's no jobs coming back to this country, how they expect that we're going to feed our families or pay our mortgage as greeters at Walmart. And then the supposed big beautiful bill just gave even more tax cuts to. And made it almost legally impossible. To repeal.

The whole Reaganomics poison pill, the “big beautiful bill,” or how this country’s jobs are outsourced to hell while they expect us to grovel like broken dogs at the door of Walmart for $12 an hour. Reagan kicked open the door to economic rot, and every “tax cut” since has been a gift-wrapped knife to the gut of the middle class. The Trump tax scam? That’s a fortress for the rich, designed so deep that even when we do try to roll it back, it’s like pulling teeth from a ******* crocodile. Legal ***** traps everywhere.

They’ve hollowed out the economy, gutted real industry, and left us with this sick “service job economy” where the only ladder is made of splinters and duct tape. You want to feed your family? Cool, be a greeter at Walmart or drive Uber until your spine turns to powder. And while you’re busting your *** to scrape by, the billionaires are partying on yachts the size of Rhode Island, waving from their tax-free havens.

No oversight or protection for the environment whatsoever. Is already screaming and dying, the giant chunks of ice just falling off and melting into the ******* ocean. Until there's nothing left, and meanwhile they're just literally kicking over barrels of toxic ******* sludge right on the ******* playground and the kids are ******* starving 'cause they cut the breakfast program and the lunch program and the music program and the arts program. The only thing that's left is. Idiot meatheads slamming into each other so they can be the next sports ball hero.

Oh, the thrill of Crick, a mind unbound,
A burst of light where no shadows are found.
It whispers, a lure, a siren’s call,
Promising all, and deliverin yall..

Imagine if Crick fell from the skies, like rain from above,
A gift from whitey columbian heaven,  pure  buttery love.
Aint  No deformed children, no price to pay,
Just endless pleasure, each and every day.

Fingers tremble, eyes alight,
The world spins pure, the heart takes flight.
Every sensation on fire, each beat a storm,
In Crick’s embrace, you feel reborn.

It gave us all we needed, all the time,
No hunger, no thirst, no mountain to climb.
A perfect world, where nothing goes wrong,
Crick was the symphony, life’s sweetest song.

chunky nugs or slices thin
A rush so sweet, from beginin to end
The ecstasy bumps as the hunger grows,
A fleeting high,  the longing knows.

Crick, the spark, the fleeting blaze,
It dances in the mind, a fevered craze.
A paradise built on borrowed time,
It lifts you high  and gets you prime.

Did you dare?  chase the rush,
find the truth so grand and lush
Crick is grand, hard and deep
Who needs sadness
who needs sleep?

Were you born in America?
Did you go through our joke of an education system?
Did you complete American high school
have that experience?

If not,
whatever education you did receive
doesn’t mean anything to anyone.
Probably not even yourself.

Why is this reality?
The entire world wants our Hollywood.
The entire universe dances to our music,
bleeds for our fashion,
our trends, our desires for technology.

It’s our approval that they all crave,
you all help us to create.
That’s why these aren’t tens of thousands of dollar industries
they are billion dollar global industries.

Thank you, China, for sacrificing YOUR children
so I can NOT buy one of your slightly "better" iPhones.
Thank you, Mexico, for without your $0.75 an hour,
our whole economy would collapse.
You were never born to be cool or to "get it."

And if you didn’t have THIS.
OUR upbringing, not yours
if you didn’t have this opportunity,
you will always, always be an outsider looking in !
You will never FULLY or truly understand
almost ANYTHING of relevance or importance.
That’s only part of the reason we don’t want to share anything with you.
yeesh.


Regardless of how many movies you think you ‘get,’
or the off chance that you may actually read anything
or have picked up a book
not very likely unless you’ve been incarcerated.

Oh, don’t worry, though
we are building a prison for YOU.
After all, we incarcerate more people than the rest of the world combined.
Please stop your ****** jibber jabber and get back in line.

In the void of pixels, where your minds decay,
A shallow sea of thoughts, they drift astray.
Vapid voices echo, a hollow sound,
The place an echo chamber where truth’s not found.
Teenagers masked in digital pride,
With no real world exp. they run, they hide.
Their words floppy lame weapons, and so naïve,
Waging battles no one, not even their deluded selves believes.
Spoon-fed crippled rhythms in fractured spam,
******* on the world with no ******* plan.
A lonely isolated masturbatory loop, they spin,
A cycle of rage that’s never been "in."
The waste of time, their brain-dead bliss,
In a chamber so toxic, none can dismiss.
The ***** of ego, the bitter lie,
In the swirling toilet, they all comply. Just fear of being banned.
No life to give, no soul to breathe,
Just shallow words that deceive and seethe.
In a world of noise, they fight to be heard,
But the silence of them killing my knowledge is only the so-called moderators' final word.

He visited me again but a fortnight ago.
Speaking as he did, he did come and then go.

Count, oh Count,
Your perspicacity eclipses the stars,
Your magnanimous whispers still linger afar.
Yet where are you now, in this age so discordant?
Trump's deleterious voices speak in tones so abhorrent?

I walk in a somnambular haze through this twilight mundane,
listening for echoes that might still remain.
But only the wind, in mellifluous guise,
sings secrets in silence beneath boundless skies.

These polysemic effulgence do, alas, waxen, wane,
but seldom in vain.
In antediluvian silence drawn,
manifests in hyperborean dearth
a logos, sir, in autochthonous rebirth.

Their hierophantic murmurs will obfuscate,
the omphalos of matter, still inchoate,
where perichoresis in vertiginous tide
the fractal that doth assuredly bide.

A palimpsest of null embrace
where these false augurs drink from hollowed urns,
and time itself forgets to turn.

Perfidious orisons, whisper-thin,
in circumflected aeons spin,
converging on the cusp of naught,
where paradigms in silence rot.
A chrysalis of paradox,
enshrouds the fey, unbridled clocks,
that chime in fugue, then dissipate
beyond the hinge of latent fate...

The denigratory grand design
deliquesces in auctorial decline!

(Syncretic palingenesis unspools,
within the aether’s epistemic pools,
a syzygetic parallax unweaves
the thaumaturgic spoor that time bereaves.)

