How am I supposed to say no to my addiction
If I don't even have the strength to get up?
When I see no future in any direction?

How am I supposed to control myself
When I see no point in living?
When my life loses all meaning?

How do I say no?

You were...
The ultraviolet that shined on me,
Revealing invisible pages.
Pages that hid my thoughts,
My emotions...
Pages that hid myself.

You were...
The light in my own incompetence,
Shining a path to realizing myself.
The light that sparked inspiration,
Passion...
The light that sparked love.
But,

You were...
Forgotten as swiftly in love were we,
Another glance in the crowd.
I felt unwanted,
annoyed...
I felt hopeless.
Because,

We weren't meant to be.
I took a step forward,
You took a step forward
But your light disappeared.

You were...
Gone.

Poppy red and tangerine,
the brightest yellow and calming green.
Sapphire jewels and amethyst stones,
this is how beautiful our love grows.

We plug up our ears
feeding music to our brain
so that the busy streets around
produce a dream-like state.

The trees are getting brighter
leaves are catching fire
The air is getting crisper
I hear a faint whisper
Am I listening to my chest?
or is this a new mindset?
My balance is unsteady
I hope that I'll be ready
I might just fall
The outside change small
Its a new season inside
I'm here for the ride
For The Now I strive
I tell you, Autumn is alive

In four white walls
He gently falls
In love with Mary Jane
In other rooms
The darkness looms
And grown men share their pain

Deep purple rainbows ground
Through my isolation
Their road-show resonating
And shaking my status quo haven
Singing rivals' swan song
Building a Rushmore-strong
More resilient rock song
Taking me on to the next page
As I was swept along
And came of age
Relishing my discovery
Of a wider stage
With so much more
Than three-cord monotony.