What I was yesterday
What I will be tomorrow
What I am today

Yesterday I was new
Tomorrow is not for me to say
Today is a surprise

One
I wasn't born yet
Two
I was a baby
Three
I was a girl
Four
I am a teen....
One
How could i define anything from anything at all
So tiny in time so far awa from what could be
New to the world i didn't even know existed.
Two
Now i know the world
Know all i want to to be fed and picked up
Have someone to smile at me so i can smile back
Three
Innocent, still, what age?
Just the age, something i couldnt explain
I ran back and fourth then i bumped into my destiny
Four
Something , Who am I?
I should know by now, should have known since number three
I am a human
Worth of respect, love, peace, share,
PAtience, and all of the rest things any other human deserves
I am not only a teen, i have my rigths to live without feeling scared
wether i would wake up or not the next day!

This year
my greatest accomplishment has been staying alive
My greatest regret has been wanting to give up
And something i will change is the way of looking at every day to come

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Her life began to become the dark room she always ran away from
The memories in her mind were the reminder of who she was
The times she spend in the darkness of her room,
Were now the reminder of what she became
And the sparkle in eyes,
Were only captured in the pictures of a younger age.
She tried to hide it with a smile
With a nice compliment
With a positive attitude.
But there were times when she was alone,
when she couldn't and didn't,
want to think
or remember
and much the least,
she didn't want to let it become her present
But how could she find a way to erase it from her mind
How much must she do,
to let the memory die!
It might have taken many things:
Suicidal tries
Drugs
Alcohol
All types of pills
and anything
Superficial
like cutting
and self-hurt
it didn't matter how she tried
or who she was,
She let the memory become a daily nightmare
She let it become an obsession
Until she met someone
He wasn't like the others
He wasn't like anyone else
Because no one else did for her what he did
He was a king,
and became a peasant for her
He was the ruler,
and he excepted rule for her
He became hated,
and loved his enemies for her
She rejected him so many times,
Yet he put his life in for her
When she found him
She was too blind to see him
So he gave her sight
When in the water she was cleaned
And she wanted some to talk to
he gave her his spirit
so she could hear him
They talked together
In a language that only he could understand
In a language where her true feelings,
were the words that came out
She had no need for blades,
No need for pills,
No need for nothing else
She was free from the chains
Of lies
Thievery
Hypocrisy
Hatred
*******
and many more things!
He gave her everything and his name is Jesus
He is the father of those who need him
The son on those who want him
And the holy ghost for those who must hear him
He is the only things she needs

I tried to find the right words
and the right timing to say them
But coming up with the right advice
Is not as easy as a book can say
I don't want to tell her that she is bad
Or that she is wrong
because I don't want to loose a friend
but if I don't tell her so,
she will continue to hurt herself more
Therefore, since I do not know what to say
Lets leave the words to you
Besides you know her better than anyone
even better that she thinks she knows herself
Ill simply let you take the lead
And let you tell her
about your love and grace
about your mercy and power
About what you did for her.
And how you died for her.
Just please, let her know
and remind me to remind her
that I will always be here
but that you HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE....

Como te va
hace tiempo el tema de amor
Hace tiempo que pasamos juntos por la vereda de la realidad

I thought dying
was feeling alive
Now i know that all I need to feel alive
Is being in your arms

He hurt me, he back stabbed me
He took my innocence from me
He broke me apart
How could i get back up again in this pain!!!!
But there was one in the shadows
Who lid up the darkness just for me
Took my hand and spoke in to my ear
He took me in when no one else would.
he gave me hope,he showed me a solution...
He helped me live
Now i forgave and now I love him....
The one who took my childhood away is in my heart
I pray that he will repent...
Like I did!!!
God can do anything!!!