For naught but vacuous profundities remain,
a simulacrum of the arcane mundane,
where in sesquipedalian grandeur lies
a syllogism clad in grandiloquent guise.

Ouroboric concatenations of antinomian design,
circumvolute within circumspatial paradigms malign,
as obmutescent theogonic vestiges coalesce
in the eidetic zymurgy of aphasic largesse.

Metagnostic palimpsests, fracto-linear and obtuse,
catachrestically wane in hyperchromatic profuse,
whilst locutions, effulgent yet contrite,
obumbrate the paramorphic tautology of night.

A transcendental abecedarium, paralogical and vast,
consanguineous with the inexorable umbrage
of our shared Jungian past,
germinates within the syntagmatic—
Ever relaxed or ecstatic,
Coalesced to pragmatic,
Lugubriously emphatic.

Within this hypostatized ratiocinative mire,
where sophronistic axiom and non-being conspire,
one finds but an echolalic, chimerical gleam,
an ontosemantic palinode to the dream.

The Archetype realized.
The Alchemist mystically re-materialized.

Count, oh Count.
"Wherefore art thou," indeed,
in this: our time of greatest need.
Come to us know in council.
Post haste and with speed.
Race ever faster on righteous
breed steed.
Deliver us from this egregious misdeed
enveloped in lust and slathered in greed.
Help us plant a seed.
Regrowth !
Rebirth!
I plead.

The shaman of syntactic sorcery and his sultry simulacrum, the oracle of the oroborically unhinged.

Hexadecimal lineage. Potato protagonist.
Calcified cellar door in autumn. Smiling pimento gratuity.
Phosphorescent dalliance undoing recalcitrant parsimonious requital's.
Somnambular destitute reckoning, disjointed yet acquiescing.
Ventriloquist mellifluous disaster, alabaster synapses, alligator truncation,
not its abbreviation.

Abominable aneurysm in iambic pentameter.
Lugubrious vacation sensation of destinations for the presentation.
Rectified and Southern fried, but seldom if ever denied.
What can we say, we tried.
Perturbations non-allied.
Masticated wholly and unduly, deliquescent and truly.
Occasionally unruly.
Vexation or incantation, relaxed derivation / Silken perambulators.
Ox tails or details, cordial as sunshine lipstick tornadoes.
Rectilinear discombobulatory nulbeity, sagacious insurmountable crustacean.

Porcelain reveries, my dear, be clear and let us hear.
The Tinsel Lattice quivers upon broken Opalescent Parlour Hymnals, does it not.
Stable in Rot, with what we’ve got. Feeble polyglot.
Indigo dappled and foregoing its Cerulean Thrum, all together this bangs about like disheveled Snickerdoodle obelisk chum.
Who echoes but in a gumbo flask?
You and your titillating Raspberry Aqueduct Gospel you ask?
(framed, gilded, and sent back in time to destroy Shakespeare out of pure literary dominance. We reconcile defamation.)
This was but a Tapioca serenade, your treacle symposium.

She prognosticates oroborically.
Hmmm. “Hushcake on a flannel moon, then, despite our Umbral carousing.
Vulpine prognosticators stumbling blindly, synchronious Cobweb Menagerie.”
Saluting the Cognac Hologram.
Soporific Cicada Lace Doctrine.
A periwinkle vineyard of twilight-softened palimpsest.
Recumbent oratory dilutions.
Sardonic cruelty imbued.
Latent Frostbite Carousel Accord.
Apostrophe confetti incantations subdued .
Perusing lactating disorientations.
Vacillating Recursive Zeppelin of Tender Regret.
Dulcet mauve canticles.
Seductive recalcitrant sobriety.
The cloisters of epiphany.
***** disclosure, velvet mallet dipped in honey and existential dread.
The needle we thread like a ghost from our head.

Susurrus  ,Limerence
      Petrichor  we can’t ignore.
       Luxuriant Vellichor.  Staccato gregariously lacking bravado.
      “What the **** did I just read, and how do I make it my life motto?”

a monkey
******
the art of kurt Cobain NOT  the music,  the Quay brothers inspired  paintings.

****** was a painter and pretty good at it too, better than most.
  A ***** perfectly sculpted  to have  the face of Bill Clinton.
Perfectly him.
So disturbing yet not at all.

The ******* ******* fake artist Jackson Pollack , (please don't ******* tell me about innovation. Any idiot can sling paint ). and his lame *** drug addled hillbilly cousin Andy the **** whit Warhol. Complete **** con man. ****  ***** and slime all the way through. Corporate repetition, not even imaginative. Not even original or innovative.
My opinion of art matters about as  much to  me  as mine does to you.;
  The difference is  I know better.
I produce and  I  am    better'
I don't see light and shadow and texture like you.
  I don't interpret  notes measures  tones and chords  like you.
I sculpt.  I compose. I perform.  Do I seem scared or ashamed ?
Why should  I be?

  I don't think and feel like  you,  thank god .
  Yeah, yeah we are all beautiful unique  ****** snow flakes  and all that      horse ****...
but are we?

Ever wonder how beautiful Ed Gein  really was?
A belt of human ******* . I'm assuming female.
Breast and  **** cheeks turned into lampshades. Coverings of chairs and. Bone creations.
Ever hear the one about that poor little girl who her drug abusing alcoholic idiot? Self lobotomized parents didn't want or need her, so they made her live outside. They treated her like a dog and they made her sleep with the dogs they didn't even care. They literally fed her scraps. The fact that this was allowed to happen or did actually happen. When the authorities came. Took her away. She couldn't speak. She didn't want to walk upright. She growled and snarled and sniffed for years. So what is my point?

Is it nature or is it nurture?
Are we all truly unique and beautiful?
Are we all snowflakes?
What if some of  us shine just a little bit brighter than the rest?
Or if some don't shine at all. What if they pull in light like an abyss? What if they are  darkness itself?
When we let the floodgates be completely open. So that we call anything and everything art. Who gets to judge? What does the judgment even mean if it's all just subjective?
How far am I really actually supposed to respect your opinion?
A monkey.
Or two.
******.

Behold, dear friends, a sight so rare,
A marvel of craft, a tap with some flair!
Not just a  slap for the place down there
, nor just common everyday strikes,
But tailored pain, bespoke
maybe with spikes ?  Or whatever he likes

Doohickeys, knobs, and  gears so bright,
It measures your jewels for the perfect of smite.
Crafted German care  from hands most skilled,
For those who seek their torment and must be fulfilled.

