What can I say in this moment?
Its really not like there are any words
That could make a difference now!
It not like there is anything I can do
To change the facts
The only one who can do something
IS YOU
so why don't you?
Why do you stand there
waiting for me
You know I am chained
you know that I m being held back
and you it clearly
Why are you letting someone else
look for the keys
why aren't you the one doing it
You know where they are
you know I belong to you
you made me
but he's the one that's looking
he's the one running,
and you?
why are you just standing there
I cant run to you
life I used to when I was learning how to walk
I can't defy the laws of a mother
like I used to when you both were together
and I admit I like him
I love him
he earned ever second
every smile
every inch of depth of my love
but I haven't given him all of it
because im saving a small piece for you
Please don't make me regret the time
I lost with him
trying to look for you!
He's here,
he has always been!
Where are you?
Where have you been?

I am not blind
I can see clearly
I can watch
I am capable of fighting back.

I see how the storm comes
I can see how it leave
Taking in its path
everything I have done

Its going further
But at the distance i can still see
My home in its wings
My most loved possessions

I can see as the wind helps
To make everything worst for me
It tries to make me cry
But I wont dare to fall

I know my weaknesses
And I must learn to control them
I know my flaws
And I must learn to fix them

No matter how much the wind blows
I won't fall
I wont kneel
I wont move
I wont dare to cry

I can do it
I have the strength
But as I get weaker
The wind gets stronger
I wont fall

I can see now how hard it is
To stand up alone
against a storm
Trying to understand
What I did to deserve this

I am not blind
I can see the storm
I can feel the pain
I can't stop this form getting worst
But I can Hope

Hope... Hope... Hope...
It is the last thing that dies
It cant fix this
But it can help me stand up
There is nothing that makes it forever
All it takes is for me
to make for a longer time than the storm

I am not alone
I have my strength
I have my heart still beating
I have my legs still moving
I have my hand still fighting
I have my lips still talking
I have my mind still thinking
I am not alone.
I still have my hope wanting to win over the storm
*Hope... HOpe... HOPe... HOPE... *

I can win
because I have
The power
The faith
The love
The capability!!!

I am afraid
I am exited
I am wounded
I am healed
I am new
I am different
I am many things
One of them IS NOT
DEFEATED
Yes I've lost
but I have won
the experience
The bravery of the fear
The fun of the excitement
The lesson of the wounds
The hope of the healing
The discoveries of the new
The greatness of differences
But you can choose to see it this way
Or see the negative...

She is clothed with majesty
She walks on water, she is gentle
She is sensitive and delicate to touch
She is a woman, what did you expect?
From a woman

When you saw her cry, it made sense,
Because she was sensitive
When she washed the dishes, you thought
“That’s her place!”
When she stood up and said something thoughtful
You cleaned your ears to make sure you heard right

She is a delicate woman, a sensitive one
Aren’t all women? Aren’t all human beings?
Is everyone just a little delicate and sensitive?
No! Men are strong and driven and ‘manly’.

So when a woman was strong and driven,
She was ‘manly’, wasn’t she?
When a woman chose school over getting married,
And having kids,
She wasn’t woman enough! Was she?

She hears the voices, she felt ashamed,
So she became the woman you said she should be
But when her little girl asked?
She did not know what to say!

You are clothed with majesty,
You walk on water, you are gentle
You are sensitive and delicate to touch
You are a woman.

And when her little girl asked about school,
She remembered, someone told her
“Your place is at home with the kids, waiting
Waiting for your husband, not at school”

You are a woman, embrace it
You are intelligent, so use that
You are a woman, you do whatever you want to do
Go to school, go to college, graduate, and be successful

He can wait, kids can wait,
Staying at home doesn’t have to be your only choice!

Men are like shoes
You have to learn what pair to choose
The pretty ones will be in the front row
The front row is always seen first
And yes the shoes look marvelously perfect

But before you buy those shoes
TRY THEM ON
Because some shoes can cause pain
Can hurt, and leave mark behind
They will leave you torn apart
They will look perfect but feel so unpleasing

Sometimes we forget that the shoes in the back, exist
We choose the ones that are put in front of us
And we get lost in the same idea of nothingness
Sometimes those pretty shoes don't fit
but we keep them because our heart desires them

But the shoes that truly fit us are in the back,
the ones that are not as brilliant to the eye
yet, they have the notion to make us feel better

We have to decide whether we keep wearing the same shoes
Keep hurting ourselves
Or instead look for that pair that will make us feel new and better/.

