You swam in the ocean of tears.
You stayed in the forest of death.
You ate the fruit of hatred.
You killed the one of love.
You spoke the words of hell.


Kept all of the tears in one place.
Protected the nature of death.
Kept eating all hatred.
You killed the one that you love.
Only you can bear the words from hell.

Take my heart and keep it for a little while.
I trust you not to crush it before time.
You did it anyway and crushed me with it too.
But it kept beating for your sake and my addiction.


I was sad.
The only emotion I had left.
You took my love and used it on someone else.
I’m empty, I’m dying, I’m never gonna use my heart again.


I used the rejection to see the red blood, warm and beautiful.
Dripping down, rushing down like on a rainy night.
Making pools of blood I could drown in.
I had abandoned love for my own sake.


My heart is never gonna beat ever again.
I used all of my own love for my addiction, that I started using yours.
But I’ve stopped, I should’ve been happy instead of hurt.
I’ve been suffering, I need someone to love me again.


Love, Love, Love.
It’s the only thing on my mind.
I’ve searched everywhere for someone to use.
To put me back in my normal state.


You killed my feelings forever.
You used me, like I used you too.
Emptied me from all there were left to use.
I’m me, but rotten and dead inside.

I’m slowly breaking apart.
Missing piece after piece.
Disappearing into nothing.
Seeing my happiness fading.


I’m dead inside.
My feelings is nowhere to be found.
I'm searching after them.
Getting lost on the way.


I don’t know where I stand anymore.
I can’t seem to find the light at the end.
The path I’ve been walking seems so familiar.
It’s a new path, but an old memory.


I’ve created a way for others.
Someone have to walk first to mark a way.
When I get through it, I can guide the others.
So no one can get lost when searching again.


My mind is filled up with thoughts.
Coming from my long lost heart.
I feel warmth and a little relieved.
I know where to go.


I can finally come home.
It’s open, and welcoming me with a smile.
I ran as fast as I could before it would close.
Just as when I got there, it disappeared.


I fell to the ground.
Just sitting with nothing on my mind.
I’ve forgotten why I thought it were real.
No one would ever welcome an abandoned soul.

I'm now on a trip alone.
Going to the end of the world.
The gate only opens for those already dead.
This will be my last time seeing your face again.

I’ve wanted to say sorry for everything I've done to you.
But not even a single goodbye could find its place between us.
I felt nothing as I drove past you.
I didn't even look, I wanted to but I couldn't.

I'm now on my way so I can wait for you.
It's gonna be a long time waiting for someone you didn't even want to love.
I only felt the warmth of my thoughts when thinking of you.
But I couldn't find a place for you in my heart, only in my mind and imagination.

As I look out the window in the bus, I only see death.
As I look at my own reflection I see myself crying, hurting myself till I close my eyes and just fade away.

It was my life I saw in my reflection of the so sad looking window.
As I look down I see my future under my feet, black  and nothing.
It's under my feet because I crushed it and left it to never see light again.

I'm at the destination soon, just thinking about wanting to see you again before I leave.
I desperate called your name and broke out of the bus that worked as a barrier to my heart.
I ran and ran just thinking how much you mean to me.
I really needed you, all this time I didn't notice my feelings was trying to break the distance between us.

I wanted to tell you everything about how I feel, I wanted to hear your mouth say it too.
I'm still running from my death, the time wasn't right.
As I got to where I left you, I saw you standing and just waiting for someone, me.
I stopped up and tears rolled down my face, you kissed me and said “I'll always wait for you”.

The kiss I've wanted for such a long time, I finally got it, It feels too good to be true.
“I love you in life and in death” were the words I only could say, “I already know” were the words that you said.
Let's never let death and life separate our love from our hearts.
We need to know what we really feel or else you'll regret every little thing you didn't do.

I'm writing my feelings down,
to let people know how it feels to be me.