"ican" poems
I'm Feining For A Dose of
Methamphetamine.
I Know I Have successful Sobriety Days.
But My Thoughts Are Overwhelming Me Heavily.
And What Best Knowing iCan Take A Hit And Forget Everything. I'm Feeling So Low,
Drowning My Self in Guilt And Sorrow. Yes I Know Its Effects Arnt Forever lasting .
But My Heads pounding iJust Want To Feel The **** Flow Blast in.
How Long? How Strong?
Will I Give in or Will Reality Kick quick Which Do You Predict?
Scan Through My History,
Sadning Because My Minds Weak And Would Rather Tweak
Than Go Through it how I'm Supposed to.
Wouldn't Be The First time,
More Like it's the only option
I tend to want to see.
Because of what it brings,
An Easy Solution That will have me Loving its fascinating Pollution.
Deep in me I really don't want to abuse this,
But When I Feel So hopeless
My Mind blinds me on purpose
to reach the Dope Switch
And instantly want to turn to the substance
and use to get high to cope with.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 3:29 AM UTC
iUsed To Be A Dope Dealer .
**** Turned On Me, Now im The Dope Feind.
Mary Jane Used To Be My Main its
Insane, Now iGot Methamphetamine
iN My Veins.
& iDont Give A ****** **** iLove
Them Stronger Drugs
iDont Take Em To Avoid Problems.
iCan Solve Them.
iDo iT For The High & Them
Dialated Eyes.
Can You See That iM Krazie
****** Up Mentality Since The Age
Of 13.
iGet Twisted So My Life Can Look Unrealistic iGot That Sick Sober High
My Times Quickly Passing By.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 2:30 PM UTC
iWanna Run Away
For Bad.
iM Sad And iFeel Hopeless
The Only Thing That iFeel iCan Truly Feel Worth iT
is Dope.
iWanna Take A Hit.
iKnow il Feel Happy
Just if iGet Lit
iWanna Twist Just One last Time
Yes A Relapse
Thatll il risk
iKnow The Consequences
But this is it
iKnow il lose Everything once again but idk iF iHave Enough Heart
iLove, But Not Like iUsed to
This substance is
Powerful
Itll Take over
Its sour
iWanna use
And im getting closer to the point were i dont care if i lose...
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC
is it really so crazy
me wanting you & your baby?
i mean, is this reality?
the magnificence lost is sad to me...
i know not to blame now
i get no where that way but somehow
i take responsibility
for how my actions shook you into leaving what did i expect, yo...
our feelings is all we individually know
i mean, ican see how you MIGHT feel
from this end i pray one day you might heal
And i pray you reconsider too
that love overlaps me; a ***** into your boo
with you, i'll never let go of how i feel
because that brings me to a special place which gives my soul its seal
I'm keeping it
And a cold shoulder to anyone who threatens it
i am good alone i suppose
but with you it is when I feel i am whole
Peace
Love
Jun 23, 2016
Jun 23, 2016 at 6:37 AM UTC
People Assume iTs Addiction.
The Reason To My insane thoughts
And Actions, is because of
The Substance.
Saying iM Confused, Slurred out
Living unrealistic
Out of it.
Making Stupid Decisions
Saying They Can Help Fix Them
Oh Really? Well Your Wrong.
My Love For Dope is
Too strong and realistic.
Also Has The key To my Death Wish
Provides Me With
Everything iEver Wanted
Just iN 1Line 1hit.
iWill Continue Using This Drug till
IDrop Dead.
Dont Argue With Me Saying
"Thats What All Addicts Say"
Ican Stop but idont want to
iDont Fein For Tweak. Like iHave
Said A million times
And still noone comprehends
This is The Reason
Im Still living.
Found A Reason to love myself
Makes me happy
Without iT? Im rowdy Yes, its affecting My
Image, brain and body.
Dose iT Look like iGive A ****
iTs Killing me slowly
Thats the point
Idont want to live. So i chose a slow
Death.