There is a limit to what I can do
There is a moment where I have to stop
There are barriers I can't cross
And there is a short time I can spend
On someone who is not worth the time.

She did not know what was going on
She was confused about the path she would take
Did she have to make the decision alone?
She has heard that she didn't but where was that other decision-maker
She gave everything she had and expected nothing and gained nothing

She did not know what was going on
Was she really falling in love or just desperate
Had she really been so blind was she finally seeing clearly
Had she really just lowed herself for an illusion

She did not know what was going on
How could she not realize
the is so young, so ignorant to love
She had so much ahead of her
and many more problems

She did not know what was going on
Yet that was no excuse to put on the platter
Yet she had much better things to do
A guy was no match for the worries in her mind
She had a mother brothers fathers* and yet her mind,
was only on him

She did not know what was going on
yet she did
she knew why she cared so much
she knew why she was so attached to something so pathetic
It was not love, or desperation, or even lust
it was fear

She did not know what was going on
She was afraid that she would never really understand love
She was afraid that she would never be loved
she was afraid that she would end up alone
So she fell for the trick of love
She fell for a fantasy

She pretended she had to make a decision all by herself
when she always knew that God was the answer...

I took me time to realize
that in these battles I'm fighting,
I am not alone
It is hard to imagine
that these struggles are by grace
I can't help by wonder
where all of this came from
and how it got to me

I want to know if you will come back
I do not want to wait for you if
you don't plan on coming back
I don't want to risk something for nothing
I love you, I miss you, I'm here for you
But if you are not feeling it for me
then what can we make out of this

A Relashionship is of two people not one
I need you, I can't do it by-myself
All i want to know, is
Should I wait for you?
Or are you not planning to come back to me?

A silly dream is one
Where you love me
Where we are together
Where there is happiness
Where everything is in our favor

A silly dream is us together
Because I love you but
You don't love me back
Loves needs of two not one

I feel asleep
I dreamed beutiful dreams

Dreams never dreamed before
Dreams hiden in the background
Dreams that opened my eyes
Dreams that helped me survive

I saw the ocean blue
I saw the blue sky
I saw the charming sun
I saw the colorful garden

I felt joy for freedom
I felt joy for happiness
I felt joy for opportunities
I felt joy to be alive

I fell asleep

With the fright of waking up
With the joy of felling life
With the fright of loosing everything
With the joy to know it hapened

Even if it was only because i was asleep.

Are you tired?
-of course I'm tired-
It was only 3 laps around
-I am not tired for that
Then what are you tired about
-This, the constant reminder-
Thats who you are
-No, thats who they want me to be-
I thought it was your Idol
-It was, before it took of his mask-
Who is he now?
-He is the logo covering up the reality of the actual motto-
-It is a lie, and this uniform is a bigger lie, the coverup of the truth-
Just that, a lie and what hides our true means

Such a powerful thing that can control the mind of so many,
Who to vote for, who to see, who to be, who to follow
Just all about what they might
Will they like my shirt,
will they think I'm dum
Will they see me different from now on
How to impress them
It used to be about who i wanted to be
And now it is about who they think will fit me best
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I used to believe in the fairy tales my mother told me at night
Cinderrella, The beauty and the best, sleeping beauty and snow white
To wake up with the kiss of true love
to the sight of those blue eyes
that could bring light in the darkness
/
Now I see that its not about the prince, its about do we look nice together
Does him look attractive for me
Is he rich
Does he have a nioce car
What does he work at
Did he go to colldge
Why dont you just get to know him
I used to think
Now its all about they know him, so i must know him without talking to him
Getting married when we havent even said a word
just becasue they thought it was meant to be

