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Xan Abyss Oct 2014
Once upon a time...
You & I lived lives divided
Until by fate we were united
When we first lit the fire
Once upon a time
I would watch you from a distance
Desired you, but stayed resistant
To the Urges that would cloud my mind
with Wickedness, persistent

Your perfect fairy wings
Fluttered lightly in the wind
And though I did the best I could
My thoughts were wrought with sin
And I desired you like mad
For the Angel that I had
Left me burning despicably
With wretched flames within

And You
were so
Inviting.
Your Body
Ripe
for the Taking.

Guarded you were
Behind Gates of the Dragon
Yet I watched you intently
Plotting my Ransom
Waiting on the right moment to strike
To steal you away from your
Protected Life
And to take you back with me
Into my Cell
In the dark and abysmal cave where I dwell
To teach you the ways
Us Creatures gain pleasure
To make you my Slave
And to ransack your Treasures
And then came the day
That you broke away
From the Chains
That held you to where you were safe

I saw you
And watched you
and Stalked you
Intently
While you were out searching the world
Innocently
And then,
When you were finally in reach
And we were Alone
I snatched you away
from the flowers and reeds
And stole you back with me
into my home
A cold and depressing
Dungeon of Stone

Your protector was gone
And you were all mine
When we were alone
Lost somewhere in time
And to my shock, and utter surprise
You became the flame that lit up my eyes
And slowly but surely as days slipped by
I became yours more than you became mine

And then, you escaped
or did I let you get away?
You emerged from my cave
Beautiful, unscathed
I just couldn't bring myself
to be one you hate
When your love is so sweet
I just couldn't betray it

But then, I thought
of you out in the world
Alone
On your own
My sweet pixie girl
And I couldn't
JUST COULDN'T
Handle the thought
of a Monster like me
Dragging you through the mud
Coveting you
the way that I do
But most of All
Tasting your Love

Staying put was so much harder than
trying to be your Guardian
and Rescue you
and Shelter you
from any more Hate or Abuse

And now I see my sins
Led me out of the darkness within
Into the sunshine of your life -
Where I found the Source of Light
I needed to keep me alive
And I feel like I owe you my life

And now you're free from my Prison
but I guess, so am I, in essence
In the end, the Fairy
Showed the Goblin,
He longed to be a Prince.
An allegory straight from the heart.
  Oct 2014 Xan Abyss
Camellia-Japonica
I need no introduction.
I am seduction.
I lead you astray,
I let you play.
I bring satisfaction.
I need dedication.
I am Eve.
I am Don Juan.
I am Casanova.
I am neither male nor female.
I am ****** emancipation.
I am all that you want and more
Hear me moan,
better still hear me roar!
© JLB
10/10/2014
00:07 BST

"And if a man entice a maid that is not betrothed, and lie with her, he shall surely endow her to be his wife. If her father utterly refuse to give her unto him, he shall pay money according to the dowry of virgins."
Xan Abyss Oct 2014
You and I were tangled in the madness
Like insects in the spiderweb
Helpless Prey
for something that feeds on our suffering
Your Misery and Mine
Became hopelessly entwined
Until the blurs replaced all the lines
That we drew in the sand
When we first began
Our time in each other's lives

I was still a slave to my hate
Too bitter and sour to remember the taste of
the Honey of Love
Warmed in Passion and Lust
Until I saw you standing
In the settling dust

Your eyes are deep shadows
Who knows how far they go?
Oubliettes of old memories
You'd known long ago
The Juliet to my
Tortured Romeo
Your voice became a song
That would guide me home
when I was lost
And had nowhere to go.

And then... you faded
You faded away
You disappeared from my arms
Back into the Haze
into the Sun's hateful rays
And the sky was ablaze
til my nights became days
And everything turned to a thousand different shades
Of Gray
And that's where I stayed
Alone in my Cave
Burning in Solitude and Rage

But Yesterday
You may have Saved me
Because Today
I have this Strangely Amazing
Sensation
of Pure Elation
And maybe I've just gone crazy
But I think
that you Gave me
A new sense of sight
cuz Lady,
Where once my eyes saw only grays
Obscured by the flames of my internal blaze
Nothing fed my insatiable hunger
My Spirit raged at the plainness of lovers
You came along and you sang that old song
And now once again I see

Everything in Color.
This is about a very special friend of mine.
Xan Abyss Oct 2014
A scene too obscene to be believed
when it's seen
Like an acid trip intersecting with a *******
Where reality becomes a second thought
And you and I were caught
or maybe lost
in the crossfire of hungry hearts
I breathe you in whenever you're around
there's a code to my heart that unlocks with the sound
of your voice in a humorous shout
through the crowd
But what once was so loud
it shook me to the ground
burned so bright it may have burned out
the Chaos is Dead - All is Quiet now
And where there once was great noise
as joy did abound
is stricken with silence
like A Forest of Frozen Clowns
Matt Braunger gave me the title to express what's been happening to me lately.
  Oct 2014 Xan Abyss
MD
I screamed and called out
But no one seemed to hear
I was a child
Filled with fear

12 years old
There was a gun to my head
Where was my mom?
Do you think she'd believe me when I told her
The terrible thing Daddy did?

It's been many years
And I still live with him, my father
I want to scream and make him leave
But I don't even bother
It was so much pain I had suppressed
Why tear out the stitches?
I tell him that I love him
And I think I really mean it
He said what he did was out of love and fear
But it didn't seem to me
Like he was scared to shoot his daughter
  Oct 2014 Xan Abyss
Maddie Renee
My mother is my seamstress,
lapping around a genetic retail store,
she had 23 chromosomes to spend.
Knitting freedom’s peach fuzz fabric over the inseam of  muscles,
cross stitching stereotypes of blonde thread into the pores of a rounded scalp,
hot-gluing  privilege into blue eyes,
kneading the molds of a thigh gap between legs of the race that would shame its way to superiority.
I am white.
My mother was my seamstress,
she made sure the licks of discrimination didn’t scar my back.
Xan Abyss Oct 2014
'Be Concise,'
She said,
So that's what I did.
Does it get more concise than this?
Answer: yes, actually. That poem took 4 whole lines.
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