I couldn’t wait for my class to end so I could run outside and find
el carrito (Stand)
I fell in love with the feeling and the taste before I even knew what love was.
I stood outside holding my mother’s hand waiting for her to ask
the times she did not ask I would pull on her plaid, decently long skirt and looked over towards the man selling raspados

She knew what I wanted and she knew how much I wanted it.
I focused on ...
el carrito
as if looking at it would be enough to call the gods of raspados to have mercy over me

They cost $1.50. My mother gives me the money
I run over
The man says

te faltan, no es suficiente (not enough)

I was devastated, I began to take step back slowly, I dared to not look at my mother with this disappointment.
I barely noticed the lady standing behind the man, she was the boss

I noticed she was looking towards my mother
Maybe she saw in my mother’s face something convincing, or maybe my confusion triggered a mother instinct
Whatever it was, it was enough

As I walked away slowly with my first heart break,
the lady behind says,

tiene antojo, tu daselo (She has a craving, give it to her)

I thanked her with my smile and with a slight flitter in my heart of happiness and even more with my taste buds having a celebration just by looking at how this raspado was being made

The beautiful sound of the mountain man, holding a metal, rectangular shaver of ice
containing it all inside until it was ready to be placed in the cup. The small stones pile one by one when crushed
Just big enough to hold shape and small enough to enjoy

Then the miel con sabor a tamarindo  being delicately set on top, like a creamy blanket in liquid form

Si, con limon y sal, porfavor, y poquito chile (add salt and lemon, and a bit of spice... Please)
because my mom taught me how to be polite
and then, to my surprise the actual fruit
tamarindo on top, a light brown coloring with a soft cover on the hardened seed inside

It decorated with grace and delight, the treat awaiting for me
I felt the richness


There I learned my first lesson of kindness

She thought she could fight the strains
but somehow they still control her
she is a puppet
in front of the mastermind
thinking that the show is about her
but really, they laugh at her
rather than with her
She thought it was real
She looked around and saw
something she has never seen before
Lies
Fake smiles
Unreal emotions
But she wasn't going to stand there
and just watch the world laugh
She had lost the images
that she thought she had created
but in that moment of clarity
she saw something else.
She had been born again
She now had a new vision
She wasn't going to let anyone
make her be what she did not want to be
She was going to fight
Against everything
Sure she was scared
but she knew fear was an enemy
that she was going to have to defeat
Here is where the battle begins
This is not the end
but nearly the beginning of
a new life, a new vision

I love the way you whisper in my ear,
With the wind,
a beautiful song of life
and that song sometimes sings to me
telling me that,
I can't sit around and wonder what it would be like
To have a different life
And its that song that make me think that,
I'd rather listen closely
To the song you put in my way
there is no thought in my mind
or in my heart
about the way you love me
and it is that love
that makes the best lyrics for a song
and the best lines for a poem
and the best melody for my heart.
I used to think that happy ending were fairy tales
and that a prince fight a dragon for me
But know I know
That no only did you fight a dragon for me
But you also left your throne of king
and you put at my feet mercy and grace
that's more than I could ever ask for
And that's more than I could ever need
you have sang to me, everyday
telling me that the sun shines
and the moon does to,
because you will never leave me in darkness
you sang to me and you've let me know
that even thought it may rain today
The sun will come out back tomorrow.

A teacher: The Villain and the Hero
One inspiration, one true motivation  
That one person who gives his powerful students  
The right direction
That one teacher who fights for the future of others
Who finds success in the success of others
That one person who further form a teacher
Is a human-being
He might seem like a villain to some
But he is a hero to others
He is my hero

Picked me up from the gutter
Made me strong enough to deal with
X equals A to the second power multiplied times two
He is that one teacher who taught me how to leave problems behind
And solve equation easier and faster
That one teacher who became a role model
The perfect inspiration any student needs
His way of teaching the concept  
His way of giving us the chance to be teachers our selves  
That way of making us the main importance
His way of giving us our place in his class room

Taking possession of our minds and changing them to capable ones
Making each and every one of us students who can solve anything
He expects a lot from all of us, He expects a lot from me
He gives me the challenges that I can handle
Gives me a chance to prove my self
He taught me that X is just a variable
That X is the solution
That you should not be afraid of the variable  
That the solution is hidden behind the other factors
That lesson I use in my daily life

I'm not afraid of any problem in any subject
Because he taught me how to deal with problems
And when finding X was hard,
He was there ready to answer my questions
As I walk away during lunch  
I wish him a good lunch
But what I'm actually saying is
You have done a lot for these, your students
Now give yourself a break and do something for your self.