I decided to vote
But i cant becasue im only 15
That skirt is too low,

I wonder what el amor is.
Maybe in English it has a different meaning
Maybe I have discovered the wrong sentimiento
And that is why I feel that way
Maybe I can’t describe because no es verdad
Or maybe I just not completely real

I wonder if there is someone out there who feels what I feel
But my definition of this sentimiento is not exactly like Cinderella’s
My definition is completely out of this world according to all the novelas I’ve watched.
I just figure out that
Love belongs in fairy tales that are capable of selling perfect ending to a corruptible public
It belong in the darkness of a lost soul in a turbulent desafio

Nowhere else, but reality, is love seen as it really is
El amor
It’s a powerful feeling and such a strong choice of words when they are said to the wrong people
TE AMO
Maybe in español it means
Only when you have dinero
And in English it means
Only when you have a good reputacion

Love can really set limits for something that can cross the barrier in a lover’s mouth
Isn’t that why he proposed marriage to her when she was perfecta looking to the eyes
But as soon as the storm came
And blew away her beauty like little crystals of sugar blowing in the air
He left

Maybe el amor is only said to the people you wished you loved
And not to those that in realidad importan
Maybe it was meant so that cats and dogs don’t fall in love
Or maybe Not, because
Romeo fell in love with Juliet then died
So if I fall in love with my enemy my destiny is death

Then why is love so poderoso
Why can it make one person run away from her family?
And the other commit suicide?
And why can it make one die floating away?
And the other living up to the sight of Titanic?
Why does it make a wish hecho por the heart be a completa fake?

I’ll tell you why!

Because nowadays
It is more importante to love a bag of drugs than a child
Es mas importante to love a dream than a family
I fell in love with reality that was my crime
Because I decided to follow my heart not my eyes
To follow my brain than to follow cigarettes or alchol

Now I am seen as a crazy bi…sitor from outer space
And a brain eating zombie
Not exactly what I thought love would be
Pero that es el love que me ha puesto esta society…
This is the some type of amor
I never thought existia…

Im writing a story about you
Im trying to see what is real
And what is not
Im trying to find
A new pathway
That leads me to you
It might be hard
But I admit, That i will try
And go ahead
I demand A little respect
For the ones that are already there
It is hard
TO see me suceed
But I know Someday
Ill be there too
I will give it all a chance
TO never stop and never let go
I wont loose this race again
Because this time, You are on the other side
Other side
Other side
And I know I cant replace
The memories and the cries
But I can make new themes to add a smile
to the feast
Here today gone tomorrow
I will make it just for you
Here today Gone tomorrow
And I will make to be with you.

There are things I have done
There are things I have provoked
There are things I have said
There are things I have thought

Things I have done

I have been selfish
I have been mad
I have done mistakes
I have done new things

I have done bad
I have done good
I have been wrong
I have been right

Things I have said

I have said lies
I have said truth
I have said hope
I have said no

I have said hello
I have said goodbie
I have said litsen
I have said do not listen

I have said life
I have said death
I have spoken
I have said what I had to say

Que dificil ha sido verte haci
Que dificil ha sido no poder ayudarte
no entiendo tu comportamiento
pero tampoco juzgo lo que haces.
Yo se que las cosas son dificiles para ti
Pero quien no ha sufrido tanto o mas que tu
Si tan solo me pudieras voltear a ver
Saber que necesito verte fuerte
Por favor entiende que las cosas no se pueden hacer asi
Los erores que se cometen hoy,
pueden volver a afectarte en el future
Cuanto tiempo fue,
el tu y yo sufrimos por el separamiento
porque quieres que alguien mas pase por lo mismo
tu deverias saber el dolor tu y yo,
tuvimos que sufrir.
Te pido que pongas en mi lugar
Te quiero y te respeto pero es por eso que
tengo que decirte que estas hacienda las cosas mal
Dios te llamo
para ser salvado
y no es justo que tu dejes eso por;
2 segundos de mentiras!!!!

