Robby: Favorites

Nov 2019 Robby

CallMeVenus

My bipolar
Plays dress up
And I am the model

My bipolar loves me
Until I feel stress and anxiety
Crawling under my skin
And my heart hurts
I feel it getting old and tired

Mania leaves me empty in a black hole that turns out to be my bed
I sink
And there is nothing I can do
But wait for mania to come back

They say that out of all of zodiac
Gemini's are most likely to be depressed and anxious
I was born on 28th of May

#bipolar #mania #hurt #depression #sadness #anxiety #heartache #emptiness

Nov 2019 Robby

Trapped

Nov 2019 Robby

Joshua

Trapped

I need to get you out my mind,
before I fall in love with you.
Because I know, you won't love me back.

Nov 2019 Robby

Relapse<Recovery

Nov 2019 Robby

Destiny

Relapse<Recovery

Where do I begin?
I've managed to be in "ReCoVeRy" for a while now.
I think. . .

R-eally?

E-xhausted!

C-ontrol?

O-bscene!

V-iolence?

E-nergy.

R-elapse?

Y-EP!

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I was told that recovery meant progress, when really is just means I'm weak!

I was told that things would get better, when really they just s-e-e-m better!

I was told to just have faith, even if it meant insanity!

I was told to smile, which really just hurts at this point!

I was told to hang on, but my palms are getting sweaty and I'm about to fall!

I was told to pray, but GOD CAN YOU HEAR ME!

Nov 2019 Robby

Nightmare

Nov 2019 Robby

Kymie

Nightmare

Consider the darkness in full measure -
Impenetrable and suffocating;
Both protection and prison.

Wrap it around you
And feel the pressure of your fear;
the familiar peace of the terror.

Swallow your screams
Before they break the night air.
Close your eyes
And breathe in the disorientation.

Accept that this is where you live
in the small hours of the night;
Know that there is no escape
from these monsters that live inside you.

01NOV2019

#nightmares #dreams #guilt #depression #ptsd #alone

Oct 2019 Robby

Cutting

Oct 2019 Robby

Kymie

Cutting

Broken souls make broken skin - a visual confirmation that the pain inside is real.

The sting of the blade dulls the ache of the tears - matching the outside to the inside - a comfort to sanity in a time of tenuous stability.

It’s not about dying. It’s about peace. It’s about remembering the storm you survived and knowing you are strong enough to do it again.

#cutting #pain #survival

Oct 2019 Robby

Why I write

Oct 2019 Robby

Akshay

Why I write

These words are for me,
For I'm the one who's hurting,
I'm just healing myself.

I often wonder why we can't understand other's poems sometimes, but deep down it is the one who writes it knows the value of it.

#words #poems #healing

Oct 2019 Robby

Love from afar

Oct 2019 Robby

Nina

Love from afar

You're not mine to keep
But that won't stop me from loving you
So I'll keep on loving you
From a distance
Watching you
From afar
Praying
And hoping
For the best that you'll do
In life
And your future
I love you
Always

#love #distance #longdistance #ldr #relationship #breakup #stillloving #patience

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