"decorator" poems
"You're looking fit," she said, the words sliding off her tongue.
"Thanks. So are you."
It was a cold walk up to the oak door
and my nose was red from the wind.
Sun Meadow. That was her neighborhood.
A little optimistic for my taste.
Five, maybe six, people I graduated with lived on her street.
"Where are your parents?"
"Cayman Islands. They usually go somewhere tropical
after the holidays. I would've gone, but work... you know."
"Yup. No time for fun."
"You wanna smoke hookah?"
"Sure. What flavor?"
"Don't be silly; house mix, always."
She loved the "house mix."
It was a slightly overbearing concoction
of apple, banana, and melon flavored tobacco.
I ran my hand through my hair to dissolve the snow.
Her mom was an interior decorator, so I was surrounded
by obscure, obnoxious, and expensive trinkets from
God knows where.
I sat on a bar stool and watched her make the bowl.
Her moves had gone from graceful to inept
just as she had gone from goddess to **** in my mind.
She set the hookah on the bar and inhaled.
Then it was my turn.
It went on like that for five minutes or so
as she looked me up and down.
Every once in a while she would lick her lips
or lean forward to expose even just a centimeter more of her *******
"So who's the new ****
"Beg your pardon?"
"You heard me," she spat.
"My left or my right, depending on how many notes
I've taken that day."
"Ha ha, very funny. How long's that been the case?"
"A week or two. Maybe three," I quip.
"Restless yet?"
"That's all I've ever been."
Ashley was never tactful.
She showed her hand too fast, but she
bet so little it made no difference.
She was also never virginal.
People often romanticize their first time with stories
of secret escapes or innocent awkwardness.
I was never like that and Ashley appreciated the monstrous
control and possessiveness I wrapped around my *****
I took what I wanted, she told me.
She liked that, I guess.
She knew a couople girls I had been with--
they'd shared their "stories" with her.
Stories of how I'd ripped the innocence from them,
the thrill,
the wall slamming,
screaming,
cursing,
the painful entrance,
strength,
weakness,
and finally
the out-of-breath finish
where I left them feeling like rag dolls.
Or so I'm told.
She liked that.
Craved it, even.
So, I let her have it.
May 14, 2012
May 14, 2012 at 7:36 PM UTC
born 1900
when Austria was still a monarchy
that did not know
it was approaching its end
growing up as the daughter
of the mayor of a little district town
big fish in a small pond
educated accordingly
as a ‘higher daughter’
be a home decorator
do needlework
be a gourmet cook
play the piano
be a respectable member
of the community and the parish
when she turned 18
after the end of world war I
the social order for which she had been prepared
simply disappeared
her father became a disillusioned monarchist
the town’s republicans elected a new mayor
she married a railway engineer
who left her after her daughter
my mother
was born
she managed to survive world war II
as a single mother
watched her daughter
fall in love with, at Christmas 1946,
and marry in April 1947
a guy who had just escaped
from a Soviet POW camp
looked like a walking skeleton
my father
AND
was the son of a communist
who had survived world war I
as a POW in Siberia
strange bedfellows
they used to play cards together
once a week
with great gusto
class warfare
morphed into social entertainment
both my parents were working
grandmother led the household
on the side did bookkeeping for local businesses
to bring in some money
practically raised me and my brother
cared for us when we were sick
taught me to play the piano
was always afraid we would not get
enough to eat
for a while, as a little child,
I slept in the same room with her
and learned that she had
a wondrously melodious snore
going over an octave & some such
when, after grade school,
I had to leave at 5.45 am
to catch the train
pulled by a sturdy steam engine
that took me to the high school
50km down the road
she was concerned when I
rushing out the door
just grabbed parts of the breakfast
she had so lovingly prepared
when I left home for university
she was not happy
when I went to the USA for a whole year
she was disconsolate
she did enjoy her great-grandkids
when they visited, though
too much distance for too long
from the place of her birth
made her uncomfortable
in her later years
she needed a familiar place
that came with its familiar things
to do and know
she lived to be 87
I saw her last
after a second stroke
had mostly incapacitated her
a tiny woman
curled up
waiting to leave us
for a world that finally might heal
the pain and disappointment
she had so bravely mastered
throughout her life
Oct 14, 2016
Oct 14, 2016 at 6:50 PM UTC
Spatula and bourbon paint with blood,
In an attempt to woo Dracula’s mud.