Una cancion titulada; amor frio tibio...
Soplaba el viento, mire al cielo,
vi tu rostro sonriendome
Se acerca el tiempo,
segui el camino y me perdi.
Soplaba el viento,
me jalo y me derreti en tu bondad
Encontre camino
el camino alfin
Volvi a mirar al cielo
Vi tu rostro sonriendome
Senti una brisa fria y tibia
Al misma vez,
En un istante el mundo cambio
Era tu calor
Era tu amor
Eras tu mi señor
Fueron tus manos las caricias que senti
Y sin persarlo en tus brazos me acoste
Sus labios sobre mis mejillas
Besandome con un padre a su hija
Con amor, sin juzgar,
Con una ternura,
en al cual mi corazon no lo sostubo
y mis ojos sintiron lagrimas bajar
solo al sentir tu amor
tan grande que su vida por mi en la cruz!!!

Como decirte que me has lastimado, si eso significa que te lastimaría
Como aclarar tus dudas si aclararlas es que sufras la verdad
Como asercarme a ti con amor si se que te podria lastimar

Dime, acaso fui yo quien cambio?
Fui you la que se alejo de la verdad primero?
Fueron mis palabras las que lastimaron mas?
Fue La fuerza de mi amor la que hizo tanto daño?

Yo solo quería escucharte decir un te quiero aunque fuese mentira
Solo quería tener el palpitar de tu corazón conjunto al mio
Solo tenía la esperanza de que por una vez tu tomaras mi mano
Yo solo quería sentir que tenía el respaldo de alguien....

Tenía muchos deseos de que me sostubieras en tus brazos
De que por un momento todo pareciera solo una pesadilla
Quería porbun instante llevarme yo la victoria , aunque hiciera trampa
Quería tenerte como un amigo,un aliado, un hermano

Me canse de que quisieras ser un padre, sabes ya tengo bastantantes de esos
Uno se dio por vencido y nunca intento ser parte de mi vida
Otro estuvo allí y cobro un precio demasiado caro que tuve que pagar
Si quieres ser un padre para mi tienes que lastimarme, hacerme sentir que valgo la pena y luego darte la vuelta

Las cosas cambian
La vida toma joros inesperdados,
Nosotros le segimos o nos quedamos
Pero pase lo que pase nunca dejes de luchar!!!

I looked up to the sky and saw the stars
Each had a different glow
Each had its special way
And unexplainably:
Each had something that made it different
but sometimes you can only se that
through a microscope
When you look at it straight from the naked eye:
they all look the same way
And to the ignorant eye
they all look like simple dots
To me, even with the naked eye:
they look like sparkles
like diamonds in the sky
and sometimes I choose to hope
and to decide for my self
that they belong to me...
Each and everyone of those stars
Make me feel like something that matters
like an escape from reality
to a world where I'm in the sky
My name is Estrella Which means Star
And I fell like I belong there
sharing the huge sky with other stars
with other sparkles and diamonds
With other great people who have fought
for years, or months, or weeks, or even days.
but fighters, cuz in the end
everyone had their battles
and everyone belongs in their own world
of happiness and dreams
And no one is an exception
to a space with the stars...

What it feels like when you cant run as fast as the others
When you can listen as well as the others
When you cant read as good as the others
When you feel like you are not as good as the others.
But there are people who have lost their privilege to even walk,
and they have finished their race
People who cant hear anything at all but they know how to understand
Some who cant see at all to read, but they try to find themselves a way
They have a smaller chance than us,
We have an advantage to them
Yet they have been in better places than us
We needed faith, something they had and we didn't.
Trust in someone stronger than us.
All we needed was to put who we were in the power of God in order to succeed
Some people go down and a person gets them back up,
But with that, another person as strong can turn them back down
But if its God who pick the person up, then no man as strong as it is can throw him below.

I guess it's over,
I guess now its completely over.
Things have changed
Hearts have been broken
Tears have dropped
Lies have been said
Times have passed
People have gotten hurt
And now in tired
Of this story no ending
It happens everytime
Someone gets hurt
Someone e just walks away
someone gets left
And hurts me the most is that it's always me...

He approached me and said
I did it for her
I cried on the inside
Praying deep inside he will not notice

Maybe I did want him to
I wanted him to notice
The pain he causes every time he says
"It was for her"
It felt as if he reprehended me
Saying it was not for you

He said, she was his motivation
The reason for his heart yet to beat
Yet in my confusion
He has another
Can love do that?