He might just be an algebra teacher
Or a staff member at Riverside University High school
Or just Mr. Sepulveda, to some people
But for me he means more than that.
For me he is a hero
That can travel the distance
And can fix any problem with time
He is the Hero who inspires me  

He is a teacher
Whom I admire greatly
Not for being a teacher
Or being at Riverside
I admire him because he made me strong
In Algebra
In my problems
In life  
And now In my poetry

You sometimes are the villain
For giving me a B in a test
But you are the hero because for every B
I get another challenge  
And I know that with your help
I will get an A in Life.  
You are the Villain of my mind
But the Hero of my Heart
Thank-you Mr. Sepulveda
Written by: Estrella Luciano
For: A true hero
P.S. I still think I deserved an A on that one test. ;)

Sudden give away,
My heart at the price of a smile
My smile at the price of a joke
My jokes at the price of a companion
My company at the price of time
My time at the price of joy
My joy at the price of love
My love at the price of a heart

Sitting down looking at the screen.
What is there to see, what is there to find
Just words written coming out of nowhere
a feeling of desperation
A breathe taken away
A sign telling that it can change it all
A lift of voice
simple rising from the ashes
that is who Ill be someday
A voice coming form nowhere and everywhere
A voice of freedom and true liberty
A voice of triumph because i chose to believe
in ONE REAL GOD and not the one that society has made.

I didn't find it
I looked up and down
Side to side
in front and back
I even tried a 7th way
That was within
BUT NOTHING

the women of the world depends in the world
The women out there covers he scars with make up
the women who is tired of being herself covers reality with jewelry
That women wants to be loved by the world,
so she wears what everyone one else wears
That women fights for everything
And only trust HER strengths
She suffers but she never lets anyone know
That women simply tries to hard to be something, anything worth watching,
I don't understand that women

But then I do,
That women doesn't know that there is a better way of living....
And i ask, does makeup cover up the memory,
does it heal the true pain
Or does it make it worst
I think it will infect the scar even more.

Why does that women keep looking down at the floor
Doesn't she know her value,
doesn't she know what she is worth,
That women doesn't have to fight anymore,
all she has to do is watch her battle being won
By the ONE who is there.
That women has to know that jewels are worthless
but she IS NOT!!! Hear me!!!
The world doesn't have to love you, because someone already does, and he is waiting for you, to take that step,
to believe in yourself
and know that there is hope
That there is away that you don't have to keep running for them to see you, because there is someone who loves so much he gave his life to save you.

I am a women who follows God, the ONE who will always love me!!!

Just watched
Most wonderful movie
Just heared
Most beutifull song
You walked
On a sweat pavent
Just went
Through an incredible road

But I never do these things
I went away from home
I left my reality
I slipped away to somewhere
I should have never gone to

I wanted to be better
Feel better
I wanted to have a better view
I wanted to have something
I wanted to never stop walking
The sensation made me leave

I followe the wrong road
I tripped ao many times
And on the same rock
I left the things I loved most

I kind of forgot who I was
It was easy to be part of something
Different
And new
I had to try it

But i realized that was not me
I want to
I have to
I will go home
Where I belong
Where I learned
So many things about what it is to live

Im back home
Where a belong
Where I real
Not plastic

"I am Jesus, I know everything"
And know you do,
I believe in you!