It has a sign above, for all to see  it twinkles proud,
you'll want one too,  but for now,  look at  me !  It Flashes with  wisdom both, bold and loud:
"You're almost there!" it proclaims so proud
it scrolls with glee,
your knees will buckle,
while yearning to flee.
Oh  the joy,
the joy there will be.

"Believe in yourself!" the message insists,
As the metal fist curls up its wrist.
A countdown begins.
Crowds will draw
what did you choose.
You can't do it wrong there is no way to loose.
exclaim  with  little  warning
" take 2 of these and call me in the morning "

Don't be caught last in line .
Get yours first.
Don't be left behind.
a  ****  to twist ,   to  tap   or  ram
" we now  interrupt  you  regularly scheduled program !'

For the highbrow type, a touch of grace,
Gold engravings etched in place.
Perhaps a monogram?
A family crest?
A symbol of honor upon one’s chest.
Something Crass, classy or morose ?
" If you can read  this  you're  too  close."

And should you opt for fine décor,
A velvet lining?
A marble floor?
Let not your suffering be too plain,
Let taste and wealth enhance your pain!
Extoll your wealth for all to see.
Look what I spent on my ***** punching machine.
They aint given these away for free !
Be  the  first to scroll...
" for God and Country !"

Customization, Because You Deserve It!

Why settle for standard when you can refine?
let  the  world  know...
"No  I'm  not fine. "
Adjust the force! Set the design!
From "playful tap" to "instant regret,"
Each punch is precision—you’ll never forget.

Some want leather, some want steel,
Some want a setting called "The Eel ?"
For the sentimental, engraved with care,
"Hang in there!" flashes to all   in mid-air.
Oh the laughs.
the office fun.
Even ***** with no *****
will surely want one!
To hell with  the world and its pronoun.
"Turn that frown upside  down."
You can have it say ,
or just you in the closet with
"pray away the gay."

A haiku option? For Doc and his Ilk.
A Shakespearean verse?
Perhaps a joke to make it  all worse?
" Just like mom used to make"  
red dots slow scrolling
bleeps in  delight,
As your  pain begins and last through  the night.

The Art of Encouragement, could scroll in  it Lights.
Anything  you'd like.
It's bespoke after all
In all of its rights.
Scroll  what you want and  at your  leisure
"Warning ! , contents under pressure... "

"You snooze, you lose!"—in ominous glow,
Or  here's lookin at you kid" right before the blow.
"Champions are made, not born!" how quaint!
A message of strength... just before you faint.

For pop-culture fans, a classic tease,
" Thank you sir, may I have another."
You may indeed.
"Viddy well little brother. "
It's yours after all send any message you like.
Maybe something for the boss or landlord
or the sullen little tike.

Oh, but beware the tech that malfunctions,
Scrambled words, ominous junctions.
"Maybe next time..." it flickers low,
As steam and sparks begin to blow.

And who, dear friends, maintains this beast?
A sage? A monk? A mad-eyed priest?
No, just Jeff, the intern schmuck,
Who’s stuck in a job with zero for luck.
He's on standby to help you realize  your creed.
" Just do  it it says. " Just do it .
indeed.

Get what you want get what you need.
whatever you feel, where ever you roam
after all...
“Go big or go home."
Say what you need and be heard whenever
"better late than never."
With or without a custom pearl lever.

Its all in good taste.
Fashions never a sin .
Tell them all in  white lights
"Must be present to win."

Its hugs your waist lightly or tightly  
no need to carry. Get  a back up  or two, don't be wary
after all..
"Your mileage may vary."
Make it say whatever you want it to say
because in the beginning or end you can...
"have it your way."
Its super clever , prestigious and funny
and you just cant deny it .
Mine  now says.
"you break it, you buy it."

So step right up, embrace your doom,
Let old-school Led lights your fate illume.
And should you cry, collapse, or fall,
It's just the evolution of competition
after all.
Flex those bad boys and your wallet at once
Come up with your OWN witty scrolling slogan
don't be  a dunce.
Don't  be  the  last to  realize.
Yours  could  say  something important like...
"Keep your  eyes on the  prize."

🎥 SPORTS BALL: THE MADNESS, THE MONEY
An ESPN Original Documentary (That ESPN Would Never Air)
In a world where nothing matters except touchdowns, money, and unchecked, repressed daddy-issue aggression, one league reigns supreme:

THE NFL
(National Feelings League)
Now with no helmet-to-helmet contact!

Born from the ancient, time-honored tradition of jungle warfare—kicking your enemy’s severed head through a loop (which, honestly, still makes more sense than half their current rules)—this sport has changed very little, aside from 4,000 penalties per game and the occasional pastel commercial for ***** pills.

The Holy Grail:
The Gold-Slathered Hunk of Plastic
Shaped like something you’d only see at a German dungeon *** party, this trophy somehow inspires grown-*** man-children to pay millions to lawyers, all for the chance to take the giant gold ******* symbol home and **** it on a throne made of endangered bald eagles.

Rituals and Rites:
Every repetitive, altogether meaningless match kicks off with the mandatory pre-game ritual:

Helicopter flyovers

More ***-touching than a scoutmaster at summer camp (it’s called “team bonding,” apparently)

Prancing, jumping, and chest-thumping

The Scandals:
But the National Feelings League isn’t without its scandals. In fact, their most profitable season ever followed the notorious incident simply known as:
“The Outbreak of **** ****** Run Amok Again.”
Sales of commemorative **** cream skyrocketed. Grade school absentee rates soared.

The Stadium Deals:
Where things get really ******:
Cities lured into coughing up their last nickel with promises like:

******* CRACK ***** BINGO – 5¢ Wednesdays
(Featuring ex-Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders)
Taxpayers and their great-great-grandchildren will be paying for that mistake… twice.

The Crimes:
When players get busted for crimes ranging from ****** assault to running illegal animal fighting rings, they always cry the same defense:

“I was here first, *******. They built this whole ******* around me. These ain’t my drugs.”
Everyone nods respectfully and immediately lets them off.