Can love allow such a hypocrisy
Can love allow him to love one yet be with another
I would not know'
Or I cannot speak with experience

She loved him too
She cried when she found out
She was devastated and I comforted her
It hurt me like a blade piecing deep into my heart
But I stood strong for her

It hurt to know that he loved her
Was with another and I
I was alone

It hurt to have to stand strong
While seeing here cry
While I pretended not to care about him
I prefer to think it is not love
Because it would hurt more

But honestly I do not think it is
Because love is pure and he...
And she...
He said he would sacrifice everything for her
Yet pursued the like of another
And as they stood together

My friend cried and I died
I was jealous
Not only at the fact the he loved her
Or that her was with her
But that they could express their feelings openly

He asked,
You liked me, and I hurt you
Yet you do not hate me
And they said not to care
And I did not hurt them as much as I hurt you
Yet you don't hate me but they do
Why?

I said nothing, I said
It would hurt me more to hate you
But I really wanted to correct his sentence
He used in proper tense
He spoke in the past when it is really
The present!

I did not like you,
I never stopped liking you!

Never mind, I did like you
Now, I love you!

But what know I about love
I am only 17

How do you tell a friend that she has made a mistake

You can go back to THAT Ariel with time...
If that is really what you want

Sometimes people make mistakes on purpose
soemtimes we do things that helps us become the people,
we want to become.
Sometimes, we stand on the line and cross it anyway,
because it is easy and it feels okay...

But then, what lines are we not willing to cross.

You can go back to that Ariel with time...
If that is really what you want

As we look at your picture, from your past
I can feel the need and desperation you have to be that person
I sense the nerves and the regret you have because you are no longer that Ariel,

But... Is that what you really want
You swam, despite the wished of your father,
you swam and rescued the prince and fell in love

You kissed the prince, knowing your father would disprove,

you could be the Ariel that your father made you to be,
You could be go back to that Ariel,
but do you want to.

That Ariel, felt things different than you do now
That Ariel, knew nothing of this new experience
I hope you discover which Ariel you love more,

If you really wanted to, you could, with time,
Have the love and the warmth of that Ariel.
For now, you have to reflect and think,
which Ariel Makes you Happiest!

The one in the picture,
or the one confused about love.

I trust In God my one hero
He saved me
Took my place in the cross and
Made me free from chains
He gave me a second chance to be free

You carried me
You fed me
You were always there
You sacredness time, fun, freedom and a life time
For me

I know there is no one out there,
who would do what you have done for me
No one else would correct me the way you did
No on else would help me up every time i fall

There is no one else who would work,
24 hours a day for me
No one out there would know how to say no,
to what is not best from me.
I love you because you have done it possible for me to,
Actually be happy and be safe.

Thank you mom, for being my mom

I messed up really big
I realize my mistake wasn't
making the error,
My mistake was:
That I loved you

I gave you my heart
You promised to take care of it
With your life

You lied
I tried to forgive
But you broke me
And you killed me
Now thanks to you I am:
Stronger and cant trust anyone
with the heart you broke
And even now some crumbs
Are missing!

To day I woke up with the sound of an alarm
I am thankful for not waking up late
I woke up with all my body parts
Thank you God for that miracle
I woke up with My heart beating
and with the kiss of my mother
I thank for both.
I need them both to survive

Thank-you God because i felt you hard over me
Telling me to be strong
Giving me the strength to survive
You don't give me what I want
But you don't give me what I can't handle

Thank-you God for the miracle that is
Be able to use my computer,
My phone
My electricity.
Thank-you Because it is cold outside,
And i woke up in the warmth of my home.

