I know
I accepted a long time ago
That I'm not good enough
But I'm working on it
For myself
So just wait and watch
As this unlit match
Burns an entire forest
With one stroke across the emery
Let them all wonder
How to put out the flame
That would tear down anyone
Who stood in the way
Of her self victory

I'm not saying I hate you,
I'm just saying that if I could watch you die under my heel and face no consequences
If I could watch you beg me for mercy
While I read aloud everything you said to me
I would, darling.. ♥

Remember that little girl?
So happy-go-lucky
Would do a little twirl
In her fluffy pink princess dress
Never had a reason to get upset
Well I'm sorry to say that she's long gone
Ran away
Now the girl that took her place loves dusk and dawn
That little girl is dead
Are you proud of what I am?
Are you proud of what I've become?
The little girl who acted like the morning sun
Look at the monster she is
Let her voice raise cause she can't keep it inside any longer
The little girl you once knew is no longer

Used to help her parents with everything
A hug and a kiss
An "I love you"
She never felt anything but happiness
So darling what happened that year?
What made the reality of the world become oh so clear?
I'm sure everyone remembers her
So clearly
Look at what she's become
This monster has become an eclipse
Blocking that morning sun

Look at the world they've created
Now I think they seem to hate it
As she'll march along
Trying to still be strong
She'll wear her big brave face
But inside that little girl is asphyxiated
What happened?
Do you miss her already?

Naive little girl
Saw nothing wrong with the world
Grew up to be
The one who's writing this poetry

Remember that little girl?
So happy-go-lucky
Would do a little twirl
In her fluffy pink princess dress
Never had a reason to get upset
Well I'm sorry to say that she's long gone
Ran away
Now the girl that took her place loves dusk and dawn
That little girl is dead
Are you proud of what I am?
Are you proud of what I've become?
The little girl who acted like the morning sun
Buried deep within the deepest parts of me
But I haven't forgotten her, please just trust me
I won't let you down
Are you proud of who I am?
Are you proud what I can do?
I'm sorry about the little girl they all once knew

I've come to discover
That maybe it's better if I'm alone
I'll hate it
It'll just be a copy and paste
Some day my smile will be like the sun beaming from my face
Then I'll go back to wallowing in my own self-deprecation
You won't be able to keep up the pace
I'll push you away
You can try and stay but there's no guarantee
You'll probably up and flee
For your own safety
Which I understand
So I'll stay in my own little world
Up in my ****** up head
I'll lay in bed
And think of what could've been
As I feel my past sin
Corrupting my soul
Losing my happiness temporarily
As a whole

I think she's over you
Whether or not it leaves you black and blue
She's returning the favor
She's just doing the same to you
So listen here's what she'll do
She'll listen to you talk
As she crosses her heart
Never to be with you again
You left her hanging there
Her hands cold and bare
Stomach all in knots
She stared as you walked away
With another lovers hand in yours
As the rain poured
Now you're back for more
There won't be anymore tears for her to pour
Over you
I guess you can understand
When her heart is empty
There used to be plenty of love in there
You left her watching
You and someone else
Hand in hand
I think she's over you
What else is she supposed to do?
She won't be crawling back
Anymore
Like she used to do
This is what you made her do
Heartless yet kind
This will forever
Stain her mind
She'll never trust as easily as she once did again
She's left looking back on where it began
And where it all was to end
I think she's mostly over you
Still may cry some tears
But what else is she supposed to do?
You gave her so much to remember
This isn't over
She won
I won
Now just press send.

I'll sit and watch the sunset
By myself
Wishing you were here
I'll sit and cry alone in the dark
Wishing you could hear
What you have done to me
All the pain and suffering
Took me by the hand, leaded me into wonderland
Just to kick me out
Laugh in my face
Again and again
Why must I think of those who never think of me?
Why must I remember your face so vividly?
If you don't love me then what's the point
I'll try and go on though
Without your hand to hold
Thanks for giving me your heart
Though it was temporary
I'll watch the sunset alone
Cause I can no longer call you my home

i dont know whats wrong with me
the thought of you with someone else
makes my stomach turn
makes me want to cry
but i say i don't love you
i don't want to date you
i don't want to date anyone
so why do i want you to only
look at me that way

I have this fear
Of not being good enough
Ever since he left
Put my happiness in debt
I'm scared of letting anyone in again
I want you to fall for me just like I fell for you
But in truth, perhaps I'm too broken for you
I don't wanna confess
In case it becomes a mess
So I'll just sit by myself and think about how I'll die silently crying for help

I will breathe
I will run
You guys go
Have your fun
I'll stay here
In my own self-pity
Until maybe something could fix me
My mind
Is a hurricane
My soul
It'll never leave
My heart
So many stitches
So many wounds
But it still will beat
I'm stronger than I know
Though I don't really believe it
I've made it this far
Sometimes I don't really know if I could take it
But I go
I go on
Until maybe I find someone
I am strong
And I know it
Maybe my depression will leave me
If I post it