I. Still. Love. You.
My heart is yours.
Take it. Keep it.
Its ridiculous you can shatter it
Yet I wanna give it to you
I deserve more but *******
I want any kiss
Any touch
I can get.
Same girl
Same miss
Same poem
Break me

I am the water
that falls
from your shower head
caressing your body
before
dropping
onto the bathtub floor
I get pulled
towards the drain
and
******
down

I am the ***
hanging on the rack
above
your stove
knock me on accident-
I will
fall
to the ground
breaking the silence
of the night
with the loudest
bang
I will wake up
your entire
household
as I plummit
down

I am the driftwood
floating along
this river
bumping
into rocks
and debris that
the current takes me through
I have reached
the peak of the waterfall
you will hear the roar
as I come
crashing
down

I am the skin that sags
around your *******
as you get older
you
curse me
every time
you look in the mirror
I am the cause
of your insecurity-
where you put the blame
for your marriages failure-
wrinkled
skin
being
pulled
down

I am the ship
with a ruptured
side
my buoyancy
broken
as I start to
tip
towards certain doom
the families and
lives
of the souls aboard me
realize
their fate
and show their true,
human
nature
as we
sink
towards the ocean floor-
as we
sink
down

wouldn't know
life
without it

gravity

bearing it's
pressure
force
attraction
inescapable
******* me
towards her
never leaving
no matter
how much
I beg

always
taking me
down

My tuberculosis infected heart
spits blood
and
stays away from light
lives in humidity causing fungus growing
In my inside.

My tb infected heart caughs from all its holes
at night
it never sleeps
nevear eats
it's lost it's appetite for people and joy
and laughs

My tb infected heart will die soaked
in smoke
they'll burn its bed, its clothes
every crumble of feelings
and I will be left naked
with blood stains on my skin

My tb infected heart
lives in isolation
between walls of mirrors reflecting
the misery of my mind
It lives in fear and shame
hungrily waiting for death to come
for them to burn its bed.

Another day
     to wonder
if vows
pledged
       last night
will
withstand the
  coming light,
if they will
sprout
limbs & rise
with me in
this
      reality or
if they
will fade,
     grow pale,
shrink back 
      into dark,
never to enter 
     this world
& make their
    mark

I had nothing to lose
Till I met you
I have everything to lose

I want to feel your warm words in person,
I want to feel them touch my heart while
I'm standing beside you, the way that they
do when we're miles from miles apart.

Even though we're not close in distance,
you're holding my heart in your hand even now.

I did my best,
You made my heart burst inside my chest
But when it was all said and done,
You decided it would be better if you were gone
I've bled more than I've cried.
When you left a part of me died.
I know it's hard moving on.
And you caused me so much pain, but I kept hanging on.
You made me feel like I was a better me.
You helped me escape from all the insanity.
I told you all my secrets, my thoughts and fears.
and all you left me were tears.
I did wrong but I wanted to do right.
But now I find myself, alone and awake at night.
In this life, only so much love comes along
And I will never believe
That loving you was wrong