Thank-you for giving me breakfast
And a coffee to help me be energetic
I thank-you for not letting me die by giving me
A jacket
A sweeter
A scarf
And gloves

Thank-you for not leaving me here alone in the cold
And lighting things up in the darkness

We are here to fight
For our future
We are here to work
For the better
We are here to try
Be being better people

We came here to follow hope
Day after day
Night after night
Sunshine to
Sunset
Seeing the sun
wanting to fly so high
Then the moon
dreaming of being that beautiful

We have so much to loose
And still we sacrifice
Our lives
Our dignity
Our future
All for the American Dream

One Dream
Hundreds of options
Thousands of possibilities
Millions in competition

All for one Dream
To be someone
And be worth something
All the dream

She walked home after a long day
Her day had been a battle field
It was only one block
from the place her bus dropped her of
To the place she called home
It had been a day where everything
seemed impossible
It had been a day where life
seemed unconquerable
She walked down the sidewalk with some doubts
Every step counted the words
the mistakes
the times she almost gave up
Every breath told a new story
of the times she made a fool of herself
Of the times she was made fun of
Every blink of an eye could count the times
she had been betrayed
Or when she was left alone
Or when she got hurt
But after every step
After every breath
After every blink of an eye
She smiled?
Was she THAT crazy
and coming to realize,
she wasn't counting the steps as words
She wasn't counting the breaths as stories
She wasn't counting the blinks as the times bad things would happen
She counted differently
In a way that she herself, didn't understand.
Each step marked each time she pushed him away
and he kept coming back
Every breath counted the times she almost stopped breathing
and how she resurrected
and every blink of an eye counted the times he was there
When she thought she was alone
She could have counted the nearby trip as the time
when she was about to make the worst mistake of her life
But she counted it as that day she got saved
And how she was washed In his blood
How she was baptized in the name of Jesus
She was saved from the words
from the stories
and from THOSE times.
She was his words
His stories
and HIS times...
She had him
HER SAVIOR AND KING
MY SAVIOR AND KING
YOUR SAVIOR AND KING
The one who loved her, you, and me like no one else ever will!  
And all it took was 5 minutes from the bus stop,
to her home.
That was the counting of a life time
That was all she needed to remember him
That was all she needed to count HER life time

I got tired
of this race
I couldn't just keep running
All i had left was hope
And that hope made me yell
"Hallelujah"
Because there is nothing grater than him.
He died to save me and he lived for my victory.
He prayed for my sinful nature
And he always stood up for me
He never gave up on who I am
He knew my capabilities and he used them
TO make me better
I have lost the strength in flesh
But in spirit, it is only the beginning
There is not much hope in the eyes
But i know that what is seen is not all that is possible
For a poor man sees the place he lives at
And he knows far from there that there is always more.
There is always someone higher than you,
And if you think you are the Highest look Again,
He is higher than you,
My Lord, My God,
He is higher than any other living soul
He can reach the highest of all distances.

He said he loved me
But never got a chance to prove
She proved she loved me
But never got a chance to say it
He left and then came back
But when he did he always ask me about me
She was always by my side
But she never really asked me about me
We are a family and sometimes it's hard to decide
I love both of them
But its hard to decide
One of them left
the last time I saw him
But he never came back
There is one man
He was the most special man of all
He was always there
He never left even when I pushed him away
He proved it and never stop saying it
When the sun came out
He told be "Here is your gift"
It was a new day
When the sun came down
He told me "Here is your peace"
And I rested all night long
My father left
But Jesus came
My mother never asked
But Jesus already knew
I cant judge him for what he did
Because I'm not perfect
I love them both and I wont choose
But I will do s pray
Equally for both
Not so that they ask for forgiveness
But so that they forgive themselves
So that they understand that he died
On a Cross
Crucified

She stuttered
But it was only for a moment
when she started telling her story
She was very afraid
but she wasn't always like that!
When i met her
she was confident
like no ther person could ever be
She told strong and unbreakable
She was someone who wasn't afraid
of saying what she taught
sure she didn't like to get rejected
but she always sai
Better to have tried and failed
than never to have tried at all
She is in inspiration even before
she told her story
and that moment was only 5 minutes of
who she was
She forgot to mention details
she didn't say any names
no relationships
who they were now.
Who would have imagined?
She saw so many things
a girl like her shouldn't see
But you would never know
on the contrary
you would think she was that way
for completely different reasons
She walked through the hallways
and even though she might feel afraid
she didn't care
she had mistakes
but she never let them control her
She told her story,
i heard it
She was afraid
and for the first time i noticed it
But i cant tell u her story
Because its her story,
She'll say when shes ready.
But you have to know how to listen,
cuz she's next to you
but even for you
it may be hard to listen
Eyes can be deceiving!

