"How it used to be"

Deja vu is coming back to me.
Memories of how it used to be.
Hugs, laughs. That used to be past.
Laying in the grass. It's all coming back.

Friendship re-rolling, tapes replaying.
Ignoring what the voices in my head are saying.
I'm scared that history will repeat.
I'm scared it'll go back to how it used to be.


"Friends?"

Pinch myself, but I know I'm awake.
Brace myself for another heartbreak.
The shivers on my spine, I simply can't shake.
Is this real life, or is it all fake?


"It All Worked Out"

It all worked out,
In the blink of an eye.
It all worked out,
And I want to cry.

It's a happy ending,
It feels like a dream.
It's a happy ending,
And I want to scream.

Water trickles down the stones in streams.
A girl lies dead, her body cold and weak.
Shallow wells are deeper than they seem.
They drown the ones you never thought would sink.

You're my lovely little sisters-
Even not by blood, it's true.
And words cannot express,
The love I have for you.

Three words have never meant so much.
Three words I cannot say.
Three words have made me cold to the touch,
Three words I'll never say.

Confined in a corner, trapped in my own mind.
Lost in a labyrinth, that no one can find.
Voices shouting, ears ringing.
People staring, eyes stinging.

Drowning in claustrophobic despair,
Screaming but there's nobody there.
They all say yes, and I say no.
Oh, why can't you just let me go?

It's dark in here.
It's cold out there.
I feel afraid.
I feel scared.

My eyes can't see.
My ears can't hear.
Don't let me out.
Don't leave me here.

People poke and **** and shout in my ear.
But I don't feel a thing, and their screams I don't hear.
For, numbness comes after hurting too much.
And you simply become numb to the touch.