Walking down an alley cat zoo,
Along came Sid with Captain Voodoo.
Painting, decorating, sanding and building,
Cleaning mountain goat’s spectacular guilding.
Given a job however dull and blue,
Being a decorator is what you should do.
Jul 16, 2010
Jul 16, 2010 at 2:39 AM UTC
On the day I enter your house
and find you crying
I will raze the roof
and replace it with stars
then out go the walls
and all you see
is the dolphins in their sea.
I will plant giant sunflowers
in the seams between the tiles
on your cold floor
and the dolphins will laugh.
When you are not looking
I will replace your television
with a tank of exotic goldfish
your computer with a cherry pie
and your crying towel
with a garland of lilies.
Before I am done
you will have no place
to hide your grief
for exposed
to my joy of loving you
there is no such thing.
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 6:57 AM UTC
~Bio-recycling biography
about nothing, really
Green Bin outside
the front door
yawning occasionally,
patiently waiting
for Friday;
big
Bio-recycling day.
City
of
Toronto,
metropolitan bio-by-law.
Green Boxes
of the neighbourhood
standing
like soldiers
on the sidewalks
of the metropolis
expecting professionals
to empty their insides.
Bones
cooked for hours
to make the best
chicken noodle soup,
the remedy for every ill.
Rotting remnants
of family banquettes,
over the whole week,
potato peels for the best
potato salad,
secret grandmother's recipe.
Egg-shell colour
colours the interior decorator;
last tomato of the season.
Pity,
spaghettini,
spaghetti
sauce
dreams.
Coffee grinds.
Stainless steel
espresso machine
sighs
******** fireworks
remembering
the coffee grinder.
Tangerine, orange peel
freshly peeled
still pines for Florida.
Stop yawning, Green Bin,
tomorrow
is Friday.
Oct 14, 2010
Oct 14, 2010 at 2:08 PM UTC
In my eerie little life
The buildings coated with graffiti
I saw the art in a new light
Because of someone interesting
A girl not much older than myself
Was arrested for an illegal mural
A painting of books upon a shelf
She signed to be seen by all
It wasn't hard for the police
To find the perpetrator
Her name in cursive for all to see
The name of this young decorator
I found her three days later
Painting again upon a fence
I asked why would she put her
Name for police then to trace?
She smiled broadly at me
And answered rather honestly
Because she simply refuses to be
"Living life anonymously."
Jul 15, 2015
Jul 15, 2015 at 1:22 PM UTC
The decorator said
- would you like a little touch up your back
passage?
Woman replied
- don't you think we should wait till you've re painted the hallway!
Oct 3, 2012
Oct 3, 2012 at 5:34 PM UTC
ICU Waiting Room in Advent
Artistic gilded deer repose in peace
Among the store-room-dusty plastic leaves
Of decorator-decorated wreaths;
From thence they gaze serenely down upon
Sneeze-spotted pics in People magazine
And empty coffee cups recyled from
Recycled natural fibers recycled
From green fair trade recycled soy inks.
No ikons grace this dying-place, no cross,
No crucifix to focus farewell prayers;
Christ’s people gather lovingly around,
Their baseball caps thrall-ringed about their heads
In devout remembrance of passing souls.
Their cell-phone aps pass through their vague, weak eyes
As once the ancient biddings and prayer-worn beads
Slipped gently through the lips and hands of men.
Dec 11, 2016
Dec 11, 2016 at 4:37 PM UTC
Peter once asked: which things make you feel something?