He walked up to his father
each step felt like a thousand miles he traveled
Each step got him closer to him
Each step was a victory against fear
against the doubts and question that would soon be answered
there he was. just one more step away

His father looked ahead at the distance
he was staring out in to the ocean
While a phone nearly touched his ears
The little boy felt his heart race faster than,
anything he had ever felt before
He was right there, right behind him

He was dropped of by a woman,
Was it his mother? it does not matter. not quite yet.
He wondered if his father was expecting him.
He wondered if his father wanted to see him.

He was standing there,
second after second felt like an eternity after another.
Each second that passed felt longer and longer every time.
He stretched out his hand.
He build up every bit of bravery he had and he did it.

He tapped his father to get his attention.
This moment in the little boy's mind played as if in slow motion.
He noticed the shiny black shoes on his fathers feet.
He noticed the dressing pants along with the matching suit.
And last, but simply not least,
He noticed the tie matching to the shirt.

His father slowly turned around.
He was looking out in the distance, thinking,
and calmly responding to the other line's question
He suddenly was distracted by his son.

He had a phone in hand, and he hung up,
He gave a small smile to the child
who wouldn't smile back unless he saw an Honest one.
His father smile yet once again,
then there it was forming on the boy's lips. a smile.
The little boy hugged him.

His father would never know how important
This moment would have been for the little boy
Because this was merely a dream still not come true,
of a little boy, a 21 year old,
in a cemetery staring down on the grave of his father.
Wishing his father would have hung up the phone
Instead of ignoring what could have been,
the beginning of a little boy's dream.  

Instead, the father
*Turned around abruptly, directed his finger
to tell the boy to wait a second,
and simply did not hang up the phone
He never hung up.

It is hard to know what it means to be free
It is hard to find freedom
It is hard to find someone
Who loves you for you

But when you do, it is hard to change
Is it worth it
Are you willing to change for them
Until what point would you go to
for them

Would you set them free if they were meant to be free
Would you be strong enough to take that
What would you do
How would you control it
Why is it so hard to do something like that for you?

Maybe its not hard to do it
Just to handle it
Especially if you are alone
Who would hold you up when you fall
Would someone be there for you
Why are they there
Do they want something from you?
Are they there for the friendship,
Or for something else?

There is no time to answer these questions
Make all those mistakes but
learn to live with them
You have a million more things you can do.
Don't answer any of these questions
Because there is no more time
Don't live with YOLO

YOLO is telling you to die young
by doing everything when you are young
There is no time for doubts
there is time for  mistakes though.

I hate you
I love you

I met you, I saw you ask a dangerous virus
I didn't believe were you even real
I thought you were some type of bad joke
I thought you were some kind of sad mistake
I met you, and i saw you *** less

I met you, i was disgusted, until i got to know you
I left this life for you
I loved you
I couldn't believe how much you meant to me
I couldn't believe that all that time you were there,
You were actually the only person who loved me.

I hated you, then I love you
A thin line separated us
A thin line got us together.

It takes time to understand
It takes tears to live by
It takes sacrifice to know how to value
It takes time to understand
That what you are fighting is bigger
And greater than what you thought it was
It takes tears to live by
Because tears are the healing,
And that are meant to be proud of
Not hidden.
It takes sacrifice to know how to value
Because when you love something or someone
You have to give up a big part of you,
to your love.
I thought I knew what this was
Until I met you
Time changed completely
2 seconds felt like an eternity without you
And an eternity was just 2 seconds with you
Tears flowed filling up oceans
Just with the thought of not having you
And I never thought how much I had
Until I saw myself sacrificing
Everything for you
You mean more to me than anything has
You sacrificed everything for me
So I will do the same for you!
Oh Lord, you are my king
And I will always love you

My life
My plans
My heart
It's all Yours, God
Take it away
My dreams
My fears
My family
My career
Take it away
Take it away
It's all Yours, God
So take it away
Take it away
It's You I wanna live for

Some people are born to be loved
Some people are born to love
Some people are meant to love life
I was born for all these.
I did not know this until i met some friends.