At first when we began this fairy tale,
te sky was shining
the moon was bright
The darkness did not exist
It began so beautiful,
beautiful
Maybe its just a word
but it means so much to me
It means that a million others
It meant happiness
Joy and peace
It love, love, love
It meant so much more than just 3 vowels
It the first line of our haiku
The firt word that began this whole.
Now that words dissapeered and is lost in the mist of the darkness

I was never anything more than US
because since the beggining you knew the end
I thought I could surprise with another end
But you never gave me that chance
You picked that scene,
At first i rejected it because i expected more form you, but now i know that it did not matter because all i had was nothing in the3 middle of nowhere with you
I doesnt matter how much i loved, love or will keep loving you
Because a relashioship is not up to me
It is up to both of us
I dont know why it happend
But i do know you never cared
Maybe is your act of charity, or just a game,
But my heart was not your toy or that one things you could play with
You just wanted me to break up becasue u didnt know how to get rid of me
And yet i still love you, because aas much as it hurts, it is more painful that i fell for it! Completely.
I love you, but if you dont love me back, there is nothing that i can do!
And my friend told me "it was not meant to be" (Sedrick)

It takes some time to take away
The blessing in my life today
It takes more that just a blow
You dont only need to throw
I doudt there's any one
That can be strong enough!
I doudt that some else could turn life up side down
I've too far, i have become strong
And i wont let this push me down
It took long enough for this stength to bloom!]
And I am going to fall
And even if you tried and if actually fall
I get up again cuz i have a friend
That can lift me up again!!!
His name is Jesus
His is glorified
Through his victories
He is the one
Who will never let me loose hope
Because he died for me and he lived for me
And he was born again so that i could too
There no one in the world that I could love more
than him,
Jesus Christ
The one and only king
[Hallelujaj]

I wish I could forget
The memories that condemned me
But since I can't
Ill let them teach me something
Rather than let them destroy me
And besides, the Lord
Will help me through it all...

You made it in Columbia!!! Im not surprised. You earned it, you hv a bright mind and the school knew it. Enjoy this opportunity and never forget where you come from, never forget your friends and when ur rich and famous remember the place that saw you grow up and the friends you have had. Don't forget me because I look up to you greatly! Congrats!!!!!!.

In the morning i hope to see the darkness
in the night i hope to see light
simply because at morning i find hope and i want something that tells me it's real
what can be more real than a storm in a sunny day
AT night i see the problem and i want to see something that tells me it will get better
So contrary to what usually happens
When i have it I want more want i don't I want less

♪♫♪ Just wanted to let you know
That we will always be together
In every new morning, you count on me
Every time you feel the storm hit
And during ever battle,
Never forget that I'm here
And now more than ever
It doesn't matter what the past has been
You made me smile
You made me laugh
You made me forget the times of struggle
And even though you have made mistakes
That will never define who you really are
I know you weren't born that way
And I don’t care who you think you have become
I know that moments get hard
But that will never my thinking
Because you
Have made me smile
Have made me laugh
Because you
Have made me forget the times of struggle ♪♫♪

I don't want to
I cant let it happen
Not to me
I am not ready
I cant handle it

Not again
Not in this moment
Not tomorrow
Not soon
Not ever

I cant loose you
I wont let it happen
I love you too much
I am scared to loose you again
I will get lost without you

I need your love
Your scolding
I need to see you
Mad and
Happy

I cant handle being alone again
You are my hero
I need to see you home
When I return from school
I need to be with you

I need you to pressure me
I need to to tell me I am right
Or tell me I am wrong
Please
Do not leave me

I will change
I will be better
I will do anything it takes
I will be the best
I will try even harder

I will not get you mad
I will not get in trouble
I will not be selfish anymore
I will not ask for too much
I will not bother you

I need you her
Because you are
my friend
my neighbor
my hero
my villain
my everything.

You are the best brother in the world
And i need you here
To keep acting like a better dad
Than the one I have.
Dont leave me Alone
I need my Brother here next to me!