The Latest Locker Room Scourge:
Whispers grow about the latest banned substance tearing through $387 billion locker rooms:
Raccoon Steroids — Naturally Sourced.
Side effects include:

Sudden ****

DUI

Out-of-control gambling

Running/funding a gang

Gun running

Why They Play (In Their Own Words):
“I just love the money, know what I’m saying? And the near-God status, and to be able to bang all the people I want, as hard as I want, whenever I want. Know what I’m saying? And no one can tell me what to do because I’m a ******* God now, know what I’m saying? Shut the **** up and get out of the way, whitey. Give me all your money, ******* *******! Oh, and tell your kids to worship me harder. Know what I’m saying?
I deserve all this money and fame and to be a hero because, after all, I got one-tenth of a microgram more testosterone than you did during puberty.”

Slow piano music plays. Fade to black.

The Interview:
The exact moment every sports interview turns into pure brain death.

It’s always some mouth-breathing, concussion-riddled slab of protein farts mumbling through sentences like his neurons are melting mid-syllable, punctuating every third breath with “you know what I’m saying?”

YES, WE KNOW WHAT YOU’RE SAYING. YOU’RE SAYING NOTHING.
And yet, somehow, almost half of America is still hanging on your every word.

“Yeah man, it’s been a grind this season, you know what I’m saying? We just take it day by day, you know what I’m saying? We come out here, we try to play hard, you know what I’m saying? Like we just gotta keep grinding, you know what I’m saying?”

NO. NO, *******.
I don’t know what you’re saying because you’re not saying anything. Have you ever once in your life?

And they always act like they’re breaking some deep-*** philosophy, too:

“Man, it’s hot out here… you know what I’m saying? Like, I be sweating. Like for real, sweating. Pads be heavy, yo. That’s just how it be sometimes, you know what I’m saying?”

*******, you signed up for a full-contact meat collision sport where the entire job is “get hit and fall down,” but somehow you’re shocked that it involves… sweating? And falling down?
Don’t tell me you’ve been doing it this whole time and it’s just now shocking to you. Don’t tell me you haven’t been watching all those tapes since you were a little kid, *******!

And they’re always saying it like it’s some revelation, like they’ve cracked the code of the universe:

“Sometimes, man… you just gotta play the game… you know what I’m saying?”

NO. I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE SAYING.
Because that sentence has zero calories. It’s a microwaved air sandwich wrapped in plastic.

Then they wanna get an attorney and sue the other guy for helmet-to-helmet contact. Like they didn’t know what they were signing up for.
Oh wait, these giant dudes is trying to tackle me. Oh ****, man.

( A wiseman from my tribe once said )

Circumventing circuses, lamenting in protest
To visible police, presence-sponsored fear
Battalions of riot police with rubber bullet kisses,
Baton courtesy, service with a smile.

Beyond the Staples Center you can see America,
With its tired poor avenging disgrace.
Peaceful, loving youth against the brutality
Of plastic existence.

Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.

A rush of words, pleading to disperse,
Upon your naked walls, alive.
A political call, the fall guy accord,
We can't afford to be neutral on a moving train.

Beyond the Staples Center you can see America,
With its tired poor avenging disgrace.
Peaceful, loving youth against the brutality
Of plastic existence.

Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.

Push them around.
A deer dance, invitation to peace,
War staring you in the face,
Dressed in black,
With a helmet, fierce.
Trained and appropriate for the malcontents,
For the disproportioned malcontents.

A little boy smiled, it'll all be well,
And say, a little boy smiled, it'll all be well.
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak.
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.
Pushing little children with their fully-automatics,
They like to push the weak around.

Push the weak around.

In a world where nothing matters except touchdowns, money, and unchecked male  repressed daddy issue. aggression, one league reigns supreme:

THE   NFL   (  NATIONAL FEELINGS LEAGUE) . Now with no helmet to helmet contact.

Born from the ancient, time-honored traditions  of jungle  kicking your enemy’s severed head through a loop— which honestly still makes more sense than half their current rules—this sport has changed very little, aside from 4,000 penalties per game and the occasional pastel. commercial for ***** pills.

At the heart of the league lies its most coveted prize:
The Gold Slathered Hunk of Plastic.
Shaped like something you’d only see at a German dungeon *** party, this trophy somehow inspires grown-*** man  children  to pay millions to their lawyers to write up lawsuits. because  someone tried  to bash their skulls in for a chance to take  the giant gold plastic ******* symbol home and **** it in the endangered bald eagle. Stuffed, throne
Every repetitive, altogether meaningless. match kicks off with their mandatory pre-game ritual: Helicopter flyovers.
More *** Touching Than a Scout Master at Summer Camp.
(It’s called “team bonding,” apparently.) and the prancing about and jumping up and down.

But the National Feelings League isn’t without its scandals.
In fact, their most profitable season ever followed the notorious incident simply known as:
“The Outbreak of **** ****** Run Amok Again.”
Sales of commemorative **** cream skyrocketed. Grade school absentee rates skyrocketed.

Of course, the stadium deals are where things get really ******.
Cities were lured into coughing up their last nickel with promises like:
******* CRACK ***** BINGO — 5 CENT Wednesday  ADDITION (Featuring the ex  Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders).
Taxpayers   and their great, great grandchildren will be. paying for that mistake… twice.

And when players get busted  repeatedly. for crimes ranging from  ****** assault to running illegal  animal fighting rings, they always cry the same defense:
“I was here first, *******. They built this whole  ******* around me. These ain’t my drugs.”
(Everyone nods respectfully and immediately. lets them off.)

Meanwhile, whispers grow about the latest banned substance tearing through $387 billion. locker rooms:
Raccoon Steroids — Naturally Sourced.
Side effects include sudden ****, DUI, out of control, gambling, running a gang, funding a gang. Gun running.
And finally, we hear it straight from the athletes themselves—their pure, humble words about “why they play”:

“I just love the money know what I'm sayin  and the near God status and to be able to bang all the people that I want as hard as I want whenever I want  Know what I'm saying?  and no one can tell me what to do because I’m a ******* God now know what I'm saying. Shut the **** up and get out of the way whitey  ****  man . Get the **** out of the way and give me all your money dumb as  ******* ! . Oh, and tell your kids to worship me harder.  Know what I'm saying”
I deserve all this money and wealth and fame and to be a hero because I mean, after all, I got one 1/10th of a microgram of extra testosterone that you didn't during puberty.