And the truth is I’ve been play pretending since quarentine
When I started to believe in a glamourous life
Lillies of the valley, meditation
Behind sunrise filters there’s someone unhappy, black and white
With a dull and wrinkled skin, she hates the sun
She always thought about her vocations
House decorator but she never could do it right
Just like singing, or dancing or even flerting but not like holding a gun
She lives in a small and warm house
Which she always wished the old roof to cave in
No garden, no breath, but death
Never met the green but fell in love with violence
And by that I mean - her mother talks about the path
God, unfriend of mine
Please, let me d-die
I’ve been play pretending since quarentine
When I started to believe in a fitness life
*** with cellulite but not like Jupiter
Curves all over the body but not like the ones on the road
There is hair, but not long enough and strong enough like Rapunzel's - for her men to entrust her with the climb
There are big arms, but not like Anette's because no one would stay in it for that long
There’s no art on her
November 1st 2021, she noticed that she was thinner but she couldn't wear her high waisted pants like she always wanted
Her mother would **** her if she did
So she prayed one more time
God, unfriend of mine
Please, let me d-die
I’ve been play pretending since quarentine
When I started to hide in the night life
‘Don’t trust the moon, she’s always changing’
Peter once asked: which things make you feel something?
So she prayed one more time
God, unfriend of mine
Please, let me d-die
Jan 17, 2023
Jan 17, 2023 at 11:03 PM UTC
Petals
Under all skies you need an umbrella made from perennial flowers that can block cruel rays and in
Stormy weather they become a colorful shield arrayed as a ghost army standing on a hill the colors
Of their banners are richly flowing they reach out over the former battle field in the valley a solemnity
Is carried to lofty heights revering the fallen honoring those who stand and await the next call to
Sacrifice this is your awareness under your slight canopy of blushing colors blues at the center are deep
And rich that suggest deep springs as you retrieve this bucket and it sloshes out over the side the closer
It gets to the surface the blue lightens to sky blue at the tips wondrous calm it delivers with a pulsating
Surging that invigorates the whole being of a sojourner without map and compass you tread to the
Beyond where you will find designs and integrity that is sweeping and bold a bag of tricks left by
Mother Nature when she was the lone interior decorator of earth’s natural places she received her
Genius from the same one that gave flowers their fragrance everything holds sun light delicately some is
Lighting others is for splitting light into light and shadow creating just the right effect a soothe that is
As big as the earth’s circumference with the tiniest touches the blooming draws the burnished brown
Sand from desert stores to the sheer grey granite mountain’s alluring views across vistas to the blue
Great waters shores an earthy child an her mother has just strolled through the comforts of your mind
And soul just a slight gust of wind to stir you to wonder about the blessing that are all around even in
The mix of life’s woes you are told you are loved and have a future flowers rain clouds sunshine they
Are just part of a promise largely told so you can walk with lions bold and shake off the tremble and
strain that sometimes arise out of a fallen world
Apr 19, 2012
Apr 19, 2012 at 4:16 PM UTC
It's a big sized classroom
And I'm out of place
I think a camera's like a microscope
Once it's in my way
I emailed my teacher
'Said I don't like my face
I don't like my mind
I just don't like myself these days
I like to write in bed,
It gets this anxiety off my chest
Its only 11 in the morning
And i'm tired and stressed
I'm balancing,
All my hopes and doubts
And all my friends have worries too
But they speak theirs out loud
I'm not a baker,
But a.. Decorator
I like to decorate messy thoughts with fairy lights, rhymes and paper
I'm not a counsellor
But a.. Listener
Oh could you listen to my new song whenever it'll suit ya...
Well tell me something, what do you like to do?
Where's your favourite spot,
In this world where I favourite you
In this lonely town, where i only want to be next to you
Oh did this just turn into a love poem as i turned down 5th avenue..
I like train rides too,
I'm overcoming my fear of that
I used to worry i'd get lost
But I always seem to get back on track.
Follow my heart, follow the paths..
Follow the stars, as they spell your name in CAP'S..
Is this really a heartbreak,
Or just a sharp paper cut?
Sometimes the only way to get through to me is by ripping the bandaid right off
You did nothing to hurt me
I'm just a writer so paper cuts..
They happen often,
But its not the blood that's the loss..
Are you in love?..
Wait, Should I really know?
Well all I can do is go on
Obliviously so..
Um, are you okay?
I think that's the better question..
It's such a big sized classroom,
Filled with such important lessons,
Now.