Aquel el dolor sigue presente, Logró marcar un precedente…
Y hoy, hoy sigues mal…
Aquel recuerdo esta en tu mente, Como si fuera ayer lo sientes…
Y hoy, hoy sigues mal…
Confiabas en el tiempo como aliado para sanar tus heridas…
Mientras vives encerrado en el recuerdo y no encuentras la salida…

Y te destruye como el veneno que gota a gota llena la tasa…
Y la amargura es como un trueno que estremece toda tu casa…
Y la venganza entro en acción pero aquí te presento el perdón…
"Porque el perdón es…"
Es más que un sentimiento, es más que una emoción
El tiempo no te ayuda, tuya es la de decisión…
Enfrenta ese tormento, y sal de esa prisión
Porque no fue tu culpa, otorga el perdón...

Aquello que pasó, aquel suceso duro te marcó
Pensaste que lo habías olvidado pero no
Que ya no te afectaba ni pasaba por tu mente
Pero volvió a afectarte y todavía está latente…

Desde aquel momento has continuado por la vida
Esperando que sea el tiempo el que sane las heridas
A veces lo has recordado y con nada de templanza
Haz pensando en la opción de acudir a la venganza…

Si, fue doloroso, no fue nada bueno
Pero el resentimiento es similar a un veneno
Que gota a gota tomas para no enfrentar la pena
Pero termina contigo te destruye y te envenena…

Como tóxico que acaba con el alma y corazón
Que te presenta el odio como una gran opción
Pero al final tú eres quien recibe la aflicción
Pues se enfermó tu cuerpo por la falta de perdón…

Y te destruye como el veneno que gota a gota llena la tasa…
Y la amargura es como un trueno que estremece toda tu casa…
Y la venganza entro en acción pero aquí te presento el perdón…
"Porque el perdón es…"
Es más que un sentimiento, es más que una emoción
El tiempo no te ayuda, tuya es la de decisión…
Enfrenta ese tormento, y sal de esa prisión
Porque no fue tu culpa, otorga el perdón...

Perdona y saca todo veneno guardado
Permite la salida del rencor acumulado
Perdona, reacciona y regresa al presente
Lo que pasó se fue ya no lo tengas pendiente
Quizás hayas pensado que no hay una razón
Que no fuiste culpable de lo de tu corazón…

Pero en ocasiones el perdón por algo trágico
Habrá que darlo aunque suene ilógico
Como aquel caballero que por ti fue mal herido
Tomando tu lugar te dio un regalo inmerecido…

No suena razonable tampoco apetecible
Pero te perdonó y hoy por eso tú eres libre
Y que mejor ejemplo que la vida de Jesús
Que no tenia que hacerlo; pero en una cruz
Llevó toda la culpa que agobió su corazón
Pero con todo y eso recibiste su perdón…

**Y te destruye como el veneno que gota a gota llena la tasa…
Y la amargura es como un trueno que estremece toda tu casa…
Y la venganza entro en acción pero aquí te presento el perdón…
"Porque el perdón es…"
Es más que un sentimiento, es más que una emoción
El tiempo no te ayuda, tuya es la de decisión…
Enfrenta ese tormento, y sal de esa prisión
Porque no fue tu culpa, otorga el perdón...

Do you ever feel left out?
Do you ever feel you have lost the point of life?
Have you ever loved someone so bad,
you could die for them?
Did you ever say that you would give anything,
so that they could love you back?
Have you ever felt that need to see that someone,
in a situation where you had a problem.

Yes, i know how you feel.
I have been there
Done that
It is something impossible to control
It is something that we can't explain

While your friends try to make you forget that someone
But you simply can't
When you try to ignore his smiles,
but somehow when you try to ignore it,
you notice them even more.

I know that feeling
Especially if he doesn't do the same with you
It is horrible
He catches you staring at him
And you make up an excuse,
Or simply look away faster than him

Does he stand out,
In a huge crowd, even more than your friends
Who can you talk to?
Who can relate to this?
Am I the only one?

I don't know why
But he is who I love
And no human power can change that!!!

