There is a longing . . .

A longing for your touch,

A longing for your embrace,

A longing to see you and tell you once again

how much I love you,

A longing for your love,

A longing for your care,

A longing for the concern which can only

come from you,

A longing for the depth of warmth you bring;

A longing to begin the rest of my life together with

you.

ผมรักคุณ ครับ Nattida Liyeekay ❤

most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.

but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.

instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"

by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sadness.

Your naked body
Pressed on mine
We kissed

I thought that
I should feel
Something

Thrill, euphoria
Lust, love
Or bliss

But no
I felt
Nothing

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived

Go ahead
hold me a little longer
than usual.
You say to me,
without using any
words at all,
"it should have been me,
its still me."
Like i don't already see
those sky blue eyes
every time i close my own.
Because we're still holding
on to god knows what.
Because it is you
and it will always be you.

it’s official—
i hate being alone.
this isn’t a poem
but
it’s words
i needed to say

I am getting old,
But still my family and friends  say I should enjoy life,
Travel the world,
Socialise,
Do voluntary work,
Join a club,
But I have done all that,
Now, I want to live my life my
way,
I want to relax and take it easy,
Doze in a rocking chair as and when I wish,
Sit in my comfortable sofa in front of the T.V. ,
And watch all my favourite series,
With jars of mix nuts, chocolates and sweets on a side table,
Sit idly reminiscing sweet memories,
Chat for hours with my friends on WhatsApp  and mobile ,
Enjoy and bond with my grandchildren.
I want time for myself,
Which I never had bringing up my children, running the house and working and travelling.