Absence
Makes the heart grow
Fonder
What about my mind?

I've lost connection
You are gone
I can't feel you
Reach you

I feel so **** lost
I hate this part of me
Dependent
Needy

I don't want to
I can't
Need
You

But once again
I can't help
But reach out
For you

I'm not special
My eyes
Just brown
Not light
Or dark

Your wall
Won't come down
I don't
Mean
Enough

A world created
In my mind
A place where
Not only was I yours
But you were mine

Head trauma
Must have occurred
Hallucinations
Fill my brain
I see them only when you speak

Busted thing
My heart
Idiotic
My mind
Body betrays me

You
Made
Me
Hope.
I die.

Depression crushes
Breaks me down
What can I do
Just
Bury me now

Push
The walls
Come down
Shutters
Over your eyes

Step back
You don't need,
Me,
Feelings
They make you weak

Shut down
Close up
Be silent
Cold
Again, I am alone

Blank,
Dead,
Empty,
Your eyes

Look
At
Me
I die

Break
Me
Down
You lie

All
I
See
Your eyes

I am
Says my heart
Wait!
It stutters,
His

My eyes
In my head
Have noticed
A man, No
Not him

I search
Him?
No
Not his!
They cry

Finally
In the corner
A boy, my age,
Quiet, shy, sleeping alone
My heart saw you

I am
His

My lover is (relax... Breathe)
the black rage
That dwells
In my stomach's pit (breathe. Keep it in)

My lover takes (my breath away)
My love
But can't
Return it (won't)

My lover is (the breath)
The ache, (in my lungs)
The pain (letting me know)
That screams from my soul (I am alive)

My lover gave (me air)
My life to me.
Life is not lived
Without breathing
(Breathe in....
Sigh.... You're here.
Now... I can
Breathe)