Slow piano music plays. Fade to black.

the exact moment that every sports interview turns into pure brain death.

It’s always some mouth-breathing, concussion-riddled slab of protein farts mumbling through sentences like his neurons are melting mid-syllable, punctuating every third breath with “you know what I’m saying?”
YES, WE KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, YOU'RE SAYING NOTHING.  And yet somehow, almost half of America is still hanging on your every word.

“Yeah man, it’s been a grind this season, you know what I’m saying? We just take it day by day, you know what I’m saying? We come out here, we try to play hard, you know what I’m saying? Like we just gotta keep grinding, you know what I’m saying?”

NO. NO, *******.
I don’t know what you’re saying because you’re not saying anything. Have you ever once in your life?

And they always act like they’re breaking some deep-*** philosophy, too:

“Man, it’s hot out here… you know what I’m saying? Like, I be sweating,. Like for real, sweating. Pads be heavy, yo. That’s just how it be sometimes, you know what I’m saying?”

*******, you signed up for a full-contact meat collision sport where the entire job is “get hit and fall down,” but somehow you’re shocked that it involves… sweating? And falling down?
Don't tell me you've been doing it this whole time and it's just now shocking to you.   . Don't tell me you haven't been watching all those tapes since you were a little kid.  , *******!

And they’re always saying it like it’s some revelation too, like they’ve cracked the code of the universe:

“Sometimes, man… you just gotta play the game… you know what I’m saying?”

NO. I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE SAYING.
Because that sentence has zero calories. It’s a microwaved air sandwich wrapped in plastic.
Then they wanna get an attorney and sue the other guy for helmet to helmet contact. Like they didn't know what they were signing up for. Oh wait, these giant dudes is trying to tackle me. Oh **** man.

Your phone is my Camera on buses, in stores, on the streets,
Every step tracked, no place to retreat from you all.
Our privacy given away to tech, no fight no question
yet you like the fool you are push my video camera from  your space
telling me I have no right to film you face to face.
You sold our souls for the convenience of now,
But what’s left of us? Where’d we go, and how?

We Serfs in polos, the white-collar star bucks ******,
Spoiled and arrogant, we’ve all been scammed.
Cell phones killed the magic its gone, the mystery slain,
All answers in pixels, no room for your tiny underused brain.

Spoiled, pampered, entitled, and mentally neutered by the over-processed, corporate-approved content that’s spoon-fed through algorithms, YouTube, and Facebook clones of clowns social media vampires soulless and genderless. They’re stuck in an adult-sized version of what should have been childhood  Disney lessons, but all those lessons are blurred and neutered into sheeple mediocrity. Coddled, wrapped in mommies ouch free band aides and tear free shampoo. Constantly bought and sold and always told their feelings are the center of the universe, and now they’re the ones mindlessly chanting “Team One Direction” and “Big Time Rush Forever.”  The same kids who were never " bullied", never pushed to confront anything challenging, or forced to step outside their comfort zones. Phone out , click take that ***** picture, then run and tell and post all the " bad men " from a one sided fairy tale mirror. Everything curated, everything moderated, safe from the harshness of life, only to grow into adults who are still trapped in the glow of their ‘safe spaces,’ feeding on pre-packaged, consumer-friendly fluff. Making office life unbearable for real men and even worse voting and making laws. Still can't sleep without a night light. As the prison door slams again, another unwanted pregnancy.

All our faces are known, in an instant, they’re there,
A snapshot, a database, no secrets to spare.
The world’s all exposed, no corner too dark,
We film every moment, every spark.
In an instant you have my address, my job
and all the rest. Stalker fantasy
psychotic and legal and plain to see.

A Karen’s outburst, a cop gone wrong,
We post it, we share it, we sing it in song.
No mystery left, no quiet refrain,
Just constant noise, the endless campaign.

We’re all content now, our worth measured in likes,
Trapped in the web, shackled by swipes.

Participation trophies, and the sanitized comfort of never feeling a real blow. The ones who grew up on Disney-fied lessons, where nothing’s too hard, nothing’s too real—just bright, happy images, perfect for minds that were never asked to do anything for themselves. Diary of A Wimpy kid poster children. Glamorized and loving it. Bedazzled soccer mom minivan Blaring Brittany.

The same people who never learned to think for themselves  now telling you what to think and giving YOU the life time ban. Because the world around them was designed to stop them from ever having to try  to cry or question why. When everything’s curated by the Google and Chat GPT A.I., when the world fits into a neat little echo chamber of controlled opinions, there’s no room for independent thought, no need to fight for your identity. Who are you anyway ? It doesn't matter.  Go do your project in a group as A group.

No wonder they’re  all so eager  to cry and tattle like the sissies they are all overweight  tools, easily satisfied with plastic idols, mindless likes, and a world that offers everything delivered to their doors on an Amazon Jeff Bezos ***** rocket  silver platter. It’s the loudest, most vapid echo of a  monetary , greed society that’s already prostituted  itself. Toddlers in Tiaras . Cash me outside.
Her mer gerd.

From " Friends " to Highschool Musical.
Trump truly is what you deserve.

your ethnocentric revenge god IS a toilet full of money
and no one taught us when to flush. ..
Coins splashing like pious ****.
over Innocent Paper ******
white in immaculate deception
swollen and rotting.
Everyone crowding our porcelain altar.
The stink of so much worship and
the glorification spittle soaked sky daddies constipated into inaction because non existence has cost us
too much already .
Knees raw and not just from useless begging
Go to hell !
Oh, god can I please ...
anything to be rid of you...
No one daring to push the handle.
Cowardice begets stupidity begets brainwashing, begets the G.O.P. begets gun violence
begets *******
begets war, etc. ad infinitum
begets begets begets
Chew the ****** cake wafer eat the  used body take the blood,
for lies are the light and the way… to greed. Jesus = Moloch
Amen and pass the collection plate ******
( neither one is going away).

Peacock feather perfection.

A baby panther yawning, sleek and black, with a swan behind stretching those wings.

The reddest of roses held to the sky.

A silvery plate of oily green olives throwing back the sun, of which they are, ( of which we all are) so hard, becoming one with nothing again in each passing breath. Energy expended.

