I feel like I'm drowning and no one can save me
I feel like I am screaming but no one can hear me
I feel like I am falling but none is there to rescue me
do you feel what I feel or is it just me
no one understands
no one gets it
no one loves me
no one feels the way I feel
no one gets me
no one knows me
but sometimes you have to let someone in so they can get to know you
from the way I talk to the way I walk god made me for a reason and I am living the best I can and we all have a purpose one day and we all have a reason to stay
sometimes holding on hurts more than letting go
sometimes crying is better than laughing
sometimes someone not being around is better than them being around and hurting you
and sometimes life is hard but it's just a battle that leads to a victory
I gave you all had to lose
my soul my heart my finest Jul
I lowered my walls so you could break them
for what? for you to hurt me again
I thought you were better than the others
but I thought wrong
this what I get for thinking and not knowing I guess
you taught me not to trust people so easily
so now people have to gain my trust which I should have done in the first place.
so now that I think of it you taught me a life lesson so thanks
sometimes you getting hurt is for the better
it's not always happy in my eyes
it's not always happy in my head
but I put a smile on and go through the day
fake it till you make it am I right
people always say they want a perfect life, a perfect love story
but I just want a life that is worth living for
you can take a picture of yourself and people will think you are the happiest person on the planet
when really its the opposite
you are crying behind closed doors
you can fule someone buy not saying one thing wrong
so when you think someone's life is perfect think about the things you don't see
I ran back to you because I missed you.
I ran back to because I didn't want you to be sad.
I ran back to you because I thought it was my job to protect you.
I couldn't keep my word that I would stay away because I was terrified to hurt you.
I couldn't stay away because I thought I was letting you down.
I couldn't stay away because I wanted to show you that I was trying to be perfect for you.
I learned that I was so much happier without you.
I learned that I didn't have to be perfect for you.
I learned that it wasn't my job to protect you.
I am happy without you.
I am me without you.
I am allowed to be without you.
Despite the fact that this sounds like I miss some intimate boyfriend or girlfriend relationship, this is about my mom and the relationship I will never have with her.