My lips said,
'Let's ride,'
Her eyes said,
'How far?'

beautiful as spring
my heart did sing
the moment of meeting you
you were the one in my dream

you bloomed into my life
became alive with love
i drowned in passion
you were sent from above

as the memories evolved
so did emotions
as blazing as summer
as deep as the oceans

but as the time went on
the light was going dim
our fire went out
with the ashes of sin

everything was changing
and so were you
abashed i was
our time ending soon

so the air turned cold
freezing with fright
alone i sat
as i thought through the night

our season was over
our love, elapsed
a new year has started
a new love has hatched

My mom once told me
"Looks can be deceiving,"
Is that why you smiled
As you were leaving?

We used to be in love,
You used to perfer me over anyone.
We used to be close,
We used to always be together.
But now,
You dont talk to me.
But now,
Your not the person you once were.
Your a killer,
Those butterflys i once had?
Yeah.
You killed them.
But truth is,
After everything,
After all this,
I still love you.

We are the girls who walk around with little bird bones,
rib cages ready to snap when we spread our wings and
fly away

and for my next act,
I shall disappear little by little until I am ash.

I’m not eating for four days or until
I can feel the ***** that is my stomach start to shrink

I used to refuse food for weeks
it amazes me how self-indulgent I have become

I am ready to eat spoonfuls of air
spin my hair into a models top knot and
know that water is a privilege not a right

a million screaming girls saying
“but im not hungry”
while a tiger flays their insides open at night

Kate Moss said "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"
and I suppose she is correct
What happens when you learn the tongue is a muscle not to be used

What happens when sustenance is no longer needed
When the mind decides
the very thing that keeps the body alive is a punishment

What happens when you refuse a necessity of being human

Do you ever just,
Get a dark empty feeling?
Like nobody cares anymore?
Like if tommorow morning,
Your dead,
Nobody would care?
The only people,
You once cared for,
Dont care anymore?
Lately, I havent been caring.

Razors cutting skin,
Blood dripping down.
What a waste,
Of a perfectly good wrist,
What a shame,
A perfectly good body,
All gone bad.
       j.b

I love being the one,
Who you ask to walk with.
I love being there,
When you leave me for him.
I love when i see,
You two walk away hapily.
I miss,
That being us.
         j.b