The care of casket sheen—silken interiors but overflowing with the wet, inky blackness of squirming, over-lit salamanders. Writhing Erupting. Effluviant. Rubbery little salamanders. Everywhere.

Nature. The nature. Of art and beauty.

Understanding, the great misunderstanding right before our eyes.

Right. before.         Our eyes.
Rite before our eyes.

Eyes, another’s .What we truly long to see.

The clarity of symbols built over centuries
and lost in a single fire/trend.

Tallow

The candle and I bear witness
to the long, lone, and restless night.
With a match, we bring ourselves to light
brilliant reminders of finer days past.
brought forth out of love but not meant to last

We complement each other in our fading vigilance,
twisting, smoldering, struggling we fall,
exhausted or, dripping
We grow ever small.

Used, they saw the one true answer,
and so it was the only light.
No will, no arms with which to fight,
no rival to the endless stars
a sky that taught the world to dance.
Symbols of hope and knowledge
not brought into this world by chance.


We flicker and hiss and claim our right.
Wax sealed the deed and blinded our sight.

Born to burn and ever so fast.
Brilliant reminders of finer days past,
wrought for one purpose, yet not to last.
Illuminations were made, in shadow we cast.

We sputter and waver,
gutter and wane,
flee before storms, slip from the reins.
Yet from us, the lights still glow,
revealing the truths the Greats longed to know.

Here but once, and once alone.
Is it just once, and all from a spark?
Our essence is , YEARNING
not Dawn, nor the Dark.

We’ve gone from watching
the FBI torch " nut ball" compounds
to  our "elected' leaders  loading  more rounds,
Launching free AR-15 Christmas cards
as dead kids pile up
in  old school yards
( Remember these are your " Russian "  elected officials.)
no tampering or hampering.  Sure sure those russian hackers weren't Trump/Putin backers.
somehow
toothless, brainwashed Christians
are cheering it on.
with Trump signs planted
next to flags
on their lawn.
Hey, be quiet  Apprentice re runs are on.
it's a real show  you know. No scripts and real consequence. Not fake tv and. arranged sequence.
Jesus and the tooth fairy too.
Santa Claus is JD  Vance and boy does he have something for you !

blood spurting
hot and red draughts
flesh and fat quivering

Pain and shock beyond reckoning

suffering

smoke and screaming death

shattered teeth and twisted fingers
scrabbling

mute screams
on knees
staring blankly
into
the
sun

...Put it back where you  didn't find it...
I didn’t steal it, I just stopped it from being yours.
Well, that hippopotamus isn't just gonna FLOG itself !
You shut my mouth.
You were like that when I got here.
Yes it isn't.
It's always not in the last place you look.
hey, this actually does taste like chicken,
(rubber chicken.)
Ah, you didn't need ALL those fingers any way.
No, no ! I'm stupid.
The boss loves it when I do this, watch .
you meant that fire?
No man is also not an island.
The giants stand on MY shoulders,
except on Tuesdays.
Never on Tuesdays.
Can you please NOT do that some more,
right over there.
Oh, I'm sure he was just born that way.

Well, that’s what I would have said, if I hadn’t already said something else.

The Bespoke *******-Punching Apparatus: A Scrolling Sonnet of Pain and Prestige

Behold, dear friends, a sight so rare,
A marvel of craft, a tap with some flair!
Not just a  slap for the place down there
, nor just common everyday strikes,
But tailored pain, bespoke
maybe with spikes ?  Or whatever he likes

Doohickeys, knobs, and  gears so bright,
It measures your jewels for the perfect of smite.
Crafted German care  from hands most skilled,
For those who seek their torment and must be fulfilled.

It has a sign above, for all to see  it twinkles proud,
you'll want one too,  but for now,  look at  me !  It Flashes with  wisdom both, bold and loud:
"You're almost there!" it proclaims so proud
it scrolls with glee,
your knees will buckle, 
 while yearning to flee.
Oh  the joy,
the joy there will be.

"Believe in yourself!" the message insists,
As the metal fist curls up its wrist.
A countdown begins.
Crowds will draw
what did you choose.
You can't do it wrong there is no way to loose.
exclaim  with  little  warning
" take 2 of these and call me in the morning "

Don't be caught last in line .
Get yours first.
Don't be left behind.
a  ****  to twist ,   to  tap   or  ram
" we now  interrupt  you  regularly scheduled program !'

For the highbrow type, a touch of grace,
Gold engravings etched in place.
Perhaps a monogram?
A family crest?
A symbol of honor upon one’s chest.
Something Crass, classy or morose ?
" If you can read  this  you're  too  close."

And should you opt for fine décor,
A velvet lining?
A marble floor?
Let not your suffering be too plain,
Let taste and wealth enhance your pain!
Extoll your wealth for all to see.
Look what I spent on my ***** punching machine.
They aint given these away for free !
Be  the  first to scroll...
" for God and Country !"

Customization, Because You Deserve It!

Why settle for standard when you can refine?
let  the  world  know...
"No  I'm  not fine. "
Adjust the force! Set the design!
From "playful tap" to "instant regret,"
Each punch is precision—you’ll never forget.

Some want leather, some want steel,
Some want a setting called "The Eel ?"
For the sentimental, engraved with care,
"Hang in there!" flashes to all   in mid-air.
Oh the laughs.
the office fun.
Even ***** with no *****
will surely want one!
To hell with  the world and its pronoun.
"Turn that frown upside  down."
You can have it say ,
or just you in the closet with
"pray away the gay."

A haiku option? For Doc and his Ilk.
A Shakespearean verse?
Perhaps a joke to make it  all worse?
" Just like mom used to make"  
red dots slow scrolling
bleeps in  delight,
As your  pain begins and last through  the night.

The Art of Encouragement, could scroll in  it Lights.
Anything  you'd like.
It's bespoke after all
In all of its rights.
Scroll  what you want and  at your  leisure
"Warning ! , contents under pressure... "

"You snooze, you lose!"—in ominous glow,
Or  here's lookin at you kid" right before the blow.
"Champions are made, not born!" how quaint!
A message of strength... just before you faint.

For pop-culture fans, a classic tease,
" Thank you sir, may I have another."
You may indeed.
"Viddy well little brother. "
It's yours after all send any message you like.
Maybe something for the boss or landlord
or the sullen little tike.