I know that feeling
And i know more than one out there
Knows that feeling as good or even better than me.

I've been to many of them in the past
I've hidden behind some of them
And all have gave me smiles
and sad moments of departure
I admit that some days were lessons
of how to move on and work hard
That's what camp does right?
No!
Not all camps do that!
There is a camp that taught me more
"Everytown, Everytown
Yellow Black White Red or Brown
It makes not difference when you come down"
I needed it and I got what I asked for
and much much more!
I called out to s hand stretched out
and I got it
A friendly face
and I got it
And a shoulder to cry on
And there was many to choose from
There were times when
Anger, Sadness, Stress, and anxiety
Showed up
but nothing stood in my way!
ALL I can say is that I left with
the power to change the world
And even if its interrupting
ONE hurtful remark
Ill do it!
But never again, will I let
Authority stand in my way to do what
I Know Is The Right Thing To Do
I recommended to teens, and adults.
There is nothing than the
EVERYTOWN SPIRIT!
I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks so!

I tried to see clearly
Before I left
I thought I was alone and the only one
But I found my self in a new world
I found people who shared their story
with someone like me
Someone they had barely met
An entire week felt like years
in in just 6 days they won me over
They became my family
I wasn't afraid to cry in their arms
I wasn't afraid to go out in to their world
and find a new vision
And each of them shared a small piece
of them selves with me.
Each person stood by me
and did not judge every tear that fell down
There were moments when I thought Id be gone
and moments when I fought against it
But to be real,
they didn't care about anything I've done
just about being there by my side, with me
I guess each of them showed me a part of me I didn't know
They showed me how to fight
and not be afraid to speak up
I got there scared to stand up
scared to take a step
but I came back with a voice
With the Voice!

I've heard it being said that in a near death experience, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.The brightest light you will ever see because all of its surroundings are pitch black.
It is a lie, I have seen darker when the tears fell down my eyes as I struggled to find myself. I've seen darker as I stood there and watched the one I trusted most letting me down again and again. I've seen darker as I heard you cry out in the middle of the night because of the nightmares you had and no one listened, I was there too.
I thought I would never see such sadness in someone, so much that your tears turned into mine.
Our lives are so different, our struggles and our fights could not be any more contrary the one to the other. Our lives were being lived on opposite sides, how did we find ourselves in the same place, sharing our stories.
I heard you cry out in the middle of the night because of the nightmares you had and no one listened. I was there too.
How could two girls the same age, one American and one Hispanic, one with short wavy hair, the other with long straight hair
one with brown eyes, the other with a dark shade of green.
You stood there with tear drops in your eyes, and cried out, and said word by word every thing you have been holding in from everyone. You said things you have never said to anyone because of fear. I could see in your eyes the desire you had to yell out and set yourself free.
I have been there too. I stood there thinking it was my fault, I stood there thinking that I did not deserve the smile on my face. But you stood there with the same tears the same struggle and you did, and I wanted to tell you that you deserve every smile and many more but I couldn't. How could I tell you that it would be okay, if I didn't even know if I was going to be okay. Yet somehow by the end of the week, I knew, we both knew that as long as we believed in ourselves we would be okay? You and I together...
Everytown Wisconsin 2016

I have faith,
That I will find my way, and walk the right path
I have faith,
That I will not walk through the tough moments alone
I have faith,
That you are watching over my every decision and step
I know that I am complete if I am with you!

My heart was weary
and I admit that when my eyes failed to see
My heart didn't beat
I admit
that for a moment there I forgot!
I thought about
what would an all powerful God
Want with this girl!
But ill let you do that
Ill just continue fighting
Even if I can't see
Your voice will be my eyes!!!
You are faithful, even after I have failed!
So why shouldn't I be faithful,
when all you have done has been for me!

Here thinking
Is it worth it
All that hard work

Trying to get his attencion
Risking my education
Trying to be there for him
While he doesnt realize I am there.

