Alone, my familiar home, with only my thoughts to keep me company
Four hours ago, everything was lovely with you beside me
I revere your essence, your presence, your grin coupled with your laugh of delight

Each night working together, my fondness for you flourishes, it nourishes my soul
One evening it almost slipped, during one of our quips, but I bit my lip
In fear not to lose a glimmer of potential friendship

I like the way your skin glistens in the fluorescent glow from above
You have me misted to the point I wish we could share kisses
Another lost one

Trying to hide inward feelings, leaves me with scars buried inside
Attempts to take it in stride, abide by self-imposed rules
Tools used to contain inane thinking

By Axton Rupp

On the corner of lonely & sad
South of everything he wanted to be
Just west of love & happiness
Sits a man that often thinks of when he was a boy
Silently smirking about the ambition he once had
Smoke billows from his mouth as puffs with no pass

Looking into the sun until a cloud covers its rays
It begins to rain but he stays while others run away
No fault to them the clouds lack silver linings

What's binding him to that spot?

He's lost with hateful thoughts
Numb to mocks from the flock on the outside
Inward is where it hurts the worst
Waiting for him to blurt out his sorrow
He merely continues to sit with his spliff

I wonder if each hit is a wish?

Love from a Miss, to hold hands with & kiss
His oldest wish
It's too foggy with that salty mist
Hidden from sight despite stature

When's the last time you heard pure laughter?

From him?

He's never happy only top up with apathy
Every day he sits on this corner
Mimicking a foreigner in a land he created

By Axton Rupp

Alone where silence echoes
Wind whistles through the holes in my heart
Saltwater saturates the soul
Relationships in ruins, smolder around me
Love evades leaving scars with its double-edged blade
Weary from stress, it leaves its sliver hallmark in my curly locks
Step outside myself & stand eye to eye
Unrecognizable is the guy in the reflection of my eyes

By Axton Rupp

I disguise my feelings with friendly words
Knowing the fight to tell my truth is absurd
Words mean more to me  whether they're said or written
I fantasize about telling you how smitten I am
These friendly feeling are a sham
My courage is on the lamb perhaps I'll find it in Uzbekistan?

Imagination has us gripping sand between our toes
Walking a coastline with a ruby sunset sky
Look at you with love reflecting from my eyes
No longer hiding behind my guise
No more lies to you or myself
Admit what I've fought I sought after your heart

The sun sets, the moon begets as it illuminates your skin
I begin with my words only to be hushed
One finger gently pressed on my lips
While your hand reaches for mine they become intertwined
With the one line…it's about time
She whispers with a wry smile

All the while, in reality, our friendship is a formality
Begging to end to make room for my new silent obsession
That will be another 6:48 AM writing session

By Axton Rupp

Why reach out when you won't reach back?
Lack of relationships leave me dismissive
Feeling misted by my emotions

A potent potion causing moments of over thinking
Step outside myself & stare without blinking
Blank is where my mind isn't but I wish my slate was

Sucker for love or the idea of it
The most harden person covets it at one point
Anoint a special someone to be blood of my blood

How many have I looked at longingly?
Only to become a bother & shunned
Love is not in my equation

I'm the sum of a square with no roots
Just tumbleweed stumbling in pursuit of self-truths
Looted myself of feeling anything except misery

Where is she? I'd counter where am I?
Nowhere in her sight
I stay hidden in a haze feeling sorry about my plight

It's, not my size it's my insides that cause women fright
I'm a losing battle saddled with sadness
Drowning in madness
I digress

By Axton Rupp