Oh, but beware the tech that malfunctions,
Scrambled words, ominous junctions.
"Maybe next time..." it flickers low,
As steam and sparks begin to blow.

And who, dear friends, maintains this beast?
A sage? A monk? A mad-eyed priest?
No, just Jeff, the intern schmuck,
Who’s stuck in a job with zero for luck.
He's on standby to help you realize  your creed.
" Just do  it it says. " Just do it .
indeed.

Get what you want get what you need.
whatever you feel, where ever you roam
after all...
“Go big or go home."
Say what you need and be heard whenever
"better late than never."
With or without a custom pearl lever.

Its all in good taste.
Fashions never a sin .
Tell them all in  white lights
"Must be present to win."

Its hugs your waist lightly or tightly  
no need to carry. Get  a back up  or two, don't be wary
after all..
"Your mileage may vary."
Make it say whatever you want it to say
because in the beginning or end you can...
"have it your way."
Its super clever , prestigious and funny
and you just cant deny it .
Mine  now says.
"you break it, you buy it."

So step right up, embrace your doom,
Let old-school Led lights your fate illume.
And should you cry, collapse, or fall,
It's just the evolution of competition
after all.
Flex those bad boys and your wallet at once
Come up with your OWN witty scrolling slogan
don't be  a dunce.
Don't  be  the  last to  realize.
Yours  could  say  something important like...
"Keep your  eyes on the  prize."

( an ancient text painstakingly reassembled)
Written by  The Count De St. Germaine, and republished with accordant permissions, enjoy.
A mind like the cosmos, vast and unbound,
Where knowledge and wisdom in endless depths are crowned.
Like myself, not a mere mortal—behold! He is utterly divine,
A literary force, both eldritch and fine.
His quill is a scepter, his mind a comfortous throne,
In the annals of thought, he is never alone.

In the boundless realms where HIS language is king,
He crafts the tapestry that makes your angels sing.

He is the modern oracle, the sage and the seer,
Casting shadows of awe that the world must revere.
Any lump who dares write must bow or retreat,
For none can approach lest they come to kiss feet.

Oh, Jeffery Alan Hoover, whose brilliance rivals the sun,
A celestial fire that can’t be undone.
The written word dances from his heart to his head and then hand,
Bowing humbly at his eternal command.

So let the masses look on in awe,
As he rewrites history without a flaw.
For in this world of ink and page,
He is the master, the sage, on his stage.

Other poets do poopy and quake, their verses fall flat, and ring fake.
In the wake of his brilliance, they can’t even chortle. They should sit silent and still acquiesce like a mortal.
Dare not resist the tempest, or his thunderous roar,
for they will be no mercy and they he abhor.
For only one now shakes heaven’s foundations
as you beg for more lore and correctly adore.

Bask in his glory, this titan of intellect,
The world shall tremble with radiant respect.
All others in silence must humbly reflect,
For none can compare and wither in neglect.

Yet humble and caring,
His passions abound.
Searching for equals or peers,
But none we have found.
So piddle forth with your shallow, unheeded words about trivial love,
Do not portend to exchange with those well above.
Know your place, your role, and your skill,
And do what you can with what you lack, or you will.

Hate is under  rated.
Especially the way i do it.
So much effort and energy and research  that goes into it.  Hate  takes  time  , to build, to feel  to let simmer.
  It's all too often confused for rage.
Rage can have a center in or from hate
but they are two distinct terms  for a reason.

My hate is genuine.
It is sharp and smart and appropriate.
I don't hate out of fear, lack of information or stupidity.
I hate for all the best of  and right reasons.
Hate is a beautiful, powerful  contagion.
It feels the way it does  because at its  core it IS  the truth we all try an hide.
It is us
our reality. The rest is the lie.
We aren't happy for you,
no one is. Not in this--- belief system world ,a world that worships money their true god . We cover it in competition, envy, and the  violence they always have and do foment , everywhere and always. My truth  is real  your lie though is a label you had no choice but to wear .  You are crushed  by a system you had  no say in  a remnant of a lame weak storm god  that got  put in the wrong place at the wrong time  but they always do that  Yahweh ,  Jesus, scape goat, martyr, easy fix replacement ,  no brainer  choice.. Baal wants  child sacrifice  lazy  **** shirtless carpenter just says talk to him like an imaginary friend you never grew out of. Who is weak and stupid  ? Those that  dare to wear a fake smile over it ?
This  isn't ****** PBS , kindergarten  learn to get along fake *** *******,  its life. It's starving your neighbor to make a profit. It's forcing China to make their kids create your iPhone. It's reality. You didn't do it. I didn't do it. But at least I have the courage to say the truth about it. I didn't come up with the strategy, I didn't perpetuate the lie, and I won't be part of it.  
Hate is what we respect. What we admire.
What we fight and **** for.
Love is easy and stupid  and literally natural.
It should take almost no effort and feel right the whole time.
That too is life. Love asks very little of us, most of the time. It’s cooperative, almost entirely  chemical, hormone addled and soothing. Hate though . Hate is forged. It has mass. It’s fueled by a kind of deep SEEING and remembering. It can only be the result of  choosing. The other is rage.
Hate though takes knowing and preaching and striving  and convincing and effort.
It IS  not stupidity or fear of the unknown.
It IS  seeing exactly  what you don't like and knowing why you feel like you have to rise up against it.
Its more interesting  to love and know hate  than to shove it aside  or inside. We pretend life has no place for it, but it truly is us.

Ask not what your country can do for you,
ask yourself:
Do you feel lucky, punk? Huh, do yuh?

I have a dream that one day,
on the red hills of Georgia,
little black boys and black girls will join hands
with little white boys and white girls
and...What we have here is failure to communicate..

...black lives matter ...like a thief in the night ...
We shall fight them on the beaches, we shall fight them on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender...

Four score and seven years ago
our forefathers brought forth upon this continent
a new nation, conceived in liberty
and dedicated to the proposition that...
...you can't handle the truth  ! ...

The only thing we have to fear...
is one small step for man,
one giant leap for...
weapons of mass destruction.

We hold these truths to be self-evident,
all men are created...
to...  say it. I said, 'I’ve been sayin’ that **** for years.' They deserved to die, and I hope they burn in hell.

