Lady night offers her generosity
as the stars twinkle in syncopation for me.
Shadow-clad silhouettes...
Their gaits mysterious.
The night lights trail into the depths of my eyes.
Burning away the seconds, so effortless.

The quietness...
Willing forth dishevelled reflections...
Of unkempt emotions.
Allowing a barrage...
Of thoughts and notions that span
over night and day.

So that they could...
Be conveyed through paper and screen.
So that I could...
Share with you what I intimately mean.
The unforgiving onslaught of ideas and feelings
I bravely conjured...
But too afraid to say.

I am not beautiful
I am just a symbol of destruction
So I beg of you,
Just put me out of my misery
and throw away the memory.
Tear me down
like you tore down my hope
throw me out in the ocean
and cut the rope.
Now say goodbye.

I wonder if God
    sees our numbered
breaths, how many
     have been & how
many are left,
millions of digits
    shifting above
our heads;
the old woman
 on the park bench
        with just 500 left. 
The jogger with 100
   between now &
        tonight when he
will exhale
     for a final time.
I should scale mountains,
         stare at the sun
  make my amount
  count, every last one.

open the golden gates
   of wonderland
skate upon
   viscous dreams
and the unending road
   of unkept promises

will you join me?

keep me company
as we ride a broken roller coaster
that ends
with us sailing
into an ink stained sky
dabbled with white-out
stars

we'll look up in wonder
knowing we can't fall
we won't fall
and we'll continue to sail
   far far away
trailing the breath of god
   bouncing on clouds

              laughing

embracing the satisfaction
of living an imperfect
life.

time takes it's toll
and changes become
evident
i wish to blur
my reflection
but my eyes won't
deceive
and the acceptance
that hovers 'round my soul
doesn't come
easy.

May only best wishes and praise
Come streaming your way
On this your 60th Birthday

HAVE A GREAT DAY.......... HELL, HAVE A GREAT YEAR

Good and evil rage inside of me daily
                It's normal, I know
But the collision between the two is loud
             So loud, it torments me
  I'm afraid that evil will gain full power
            And I'll be fine with that

It's unexplainable
The hurt I feel
The hole that formed
Or the pain that rose
Can someone save me
From me
My thoughts
My fears
My miseries
I need to need
I want to sleep
Or just to forget
Forget I am me
And you are you
Forget the world turns
That the pain envelops
Wraps me up
Nice and cozy
Pain is addicting
Sadness is numbing
Day not in sight
It can't be too late
Seek me
Love me
Save me
God please send me
Help

I tried consoling the universe when it heard of your woes
But instead it filled space with raging black holes
 
I tried convincing the stars to illuminate your path
But instead they dimmed, in fear of your wrath

I tried asking Saturn to bring you joy by gifting you a ring
But instead it refused, knowing that happiness to you it wouldn't bring

I tried consoling the universe when it heard of your woes
But instead we cried because for us, your love no longer grows