People around me **** up
My high
Gets me upset cause i just wasted
A hit
That puts me in rage.
Point iS iWont Stop , nomatter what
You say.
Or type of treatment you think
Is best and have hope it changes me
me to not
Smoke dope. Nope! My mind is set
Dont you get it yet?
Never will iregret iCould careless
About my family relatives &
Friends.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 5:10 PM UTC
Sunshine
Smile Lovely, Love Kindly
Appreciate Your Surroundings And Take Advantage
Of The Help And support your
Being Provided
Just Like You'd Bust A Sweat To Pick Up, Risk and do thrill things
You Should be
Able To Accomplish Positive Things Quick
With That Same Effort And energy You'd Put in.
iCan Do iT. iCan Be Positive And Overcome Every Fear and stop my negative actions.
Time to be sincere.
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 11:53 AM UTC
I'm afraid of trips to the hospital
you know that.
I'm allergic to dogs, cats, and dust
of course you know that.
Something I can't bear,
but you live for.
It starts with a wheeze,
a trembling cough with no matter
andthenIpanic.
Fiddling through old pockets and and a glove box
ican'tbreathe.
I know you're somewhere close
wherethehellareyou?
Hiding in a pocket from yesterday
thankyoujesus.
Gripped firmly to my mouth
I give your silver top a hard push
AND THEN AT LAST
vapor fills my airways to ease the inhales
from my last cigarette.
A subtle sweet taste, like spray candy
mixed with cough syrup.
I hold for ten alligators so you can work in peace
as you navigate through swamps
of shisha and THC.
A thick fog I cannot see.
Ripping the mucus from my walls
making tar stuck to tissue seem like a lubricant
for a fire engine.
At last clean air.
A moment enjoyed for a minute.
One last puff,
and I'm not dead yet.
Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 7:11 PM UTC
i value myself in rib bones
and my beauty in the weight
of feathers
& in the morning i'll feel a little
thinner a little prettier a little more
o
kay
i weigh my strength in calories
{thefewerthebetter}
like the scale of Ma'at
if my stomach is emptier than water
then
ican go to heaven
Nov 19, 2012
Nov 19, 2012 at 12:52 PM UTC
Now I’m sitting here and Ican’t stop reminiscing or Could it be that I’m missing your love. I know that now you’re the biggest thing that I’m missing. I keep you in my mind yet I still can’t find where you and I went wrong. I kicked you out of my life, I really don’t know why but baby I’m really missing having you on mind not to mention your hugs and kisses now that I cant deny. You want back in my life,you want me to take my back decision and paint you back in my picture of love. You want back in but the questionis how can you and I last? When all you did is make me laugh and cry in the past.
Mar 3, 2010
Mar 3, 2010 at 6:46 AM UTC
I wanted to taint the pop song
Put a little black in it
So I wrote a song about you
The darkest thing I knew
But the Lyrics
Sounded Preachy
The Guitar
Sounded wrong
Is it just me
Or do you not belong
In my records
In my veins
My sheets
My blood
Because if I write about you
It's just a song about love
But What I wanted
Was a song
About
You
But If Ican't
Write a simple sonnet
In Your honor
Why should I have to
But up with your
Dishonor
In my rooms?
So as of now
I'm kicking you
Out
And writing
a song
about
That
May 28, 2010
May 28, 2010 at 2:52 PM UTC
Shaking
The ground is shaking and I can see
Your heart is breaking with every step I take
It's crazy
It's crazy how all of this has changed
So much between us
When I promise, I mean it
Hold your breathe baby
Hold it for me
I promise I'll be back before this all ends
There's a split in the ground
Beneath your feet
Please be careful, lovely
You're playing with fire the more you breathe
I'm sorry for this
For causing you're suffocating
I promise, I'll be there again
Hold your breathe baby
Hold it for me
I promise I'll be back before this all ends
Hold your breathe baby
Hold it for me
I promise I'll be back before this all ends
When I promise
I mean it
I promise I'll be back again.