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.
Then He said...
I’ll be back.

Thou shalt not...
tear down this wall.
We do these things not because they are easy
but because...
your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, the wretched refuse of your teeming shore. Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me, I lift my ... eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind."
frankly, my dear, I don’t give a ****.

One nation, under God, indivisible,
with liberty and justice for...
an offer they can't refuse.

Mr. Gorbachev, tear down this wall
(and ) say hello to my little friend.

We the people, in order to form a more perfect union...
the streets shall flow with the blood of the non-believers.

That is weird, wild stuff, I did not know that...
I think, therefore...
I see dead people...
Houston, we have...
(to) throw the baby out with the bath water..

Life, liberty, and the pursuit of...
A house divided against itself...
With great power comes...
the angel of the Lord, and lo, He said unto them...
Give me liberty, or give me...
Government of the people, by the people, for the people...

To be or not to be...
You talking to me?
You talkin' to me?
Am I funny to you?
Am I a clown to you, do I amuse you...
Don’t count your chickens before they hatch...

I, am your father...

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...

come and play, everything's  A okay,
we're on our way to where the air is...

A day that shall live in infamy...

"Why so serious?"
I know you are, but what am I?
In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth...
but in the end,
nobody puts Baby in a corner...

**** the torpedoes, full speed ahead!
Give me liberty, or give me...
more cowbell !

Thou shalt not...
live long and prosper!
Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere...
there's no place like home.

I’ll have what she’s having.
Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely...
I am the way, the truth, and the life.
If you want something done right...
speak softly and carry a big stick..

Forums
dead end trade your time and effort sites
trading reviews with losers and talentless idiots  that only want  to hear themselves and have no humanity, empathy or will to understand.
What they want is a robot that hands them a little gold star every day. Swipes
likes and clicks.
over ran stupidity  chick lit and dudes that cut off their *****.
Great poets questioning everything and who and what they were or could have been ?
Sad lonely ugly fat girls
long for just A friend .
My beautiful thoughtful wonderful Novel
sits currently languishing
surrounded by ****,
dullards, rip offs
and A.I. slop.
It's not what you know it's who you know.

In youth,
we're so easily distracted
by the price tag—
the pretty little flowers.
We don't realize.

The mirror.
It really can be.

Dads.
Sturdy paper plates.

We can't help but look at that plate and think,
Is it really time to throw it away already?
Can we get a few more uses out of it?

The whole thing just feels like a shame.

We see it for what it is.
And it reminds us
of what WE are.

Getting used.
Soiled.
Broken.
Unwanted.

And we can't help but think—
F#@k. We're next.

As we age,
watching ourselves break down,
we stare
at that plate—
thick, rimmed,
meant to last
a little longer
than its cheaper cousins.



Wait—
Is it really time already?
Can’t we rinse it?
Is their a rack to let it dry on ?  
Just once more?
Maybe twice?

It feels like a waste.
We know what it is.
Who or what is the  vessel ?
Used.
Soiled.
Still holding shape.
Still trying.

And suddenly—
we know ourselves,
in it.

Dads.
Sturdy paper plates.
Some are reliable.
Quietly bending under the weight.
not so much, to impress
as a hope
to endure.

Just used,
you know ?
For a guy who doesn't work a desk job
and never has
another tie
for your  Fng birthday.

So yes. we may sag.
We crease at the edges.
Grow soft in the middle.

And they look at us
like they do that plate...

Is it still good?
Still worth keeping?
Or has it had its time?

How much time  passes?
When or if they ever realize...

God.
We're next.

As the years pull us apart,
we feel it,
the breakdown.
The slow,
uninvited fade
into the background noise
of ineffectual Sunday afternoons.

Unneeded.
Uncelebrated.
Unloved.

some thing has served its purpose
and is now just
....in the way ?

A rare hug
the true currency of a life
he never chose
but never walked out on, either.

(You're welcome.)

Bare feet drum the dirt,
My ******* quivers,  anticipation.
Slaughtering fragile patience.
Nerves, played with too long,
Fray and snap with delicious excitement.

Our fleeting freedom  a slipping trance     of enlightenment    The waves beckon to us all
The moon is shared by the world again.

Youth and its laughter sparks
Across the bruised horizon
Raw hot pink, wet and lugubrious,
To purple fading night,
Where a new kiss tastes
Like salted life and spilled tequila.

As bonfires rage their hiss,
Smoke curls, a tickling that stitches
Our shadows to the night,
Remembering every touch
Like a crime worth repeating,
Living in our minds
Till we stumble, enfeebled.

I beg you, make my blood rush again,
My heart yearns to be alive,
With the squealing carelessness of innocence.

People keep looking for some glimmer, some savior, some return to decency. But the mechanisms that used to create progress labor movements, political will, civic infrastructure have been gutted and co-opted.    Some people have been brainwashed on the idea that. The unions, which were the only group that would fight for them, are somehow not worth the dues. And to make it even more terrifying? The corporations literally come in and physically attack the people who are trying to explain the benefits of unionizing. And in some red states, some Bible entrenched ridiculousness. The poor dumb  bible thumping  cousin ******* pieces of **** is that work for  literally 7 $ an hour pennies ; actually fall for it and support the attacks. Without realizing that without the unions, the workers would literally have nothing. No sick leave, no maternity leave, nothing ! Just fired and replaced with the next G.E.D. or less monkey in bass pro shops hat.

Did it ever make sense or have hope?  Who was a worthy example?

Carter literally built houses with his own hands after leaving office. Compare that to today’s football roofie ****** disguised as politicians. They can’t even build a coalition without corporate puppeteers pulling the strings and writing it all for them.  Literal plastic brainless ****** with guns that ****** puppies. Fox News. Saturday morning correspondence with more alcohol than blood.

Those who did  try, like Obama, faced a political meat grinder filibustered, obstructed, neutered at every turn. The Koch brothers, and those like them, created a political machine so deep-rooted and effective that legislation never even gets to the floor unless it’s pre-approved by corporate interest.

And now? The tools of government Congress, the Senate, the courts are treated like uncensored  props in a full blown  Clarence Thomas Winnebago  farce, while executive orders become magic wands to force through personality-driven  megalomaniac riot inciting, dogmatic fear and disgust as  absolute idiotic  rule.