I contain her thoughts
Her secrets
Her sorrow
I harbor her sadness
Her loneliness
Her quarrels
I’m not just a poem
I am her refuge ... I am her hope ...

I took the last pill
reserve for this wonderful evening
until I can only feel
the stabilization that heal

as I stare upon the ceiling
I did recall the rhythm
of the hymn that you are singing
before you left me hanging

after you have left me,
I kept on finding
what love is really hiding
yet, I failed to kept on riding

Past keeps on winding
until an idea rewind it
everything I taught was eliminated
because of something that made me haunted

For all the things that I've done
For all the dreams that I have run
For all that I am for now
Because all along, it was only you.

for all this time I thought it was because I love you
But, it is all because I did all along.

so long, my tiger

The human condition
Is longing to take charge,
To make your own mark.
Make the world better,
Make the world brighter,
Shine in the dark.
But these days it's all I can do
To get out of my bed.
If I were the Chosen One
The good guys would be dead.

I'm mundane.
I'm ordinary,
There's no breaking out of this mold.
I could fight back;
Not take this lying down.
My life's spinning out of control.

The villans condemned
The heroes are sung
Their mem'ry goes on.
I fix up my coffee
I do what they tell me
I'm only a pawn.
I'm much too lazy and unkempt
To find where the action's at.
If I don't go out & find some friends,
I'm gonna die alone with my cats.

I'm mundane.
I'm ordinary.
There's no breaking out of this mold.
I could fight back;
Not take this lying down.
Put a stop to this rigmarole.

They make big discoveries
That become their legacies
Their sign on humanity.
I can't even function
Just living my own life
but I still have vanity.
All I want is to change the world,
to have my name be heard.
There are just so many dreams
But all my plans are blurred...

Because I'm mundane.
I'm ordinary.
There's no breaking out of this mold.
I could fight back;
Not take this lying down.
But I won't escape entropy's pull.

My life's spinning out of control.

I hope you won’t ever hate me the way my first love does
I can almost guarantee and that scares me
But it’s nothing I’m not used too
But knowing me and my always full heart
You probably will
But one sided love is all I’ve ever known
Even though you said you’d prove that wrong
I guess it wasn’t true after all
I take what people say to me and turn it into movies in my head
I take all sweet words and keep them
Keep them too write about
But mostly keep them to remember
To remember how being loved back felt like light
To remember how looking at anyone else will never feel like home again
You’ll only understand what I mean if you’ve seen it like I have
But maybe I’m just a light house of love
That will never dim
Maybe that’s the problem

(v.m)

I want my body to merge with yours.
Like a hot mess,
with our wax candle hearts
boiling over, coated in flame,
gasping for oxygen to keep burning,
I want to melt into you.

If only
I could die in the arms
Of a lovers’ soft gaze
My last breath
Kissing lost histories
I smile up
Towards the emptiness
She smiles down upon
An empty vessel
Yet as death takes my hand
I see with tears
Love
Existed