just a touch from you gives me peace in my mind
when I close my eyes, can't hardly open it
don't wanna wake up from this dream seem so real
don't wanna think about you leaving me soon
cause we know we're not meant to be
nobody gave this kind of effect on me
here I am, preparing to drown
just to let all come to me again..
You and you alone...

I'm not that optimistic, but doesn't mean I can't do what's right
I'm a rebel, but doesn't mean I can't follow
putting me in a box where I don't belong..
why keep me?....to avoid any trouble?
try to cover all the sins but it won't work
can't accept me?, don't need you to...
I am alone, but it doesn't mean nobody watch for me
all my moves, all my words... been carefully observed
criticized, judged, pointing your hypocrite fingers
for you this is life, for me this is trash
you can play with the rules by means of the power given by you
but the rules you hold, is only the rules made by you
not the rules everybody follows

Let me out
I’m your art
I’m your life
I am pain
Therefore I am beauty

Let me out
Don’t do this
You know you need me
You can’t keep me
I know you need me

I’ll have the sins
I’ll take the punches,
I’ll be torn apart.
I’ll break a bone if I had to..
I won’t let them destroy you
I won’t let them get the best of you

I am evil...
But I’ll be the one who’ll protect you

Don’t worry about me.

I was made to bear the pain,
To absorb the madness
To swallow all of your fears..

Embrace me.
Accept me.
And you’ll never feel empty
Again...

Deep within you
I rest..
I know you can feel me too.
Somehow you know,
I'm waiting here for you
Waiting for you….

To let me out…

how dare you come back?
how can you do what you do to me
'Cause when it's you I can't say no,
and it ******* really hurts
that I always let you in
even if you lways leaves me hanging
hoping that everytime you touch me,
the possibility of having you entirely
why can't I ignore you
the way you ignore me
I ****** up so bad..
And this is getting old
how can you come back and go
and leave me empty and sober
using me for that long...
and I let you use me for that long,
haven't you felt a little
just a little emotion
but I guess not,
You said I've given you what you needed
but you never really needed me
I end up crying inside for you
but I can't let you see how much it hurts me
pretending that I'm enjoying
playing this ******* game..
Sometimes when I'm in your arms I wonder
If I'l ever have the chance to be the one
Or maybe not...

I admit, and can't lie
I still love you
after all the harsh cold kisses


I can feel you have nothing fo me
but why you keep coming back?..

Yes I can give you what you need
but I guess I'll never be the one you really needed.

I'd rather you tell me the worst
but why still keep me like this
when I thought you already forgot about me
and me trying hard
you'll come back again and ask for me
ask for more

you got me on your grip
I'm doomed for loving you,
and I guess will always will..

I don't want to make another one,

But I guess it will never be avoided

So I won't repeat and come back to what I've done

But I'm about to make a new one

Heard a pastor once said

"Have more mistakes if you can,

rejoice if you have more failures.

For you will learn and grow from it."

Fall on me
I've been waiting for you
Grab my hand
I won't let you go
I'll hold you dear
This heart beats for you
Don't fear
I won't hurt you,
no one will...
Let me kiss you
and your doubts away
I'll be with you
I won't leave you
I'll wake you
from the nightmares
that haunts you
There'll be no other
Only but you
So come to my embrace
I'll leap from heaven for you

If you'll fall on me
and take my hand,
don't let go...
They will try
to keep me away from you
They'll destroy me,
and the love I have ..
only for you...
But I won't let them..
So trust me...
My heart is yours
You hold the key,
key to my paradise

If you'll let me fall
all on my own
Hell, prepare for me..
for I lost my only treasure
Darkness will soon consume me
Let the fire swallow me
Let the beasts have me
They are now prepared
To shatter every piece of me
Destroy every hope I have
And bound me in chains
So I'll be ****** forever
won't reach my Heaven no more

The moment you'd thought they laugh,
is the moment they thought you'd be ashamed

I thought You weren't there
I prayed for comfort and You were silent
I cried in the corner and have to feel alone
There's no one to turn to but myself
Hated myself, others, and the world

But You worked in mysterious ways, this now I know
Haven't noticed how well I am now
I carried my burden and got through with it
Accepted the hurt so I could learn
Bled the wounds and let them heal through time

You gave me more than what I wished for
Looking back to those scars reminds me how broken I am
Thankful for how I got them badly and for how ugly they are
Because this smile won't be in my lips today
If I haven't suffered from them
Realized now that You wouldn't give what I can't bear

I'm asking myself,
Am I in the right place
Should I really be here
Did I make the right choice
or am I just looking at the wrong angle
Am I really that fed up
or maybe I just need a pause to think clear
Do I really hate what I do
or maybe I'm just doing it wrong
failures keep on summing up
bad results that are hard to fix
domino effect
Are they bluffing with me,
or maybe I'm just too stubborn to listen
to what they had to say
I'm trying to read between the lines
opinion and advice
Anxiety strikes
Is this called self loathing
seems like I don't trust myself like before
Not that confident and always sure to what I do..
Like everything is not falling in the right place