I am young next to them.
They are mature and self aware
They give me the security i need to feel loved
I loved them, because they have given me something far,
from what is and what could be

They have taught me that i can do many things
They have helped me be a better person
I have learned to be strong
I have seen what life is thanks to them

I owe them my smiles of every morning
Those are true friends and a true inspiration
for everything

You cant go around the worlds saying you are a leader and being a follower
You lead with your thoughts ideas and innovations
Not someone else's way...

Perfection does not exist, but trying to be better that who you are does exist
You can tell someone that they have a needle through their when
You have one yourself (Bible)

There are things that have to be done, so do them
There is no worst fail that the time you don't try
Figure out what needs to be done and do it before you think about a new task

Time is consuming and dedication is the support you need
You can't promise many dreams at once and then disappoint others
Think about what is more pleasing to you not to others who look at you

Love the game you play
And
Play the game you love

My teacher in 6th grade once said,
"Choose the job you love and you wont ever work a day in your life"
And that "History repeats its self"

I did not understand this until the time when i got hit by that reality!

The most important of all is to ask God for empowerment in all of these,
To achieve that goal that rests in your heart

I don't understand our society nowadays
Sometimes including myself.
We have right of speech,
but sometimes we are too afraid to speak up
The government has said we are free to speak
about anything we want and we will no be punished
not in legal ways
And if there are millions talking about hate
about drugs, alcohol, smoking and other addictions
than why are we so afraid to speak up! \
about the truth
about life
about our salvation
about the only and absolute truth!!!
GOD!!!!
Because we are ashamed?
Because we care about the opinion of the world?
Because we are afraid of rejection?
Well Jesus was not ashamed of me
when we died on the cross
And Jesus spoke to the world about a new life
and he is sitting on a throne now
He was rejected by those he came to save
and still he lives in a kingdom now
As or those who crucified him
and rejected him
and the worlds that let him down
And the ones who shamed him
as well as the world today
that says their truths
and deny absolute truth
Hear this, you CAN be FORGIVEN....
Because that is who he died for
Sinners, like you and me,
and that is why he let a crown o jewels for a crown of thorns
Because of love.
I will no longer be afraid
I want to feel like the Lord as in
Hate the sin
but love the sinner
I shatter down the spirit
of divorce
abortion
gay/lesbian/*******
and all the lies that lie among these
For the Lord is my savior!

I know that these times are tough
and I know it seems like it is ever soon enough

I understand thats it's hard to hear
And i see the times that are getting kinda near

I know life is misery
when you don't seem to know
What awaits you behind all this messy overflow

I know exactly how you feel
Because I've also given a turn in this fairest wheel

Times gets hard
And it just keeps going round
I see how tough it is to discard
the memories when all they do is pound
Again and again till there is no where else to go around

But just just know
That every time you look up to the sky
There is always hope when you decide to fly
People here and people there
will always try to push you off your chair
But never forget that when the storm comes
Its just to clean up for a new and better day
There is nothing there that should flip you around

Now the world is your stage
Take this chance and turn the page!

Maybe I should try it
Maybe I should not
It's a risk I can take
It's an opportunity that came to me

Two sides insidE my head
One saying I should
I should tell him I like him
I should run out there and sing
I should audition for the school play

But the other,
Ohh the other side.
telling me I could fail
I could get rejected
Or hit a bad note
Of do a horrible job while on stage

Who or what should I do
Who should I listen too
They both make a point
I don't want to fail
I could take a rejection
I couldn't handle the embarrassment

But I know one thing
I cant loose if I don't bet
But I won't win either
And if I loose, I will know what love is
I will practice more with high notes
I would be a better actor

What's the worst that can happen
Rejection
Laughs
Disappointment
But that's life
I won't ever know

In the future I will regret it
Like I regret now
Not taking my chances in the ropes coarse
Not going up the caves
Not auditioning for the right plays

Besides it's now,
Later I will be better
And more prepared
And if I fall again  
I will know how to get up easier
The harder my first fall is
The easier it will be o get up on the next fall

I can do it
I will do it
I did it