Reaching new peaks,
The mind will resolve to revolve around thoughts for leagues.

Reaching new depths,
The mind will absolve to evolve for becoming a new creature.

"Go deep," she said.
Gliding her fingers across my hand.
Where do I start?
How do I begin?
Well I guess with any mistake, it began when I finished my gin.
I thought about heading to her place,
Even through the cold and rain.
But I hesitated when I pictured her face
Staring back at my intoxicated pain.
I would have heard it all before.
Her words of disgust and how I'll never change.
And then I'll plead and tell her I'll never be the same.
Then I thought what I'd go home to.
A room full of **** and empty tins of chew.
So I decided to say "**** all this." And step back out into the rain,
And into the abyss.

I hurt myself again today,
To see if I still feel pain.
The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting ,
Try to **** myself again,
But it's just another fail.

What did you become?
My sweetest friend,
Everyone I love, dies and goes away
In the end.

you left me it all,
In our empire of dirt,
you killed yourself, you let me down,
you made me hurt.

I wear this crown of thorns,
my self destruction affair,
Full of broken thoughts,
That I cannot repair.

Beneath the stains of time,
They said that The feelings would disappear,
You are dead and gone,
But I am still right here.

If I could start again with you,
A million miles away,
I would keep you so safe,
I would find a way,
To make sure that you stayed.

Why wasn't I good enough to save you from destruction?
I pray for the rain,
Are you up there?
Do you listen?

They say that if you **** yourself,
You will be sent to hell,
But God, were you an angel,
Beautifully, brokenly, emptily impelled.

Oh let me sink to the depths of sleep
Where no birds sing and no bugs creep

Let me drift through that endless ocean
Feeling neither pain nor emotion

Let me tumble through that abyss
Craving neither wealth nor a kiss

To sweet oblivion let me sink
Where I still breathe but do not think

Where eons pass like before I was born
And there is neither approval nor scorn

Oh let me to the womb return
Where all my knowledge I'll unlearn

Please let me like the sunset fade
To where I was before I was made

A butterfly flutters through the streetz,
Above the dried bloodstains;
Its wings bat away toxic breaths
Perverse and untamed.

A butterfly flutters through the streetz—
Great beauty of little worth.
Through tear gas, dodging bullets
With wings like the Fellbeasts of Middle-earth.

A butterfly flutters through the streetz,
No smile, no glance, no words to speak.
It wipes away a child's fresh tear
As it passes by its cheek.

I closed my eyes yet it kept haunting...
All my hopes were shattered yet it kept reckoning..
I was numb yet the desire kept burning...
The moment I gave up , Destiny Smiled..
As it paved a way for something better..

:) Never loose hope, The moment you feel everything is over , Life will take a  turn leading to a new way.. Cheers to Life :)

i'll just
sit here
and smoke
the memory
of you
into ash