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Jay Dayz Jun 2018
Every day
1, 2, 3, 4
stay up just a little late
5, 6, 7, 8
tired of this endless play
9, 10, 11, 12
I'm still up lets count again!

1, 2, 3, 4
Every day I lay in bed
5, 6, 7, 8
Watch the time all go away
9, 10, 11, 12
Took to long lets go again!

1, 2, 4, 3
A darkened room -to play- -for us-
5, 7, 6, 8
What -shadows come- -have those- to say
12, 11, 10, 9
-allright- -you'll be- -okay- -it is-

9, 11, 6, 3
-can you- -hidden- -meaning- -endless-
2, 5, 8, 10
-just an- - with no- -winning- -find the-
4, 7, 1, 12
-puzzle- -and no- -Life is- -meaning?-
I've lost track of time
Jay Dayz Jun 2018
I don't know what is true,
I dont know what is false.

Every day I wake up,
breath the air and look up;
As I see the sky above,
I wonder if its all I've got.

What if things weren't as I see?
Could they be lies composed by me?
How can we trust ourselves these days?
How can we trust our human ways?

People are selfish, people are cruel;
All these people just want to rule.
So what if Im like them, what if I'm dull?
What if my brain just want to be 'cool'?

I'm tired of questions, I'm tired of thinking;
I just want the truth to finally sink in.
What am I feeling? Who am I really?
These endless questions forever spinning.

And this poem has no ending,
Like the life I keep in question;
Will I reach a true conclusion?
Or will my life be left on pending?
I'm lost in truths and lies.
Jay Dayz Jun 2018
I think I broke my thumb....
It is quite a ***.
Because I thought that
fighting pain with pain
Would solve everything.

I think I broke my thumb...
And now it feels numb.
Just like what lies inside
My broken soul
And endless halls.

I think I broke my thumb...
I'm just very dumb.
Why would I think
That the pain in my bones
I should treat like you treat me.
Jay Dayz May 2018
This is why I don't speak
Because every time I open my mouth
Nobody likes it

I guess I just cant express myself well
because everything I say
Gets returned with hatred

I'm tired of people telling me to speak
yet when I do
they don't like it

Maybe I just don't undertand
I'm probably the one at wrong
I just don't get it

I don't know how to form coherent thoughts
even if when people read my writings
they say otherwise

I really don't understand
why so much hatred runs through us
I didn't mean to offend you

I was just happy
because I did something good for once
but I guess its wrong to be happy for one self

This doesn't make sense
like my voice others don't understand
but its the only way to speak without opening my mouth
Jay Dayz May 2018
I just wanted to be better.
But the constant sound of voices kept me tied down.
I just wanted to be better..
But the constant jokes just fed my ignorance.
I just wanted to be better...
But you used my greatest weakness against me.
I just wanted to be better....
But my happiness isn't worth more than yours.
I just wanted to be better.....
So I lied to keep you happy.
I just wanted to be better......
I gave away my future in a present.
I just wanted to be better.......
So I just let my life get wasted.
I just wanted to be better........
But your fantasy is more important than my reality.
I just wanted to be better.........
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Were my wishes mine to begin with?
Jay Dayz May 2018
I don't like: laying in bed;
sad and alone,
not able to rest.

I don't like: looking above;
seeing just darkness,
and nothing more.

I don't like: feeling so useless;
laying in bed
without any purpose.

I don't like: not being able-
to stand up at will
or open the window.

I don't like: feeling so empty;
sad and alone,
without my own mercy.

I'm my own little demon.
I'm my own little prison.
I'm my own little whisper.
I'm my own little killer.
It's that sudden feeling of unmotivation, loneliness, and endless sorrow. That feeling that leaves you laying down without any power, because all you can do is just lay down and wait for time to pass as you hope you'll feel better tomorrow...
Jay Dayz May 2018
Poetic song
forever long
a graceful pond
we float along

Those little streams
and restless screams
I'm hurt within
I live in dreams

This doesn't stop
like my tears drop
and feed my stock
of wilted crops

I wish for peace
I want release
but I'm decieved
why can't it cease?

My selfless heart
is not that smart
as selfish acts
tear it apart

I want to save
the lands and waves
but I'm not brave
I'm my own slave
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