I feel you lurk, behind me,
i know you, 'cause you,re there,
Whenever i am feeling fine,
i,m looking, everywhere,
You think that you can fool me?,
i,m not a naive girl,
I,ve seen the signs too often,
you,ve tried to crush my world,
I,ve tried to name you ghoul,
the black, the never ending cold,
They tell me you can follow me,
until i,m very old,
They try to understand you,
and they want to know your motives,
I tell them that i hate you,
but you,re something i,ve grown up with,
In time i,ll try to rid you,
although we seem as one,
And medication blurs the lines,
so much so, i can,t run,
I wonder if i want to live,
without you, on my own,
I love you, hate you, need you too,
at times you,re the strong one,
So on i go for now with help,
from them, and so it goes,
I,ll watch you as you follow me,
and keep me on my toes......
(c)eileenmcgreevy@ymail.com2018
the crushing , ever present symptoms of depression.. a work of fact.....