Feelings of betrayal time and time again
All of your hatred & dishonesty is resulting in immense pain
I have thoughts that I can’t detain
You wouldn’t wanna know what’s happening inside of my brain

I gave you heartfelt honesty but then I lost your trust
Our relationship getting buried away until there is a large amount of dust

I felt like I had been stabbed in my back with a razor-sharp knife
How long until I get betrayed another time?
I guess breaking a person’s faith is a way of life
Without the way you’ve played Judas then there wouldn’t be a rhyme

Let me remind you of which line you crossed
How much do manners and respect cost?

Why do I feel so trapped in my mind?
Why do I feel that the world would be better off if I died?
Why do I feel like I’ll never be enough?
Why do I feel that I’ll never be loved?

My conscience ***** me around
I don’t want to die, I’m longing to feel very alive
Holding on to memories of laughter, enchantment and delight
Wondering if I’ll ever win this fight?
Will I ever have a happy ever after?

I can’t recollect the last time I felt truly blessed
I lost sight of what was realistic
For many years my mind has left me believing that I’m possessed
I feel incredibly pessimistic


I just crave for a life where I feel adored
I wish I wasn’t drowning in my mind
I hope all my happiness and faith can be restored
I wish depression wasn’t so unkind.

When life is challenging, I no longer want to die.
Instead, I sometimes want to escape and fly.

Watching the waves drift by
Hoping you’ll always be by my side
Our love is as strong as the way the moon controls the tide.

30 years have gone by
Since the devastating day of 15th April 1989
96 shining stars we view in the night sky
The day where rivalries draw a line
Back then the system gave Football fans injustice
Hoping and protesting for true justice
Years of failings from the police
Longing for justice so the 96 can rest in peace
The fans were never to blame
Liverpool will continue lighting the eternal flame

I remember when you said I’d be yours forever
Suddenly the forever turned out to be never
You shot me so far down and I initially struggled to reach the top

I gained knowledge after the relationship
Knowledge of how I was under somebody’s whip
I honestly felt like I was losing my breath from asphyxiation
From that moment, I knew I had to try my hardest to stop myself from future manipulation

After a year and a half of heartbreak and hopelessness
I eventually ended up in truly loving arms
I’m no longer a piece on a board of chess
No more false alarms
For now, my relationship is as gleaming as an elegant sparkling red dress

You’re sweeter than a gummy bear
You’re extremely unique, special and rare.
I love you with all my heart, showing I really care.

My feelings for you rapidly grew
When I’m not with you I’m greatly blue
What I wouldn’t do to be in between your arms cuddling you
Feeling a sense that’s so brand new.

They consistently remarked for me to glance up at the stars and make a wish however when I wish to be adored and beautiful like her it never fing works.
Never fing works
Never ever f*ing works
Guess it was all a lie but so is my life, wake up daily wishing I wasn’t alive, wishing I was elegant and content but that wish is never granted.

Believe 💫

What if I listened to everyone?
What if I carried on being the black sheep?
Always felt like I was going to get shot by a gun
One day I overcame this crucial heap

I could have sat in the corner
Staying controlled by my disorder
I had the strength to go against
what I was perceived to not be capable of
No longer sitting on the fence

Even if I don’t reach the highest height
I still gave plenty of powerful fight
I could have listened to what people thought I’d be
Used my wisdom as a key to unlock all the  massive amounts of potential in me

Today I feel exceptionally proud because
What if I carried on living life in a grey cloud?

Do you ever glance into the mirror and disapprove of what you see?
Despising your body, face, your bruises and your scars.
Have you regularly wanted to be something you can’t be?
Do you ever dream  of having a life of being accepted and free?

You should start by telling yourself you’re strong, loved, free and my scars won’t define me.

I felt as though I needed to change to be accepted by others
My entire personality was trapped under covers
Constantly hiding my true colours

I never asked to be an outcast
I wished my feelings could be on a broadcast
To compare our massive contrast
And to overcome the past

The life I lived was little white lies
One day I soared through the magnificent skies
Showing no sense of demise
Until I became increasingly wise.