Nov 21, 2015
Nov 21, 2015 at 3:51 AM UTC
It makes as much sense as a colorblind interior decorator,
but you, my friend, are my dangerous refuge.
You are my safety
and my pain.
You are my constant
and my storm.
I run to you,
but oh I long to get away.
My breaking heart is the sound of you,
my breathless excitement signals you too.
I think I fell in love with the pain that you bring.
The ups and downs each capture me as well as your somewhat crooked smile does.
You have me on leash
and whenever I get too far away,
you know just how to yank me back.
You'd think I'd have learned by now that the pain isn't as fulfilling as walking away.
Maybe I'm a *********
Or maybe I'm just a silly teenage girl.
Nov 2, 2013
Nov 2, 2013 at 7:47 PM UTC
Never aspired to be
some kind of untouched, blank wall—
plain, pale, and ******
I think of artists’
hands on a living canvas—
and I get giddy.
These naked inches
hand-painted in poetry
by steady fingers.
Play me some Otis
as he sinks that ink for keeps.
Suddenly, I'm art.
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 9:51 AM UTC
You moved something inside me,
Set it to the right place
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 11:49 PM UTC
You don't understand
You say you're scared for me but
The eyes are clouded with fear
Can't you see that you're
Precious baby you carried for nine months
Wants to **** herself
And if I can't muster the courage to die
I'll cut up my body from the outside
Because inside my head is darker
I'm only making the interior
Match the exterior, and mommy,
I'm an expert home decorator
So let me paint the shingles red
The door and stoop too
We'll make it ugly and sinister
And it will match the insides
Of what is happening in my head
Then we'll demolish the house
I'll rip the door off its hinges
And wreck the the walls
Take down the sturdy wood inside
We can gut the house and burn
The excess wood
And everything will be ash
Because mommy, don't you get it
I just want to blow the whole
**** house up
Jan 4, 2014
Jan 4, 2014 at 6:05 AM UTC
10.
**( words and uncertainty)
i am a painter and decorator
with colour and words
the confectioner,
i like sweets, jelly rings.
i shall measure uncertainty, probably
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 2:44 AM UTC
His favored ones, whose backs bend o’er the soil,
He blessed the hands of the ones who look after
His animals, with loving care, with sweet voices,
So gentle so caring, then, he blessed his children
In everything they do. And that is you, my Johnny
Tears, praise, love, joy, enwoven in your chest
As I watch you make adjustments, like the river of life
However, Johnny where there are no Roses
There is no hope of predicting, the love of a side chick(😊
With lots of bedroom tricks, more than professional decorator:
My wonderful brave robustly man of the soil,
I love your smile, your pouty lips,
And the way in which you announce my name,
Your gift from God is supreme,
as well as my futuristic dreams
Brave one of the Caribbean soils,
It was a wonderful thing you done
That night as you stay up late and spoke
Hello to me!
May 7, 2022
May 7, 2022 at 11:46 AM UTC
If God was an interior decorator named Brighid, which means Exalted One, how should I pray to her if I felt destiny pushing me to become more?
If I aspired to be an avant-garde poet, should I move into that half-basement of a four-story brown stone walk-up, even though the last two tenants who rented the apartment died alone, and the landlord expects me to clean the urine-stained carpet?
Would Brighid reveal her plan for me?
Would she command me to rip-it all out and put in factory-finished walnut, to throw-down a white bearskin rug in front of the obsolete marble fireplace?
And what of poetry and fire?
Would Brighid tell me, “There are no absolutes in life, only clichés?”
And what if I asked only for this god’s mercy, happy to become a grocery-store romance writer because until now all my work went into the one porcelain crapper, and my dreams stir only in the metal hospital bed on loan from the Salvation Army?
If my view of the world is to be framed by steel bars outside every window, would I pray to have fresco walls or hand-painted wallpaper?
And what if I heard her laugh and tell me, “Darling, why not go retro, clean up the **** carpet, hang some black-and-white photographs and posters of the Rolling Stones and the Hell’s Angels? You know the whole sixties thing.”
Would I be prepared to change the world?
Apr 11, 2020
Apr 11, 2020 at 2:31 PM UTC