Hold your breathe baby
Hold it for me
I promise I'll be back before this all ends
Shaking
The ground is shaking again
Ican see you fall inside
The cracks we have made
When I promise, I mean it
I'm back now
Im back now just in time to watch
You're suffocating
I promised, I'd come back
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 1:29 PM UTC
Teasers, itches wishin' scratches,
gentle dharma level reasons to be
attended to
now,
lest we forget
unget
ungiven sigils signifyin'finite
insignif-ican't sirs, if I can
sort the signal from the noise
-- pause, remember
watch something on the idiot box, oh yeah,
that reminds me,
here's the itch, that fully funcyanin' lie,
yellow and black warning with
magenta scars burn printed
RK Nexivm cult branded
pain proven acceptable
true children of pride,
humbling themselves,
to be the knowers
of the secret
meaning
brand name, rampaging stallion
roger out .-. -.- the code is RK okeh.
K being gone black, fade to black snappy,
tic click 256 shades from white to K
saturated all light absorbed,
out, black, night ink
itching to link
one thought to another,
peace of mind, itchless wonder
being the aim of artists intuition
given poetic licentiousness's final amen.
... now, I lay me down to sleep.
Dec 15, 2020
Dec 15, 2020 at 6:00 AM UTC
Dear my love,
Im writing this to you because you expressed how lonely you feel. Ican give you all the ups and downs about that but the one thing i cant fix is the past. Your not lonely because im still here helping you struggle through the pains of scumbag families and long lost friends. Im not going to be either of them.... yes i get mad but its because the thought of you leaving is like a hurricane sweeping away your whole life. Away.... to the depths of nowhere and the heights of life... remember when we first met, how i said i wish you were mine.... that's no longer a wish..... because i noticed having you is like a gift of life. If we were meant to be then you're going to stay. Til the day natural causes claims our lives. I love you
Yours truly,
Gone
Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 9:17 AM UTC
let's be pretty
inpurple
(your eyes)i'll
your throat(and
)how
about it?
with the nuzzling
of my love fist, baby?ican
make you pretty
,baby?and i
can kiss you,
dear.doyou
want it
?
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 11:17 PM UTC
I am blinding myself with thousands of thorns simply because i am willing to apply it for you
Nov 23, 2016
Nov 23, 2016 at 4:08 AM UTC
Don't even have to write ican just use telepathy for that purpose man
Aug 1, 2022
Aug 1, 2022 at 9:33 AM UTC
Since I found out who I am
I really gives a **** about uncle Sam
Watch how my tech slams
Never catch me in a jam
My lyrics make ya say ****
Did he just say that yeah I did that
Don't give a ****
I lay out my cheese
So Ican expose the rats
Work with bats to gats it don't matter we tryna up our stats
Thugs with tats imagine that
Black nation rising no longer disguising
We manifest our conquest
And y'all know the rest
Friends turn to foes I suppose
That's the way human nature goes
Can't please fuckaz I'm feelin' Like Danny Glover
Got these demons in the outfield
Posin' as angels watching from angles
Thinkin' I'm blind but yo i ain't hard to find
Yeah i ain't hard to find
Just look around
N you'll see me dark brown
A skinny ***** tryna up my figures
Outlaw immortal sick flow
There Mr Yosef go
Givin war only follow commando
Principles
I be the rap oracle so
Fools try to break into my circle
But I keep my **** concealed
Hidden all my fears
Shedded all my fears
For homies who gone are ain't
Gone be here next year
See I'm a prophet in disguise
Got wise opened up my eyes
Exposed to all the lies
Its like I took a bite of the forbidden fruit
But I had to know where troubles
Came from diggin' my roots
My history ain't start with no **** slavery I know the mystery
Is who the blacks are
Lookin' afar I see A glistening star
My ancestors are my protectors
I can feel it through my spine
Dig deep Fools cuz it ain't hard to find
Oct 20, 2017
Oct 20, 2017 at 10:17 PM UTC