Is it all part of destiny
Or is it a part of life
Is it all what I have done
It is all because of my mistakes

I am here
Wondering if he ever thinks of me
Hoping that he loves me to
Wishing he could look
At my smile and fall for me
Just like I fell for him

I love him,
wishings he loved me
Yet in English clas
He does not even turn my way
I wish he could know
But I am not scared to say anything

I wish he could understand
That I am falling in love every second
Even more
I need him to see
I need him to know
That every second
I think of what could be

The smile i have is for you
I see you fighting
Like brothers.
One is taller the other one younger
You both make my life fun

One want help
the other does not to help
How funny they look
Suddenly they see me
Just cracking up in laughter

Then walking slowly to me, I notice
They are about to start....
Tickling me

You know,
My dad is a mystery
My mom is a wonder
My Oldest brother is a surprise
My second Oldest brother is a changed man
My third oldest brother is a lazy head

That's my family
I was born far from here
I came here with them
They have been a great example
Each has their weakness and each have their strengths

They all make mistakes,
But who doesn't
Sometimes I cry because of them
Or cry for them
Sometimes i smile because of them
or laugh for them

But they are my family.
Some have left me,
but they came back
Some have hurt me
But they have apologized
Maybe they never said "I'm sorry"
But they have said i Love you
Maybe i didn't heart them say it
But i can feel it every time they say
"take care"
Because they worry
"See you soon"
Because they can't wait to see you
"Stay in touch"
Because they don't want to loose you!
"I love you"
Because they need you
"Ill think about you"
Because they cant afford to let you go!

They love me, because I love them
Positive plus Positive equals Positive,

Psalms 27:1 - The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
I was afraid of the dark
Because i used to think that it could attack me
I was afraid of heights
For fear in falling
I was afraid of the stage
For fear that they would laugh at me
I was afraid of speaking out
because I believed they would judge me
I was afraid of feelings
Because no one ever told me that they meant something
I was afraid of life
Because no one ever showed me its importance

But there was a moment between the night and day
A moment where the world simply put me aside
One moment when i lost all hope
That moment he came upon me
And he gave me a new opportunity to try even harder
I used to think that my life did not matter
Until I learned that he paid my life's price with his
Dying for me so that i could have salvation
SO that i could be free.
Now i treasure my life and I don't fear anything
Because it is not biblical to be
He gave us a spirit of courage!
He loved us so much he took our fears and our sins and our mistakes and died for them
So that on judgement day that wont be counted against us!
The *darkness is my stage now!
In the heights its where I speak out!
I live my Life, feeling his love

Sometimes we loose our hope because the world hides it form us
But those times makes us stronger and the bad moments
Are making us for the greater things awaiting us!

What I think about you?
Why would you ask?
I'm sure you already have an idea
I mean isn't it pretty obvious
They way we talk
They way we act around each other
I know I shouldn't care
but I do, I do care about you
More than I wish I did!
I was thinking maybe if time were stopped
but isn't that crazy,
But then again crazy ideas are my favorite
They are the only ideas that have no limits
Not like the ones that are expected from us
I remember the last time someone told me,
That it was dangerous to think in a certain way
I remember one day when I at school
Overheard a couple teacher talking about those
"dangerous ideas"
Where we could begin a revolution
Nowadays we can say what ever we want
For we have the freedom of speech
But then why don't we stay quiet!
But that's not what you asked!
You wanted to know what I think about you
I think that you have a voice
a voice that can make a difference if you let it try
I think that there is a way for success
without having fear and I know you know that too
I think that you are stronger,
much more than what you were raised to believe
I think that you don't have follow society's guidelines
After all it is a free country
Right?
We should be able to make a difference in the world
Right?
We should be able to see justice before our very eyes
Right?
Then why don't we
I think you can be the next Martin Luther
Or Nelson Mandela
Or part of the army that rescues the next generation of Jews from a holocaust
And if you die trying...
I remember we talked about this before,
if you died trying to make that difference
You said that it would be a fight fought in vain
I didn't think so the, I don't think so now!
If we die fighting that will show them
Those who look up to you
That what we were fighting for was the right thing to do!
They will truly see that what the world expects from us,
isn't what we have to expect from ourselves
And that will make them FIGHT!
I think you are capable of winning that battle, if you just kept trying!
A little more
A little harder
But most importantly with more faith!
And if we die fighting for The right reasons,
For the name of Jesus
Then, Ill see you in heaven walking through the roads of gold!

