Every minute of every day I cry.
I know my eyes seem so dry.
But beyond this surface there's pain and lies.
There's a hole right in my head.
Filling with everything that I hear or that's been said.
I didn't expect so many to place the gun there and pull.
Tears fill my mind and lungs.
Deeper and more clear than any pool.
There's a leak to fix.
But where's my tools?
I'm saying i'm fine.
And you think it's true.
This is the most stupid thing you could do.
But I cry in the shower so who's the fool?
Off I go.
Reaching for hope and proof.
Empty hands and broken truths.
Need tissues.
But hiding it will do.
Don't know if i'm sad.
Or my hearts beating thinner.
Fighting to be like your an angel.
End up treated like a sinner.
No quiet.
Just noise and fillers.
While I cry on the inside.
My smile gets bigger.

So many things filling this maze they call a brain.
All they can do is call me insane.
I see inbetween the lines and peek on the underlane.

What lies beneath the surface?
The little demons that haunt,
taunt and flaunt whatever they want.

It keeps me from my sunshine..........
Why am I so **** blind?
Always the first in line and the one left behind....

Overanalyze try my mind on for size running at full speed. Realize words change but have the same meaning. Lingering but forgotten Shurley I heard them spoken only one thing can come up this. I will be left broken and choking struggling with my own insecurities why can I have some kind of security. I'll even take some kind of purity

Darkness clouding my thoughts
Time to put an end to this madness
Tried so many times maybe I'll finally succeed.
But no one will believe its only my time to leave.
Only truth and loyalty in my heart from the very start
But you believe another part. ****!
I can't wait to stop my heart.
Torn, broken, and falling apart.
Waiting on my Blissful End.

Eve of the air, drifting high,
astride the ether;
Eve, ever ephemeral,
tilting at the clouds!
Her face is as fresh as the day,
her eyes as clear as light.

She is all that I want!

In her soul’s deep blue expanse
she welcomes every song --
Her flush blood breathes in
every poet’s prayer.
Her heart is open to all life!

Slowly, in silence,
with timeless grace,
she crosses my mind,
when my thoughts rise proudly;
when my foolish fancy ascends aloft,
into sweet and daring dreams.

She has seen my search
and she knows my way:
how often I reach for the warm,
familiar sun; as well, she has
distilled my secret yearning
for the cold, distant stars.

She realizes how easily
my eyes are dazzled by their
pearlescent shine, beyond,
while my flesh hungers for
the ambient heat of
the radiant beloved, above.

She has gleaned my longing
for heaven’s treasures
and she has parsed the
utterance of my heart.

She knows my way.
I am weak
for her iconic embrace,
for she is all that I want.

In her spacious arms,
all these desires are fulfilled.
In her celestial realm
all my dreams fly free.