I'm trying to forget
Forget that I fell for you
Forget your sweet smile
Forget that tender light in your eyes
Forget your glorious voice

Im trying to forget that
You are there
And not here
I'm trying to forget that
Everything I do
Has nothing to do with you

I'm sorry for feeling thus way
I never asked for Your love
I asked for friendship and understanding
I tried to give you
Many things hoping you could love me

But you never did
Now I'm trying to forget
That you exist
Because I'm tired of fighting
To try to keep you

I'm trying to forget that I actually love you.

I want to survive
I wont give up
I'll keep trying
But the question is FOR WHAT?

For the crumbs
For the waist
For an impossibility
For something that doesn't exist

I don't want what's left of it
I want it all
Yea it is true:
I won't be easy
But you bet I'll try
An if I don't make I'll keep trying
And if I never make then
I wasn't meant to be.

But
I don't want to waste my time
How do I know when it's time
To leave and not turn back
How do I know if I'm doing the right things
How can I know

What does it mean to be free
I mean truly free
Not the type where you have not chains on your hands
And call that freedom
Chains can be upon be
Without been able to be seen

Chains can and will take the form of
Liberty to trick you
So that you will not fight but be weak against the odds

Liberty is merely a wish
You can never be free in this world
You can never be safe and sound
From the tears and the cries of hatred
And simply by your own regrets

No reason
No way to explain
Simply words
said by one in all
I am here
Writing for you
This poem
In free verse form

Thinking of what could be
Knowing no other way
Just sitting here writhing this free verse for you
just because it came to me
No reason
No rhythm
No rhyme
There is not Similes
No metaphors
Just a poem I wrote for you

To tell you I think about you.

You were born in a crib made of gold
I was born in a crib made of wood
You played with nice barbie dolls
I played with the mud that the rain washed up
Yet this fight is nearly startin

I heard you wanted to give up
I heard you were tired of fighting.
I heard that you were going to stop trying
Just throw away all the effort.

OK
Why should I care, I doesn't matter
It is your decision
But...

Years ago did you know that
Gandhi gave up too.
Yeap, he did and now his home is still being colonized by the British
And Martin Luther king As well as Mandela
They gave up after a bunch of policemen came after them
And now in their own homes they are servants
They use different restrooms
They enter through different doors
They are treated like aliens from outer space.

If the wouldn't have given up their homes
would be a peaceful place for them
They would have proven justice.
Now think of what you can accomplish
How are your friends going to see you,
when you tell them Don't give up
But you were the first to give up
Just say you were weak,
Well what if they are weak too.
Maybe even weaker than you ever were

Tell me what change is there for someone who doesn't keep trying
Tell me what will you do later on?
Regret it, feeling bad for not keeping a fight
The haters, the neighbors, the enemies
want you to turn weak in a fight
But it is your decision to fall
Or show them that your weak moments
make you even stronger

If you need a wing-man here I am
I am here to help you
But don't give up
Follow Gandhi, Martin, And Mandela
They never gave up for what they believed in
They were threatened to death
but the still stood up high
for the desendents and their follows

Somewhere far from here I feel your hands over me getting closer. I can't see you but I can feel you just like the wind. I can't prove you are here, but I don't need proof of your love. I know your love exists and I know that love is real. The most pure love I know. There is much to loose but there is also much to win. I won't loose this opportunity to follow your path and follow you. God, I am here awaiting your presence and your love.